memories

well.. i just noticed a picture.. well more like a painting, .. in my art room at school. and its a painting of a girl with a guitar. she is set with a guitar outside on a grass field and shes wearing a light blue traditional vietnamese dress and just playing the guitar. And it reminded me of duyen, and the time when we were still going out. and she wanted to paint a picture with a girl n guitar, just like that except with the girl looking up to the sky , leaning on a wall or a door and playing the guitar. i remeber so well because she got the idea from me, i was the one with the guitar. But i dont knoe if she actually did do it.
its just that whole image... it really reminds me of her. actually almost everything does.... do u know that feeling? i think u do. bcoz.. i know this coz i think u are helen... or sara.. or if ur not then im really surprized... someone has actually viewed my blog..
um. as was on my nick "who i am will influence who i will me and who i am is not here anymore and is never coming back. but only my bads."


Peace.
PeanutDevil.

is it.

Is it wrong to love or still love someone when they dont love you ? or anymore? Is it wrong for me to say that i still love Duyen? or am i just kiddin myself.

Well my friends, is all this weighing on your mine like so is mine? i sit here and think of her .. like always? u say? well yes like alway.. and i start to really realise how much i really do care for her but it is really too late fore anything o happen anymore. i wish it could. even just friends is fine. i just want her at least some where in my life again.. and not just in my heart n mind. i want to share about alot of things but.. i dont know how. im not good with words lol.


I had a dream last night. and i am not sure if i should share it on here.. well anywhere in a matter of fact. and now.. i am so tired.. i need to sleep...
good night n sweet dreams / good day and enjoy it.

Peace
PeanutDevil.