i feel so sad and heart broken and lonely... and all the signs of depression. i really really want to cry!!! as tho im writting this at the moment .. tears ARE coming down my cheeks.!!!
DUYEN I WANNA TELL YOU THIS STRAIGHT RIGHT HERE AND NOW!!!
I LOVE YOU!!! Duyen... i love you... baby i do... im sorry i pushed you away... it was my bad ... but it was for the good and maybe in that scence i think it still is... but.. im feeling so much pain... i miss you so much... I Love You So Much.
i only told you that lie is to push you away. because u being with me is too much presure. at one point u told me that whenever ur with me.. its wonderful but u were lying or betrying your mum... and i didnt want u to feel that way and wanted you to be happy. so i did what i thought was best. by pushing you away and u hating me so im totally out of your life... and i think my plan worked too too TOO WELL!!!
and so that is what is or was going on.. and what i want to tell you but i dont know if i should or not... i figured not but i just cant keep it to myself anymore. its been 7 whole months already... and i really miss you... i think of you. i dream of you... i get paranoid and i see you everywhere even your car!!!. almost everyone reminds me of you.
Thats all i wanted to say......
