people are so judgemental for no particular reason at all.....

i was grocery shopping with my mum this arvo....

and for those of you that knows cabramatta... east?.. the kinda lonely side...
well theres an adult store there right next to an asian grocery store.. know it yet?...
anyways.. my mum went in there for the first time... and she took a seriously long time browsing, so there was a seat out side the store so i sat down.. waiting and waiting... and i happen to be facing the adult store.... and where i was.. there is a train station.. so heaps of people would pass me.. and so i sat there... staring blankly into the space in front because i was clearly bored out of my mind, certain people walked pass me with a disgusted look on their face... and some even mumbled!!...

come on... i wasn't doing anything.... the adult store wasn't even there... it's upstairs.. so technically i was just staring at a HUGE yellow store sign that says " everything ADULT" or something like that... in colourful letters.

why is the sign so colourful.... don't they know that colourful things tempt kids?

gosh that reminds me.... i remember when i was younger.. like 18 and under... my family would go to sports clubs (like mounties or the RSL clubs) to eat.. when we finished eating they would let us sit at the "common area" where all the lounges are, to wait for them as they went in the poker machines area to play a few games... and i would dream and wish for the day that i am old enough to step into that area to see what the commotions were about... because i was so attracted to the flashing lights and the noises...

then one day... that day came..... and boy, was i disappointed...
all those flashing lights... and noises... turned out to be.. a whole bunch of smokers / drinkers/ gamblers.. wasting all their money - their life.. ....

til this day.. i have not stepped back in that area.

i lost my point....

all well,

oh i remember.... all these colourful and shiny... flashy lights... attract people.... i know thats the point of it guys... i know... but i'm saying.. it doesn't just attract adults.... it attracts kids... and the curiosity grows and grows.. and once they get there, they either get disappointed like me and have no interest.. or they would get addicted.. and basically ruin their lives....

bad influences and habits... like gambling, alcohol. drugs, violence... etc... are all introduced pretty early on a person's life... like a simple task of bringing your parent a beer, or handing over a cigarette, and watching tv.... etc etc.. all influence a persons mind... especially kids... they catch onto these things without you knowing...
and they might grow up with a serious addictive problem...
that might end up killing them.

gar...

stupidity in the world today....

oh since im on such a mood...

i went to a bar to pick up a friend to take her home because she had drank too much to drive...
so i arrived.. and i walked in to find her and i walked pass this group of girls, and one of them had dropped her lip gloss.... or eyeliner... or something make-up-py.. so anyways... i tapped her shoulder to try to tell her that she had dropped something, she i guess she thought i wanted to pick her up or something because she would continuously cut me off as i spoke and said that she already has a drink (in a very... bitchy tone... and bitchy body language).. so i kinda just had enough of her attitude and just said on top of her talking that she dropped something then i left...

she has too much self-confidence for her own good... or just a stupid ego.

her friends took a chuckle at her ... so that made me feel a bit better...
well they chuckled at me too, seeming they all thought i wanted to pick her up...

.... now my friend would not drop this moment... she laughed so hard she could not walk to the car and i wanted to just leave that place, coz it just didnt feel right, at all.. so i had to carry her to the car... and she was struggling for air.

i can imagine her as one of those girls that stands in front of her mirror complimenting herself...
allllll daaaaayyyy looonnnggg....

she aint pleasing to the eye...
.you know what.. i know this would bite me in the arse one day but... if you not hot or pretty or cute... DONT BE A BITCH!!!...
if your hot... pretty... or cute.. you can be.. because most of the time.. you can pull it off...
ugly people.. ... just dont... you dont have anything to back u up with...




...but then again... the world wouldnt be amusing/interesting without them...
would just be plain and boring...
with the help of the imperfections and the perfections.. there is a normal...

i probably wouldnt want it any other way....

people ask me.. on occasion... that if i could be anyone for a day.. who would it be....
or..
if i could turn back time.. what would i have chnaged in my life...
or...
if i had three wishes or one wish.. what would it be...


really, i wouldnt change a thing in my past, there were huge ups and downs... but that is what built me... and i am pretty much ok with myself.
and with that said... i wouldnt want to be anyone else... i learnt to live with myself and my life isnt so bad to think of it... i dont want to be anyone famous even though they rich and etc.. but i dont like to be in the spotlight... having people on my back 24/7 and dish dirt about me when i slip up.
and wishes?... i have dreams.. and i will work hard to get it... nothing is just handed to yah.



..

omg.. my friend just introduced me to the most fucked up yet beautiful song ..
it is... " slow motion" by Third Eye Blind.
judge for yourself.
i think i love it...

yes, i am into these sort of things...
twisted beauty...

i love twisted beauty. the closest thing if not the truth to everything.

-[Pd]-