ok.. referring to the comments of 'Monday, April 17, 2006' i guess i need to clear off some things..
ok 1st thing....
i am not hurting... killing... myself. also not addicted to drugs or alcohol... i havent touched that for like.. a few months now... maybe had like a drink or two a few weeks ago.. but im not addicted. i was addicted to drugs before but i quit, now im off it. the only thing im addicted to now is... coffee??? which is what i've always been addicted too.
2nd thing...
i havent been anywhere or sociallising because i have been working or if not then spending time sleeping or eatting or showering.. or spending time with my pregnant girlfriend which i also take care of and support. she still lives at her home and i come over there or she comes here to yadayadyada blah blah blah (you dont need to know what we do)..sleep. the money i work for is for her(to buy stuffs etc,baby stuffs, food, clothe.. whatever.), thats basically why im almost always broke. and yes.. pregnant women are hard to please. ( sorry hunni).
3rd thing...
also not socialising because i have school. and recently had my half yearly exams.... aka studying. but so far the only thing i've past is maths. 1st in my general math class. i have assignments to complete for software design and development. trying to finish high school and have a hsc. not really aim-ing to go to uni, i could always go to tafe or continue with my career since im 18 by the end of this year. and if i work hard enough i could own my own club. =D
4th thing..
you people said i have closed myself up ... again.
that i dont see but i guess you say that because i havent been talking to anyone. also too many major things have been happening and too much mixed feelings and emotion to organise to actually say anything, and also pretty moody these days as well... and my girlfriend is also moody... hard to keep up. um..
5th thing...
i am not trashing my life... maybe not sleeping enough but besides that i am happy of where i stand. well not really but im settled. i have work, "family", studies, and somewhere to eat and sleep at night, thats a pretty good life to most people.
ok.. i think thats about it for the 'Monday, April 17, 2006' comments... if theres anything else you want to know.. just ask. dont jump to conclusions. like mostly the one how im going to kill myself. -_-".. people misunderstand me sometimes too and im sorry. i can be misleading sometimes.
forgive me if i have been rude to you... offended you.. or even freaked or scared you.. i didnt mean too. its hard to identify myself while im stressed out.
-[Pd]-
