wow, is this real??!!

lol... ok.. so something suprisingly shocking? happened..
so anyways, this girl i met while i was in L.A, her name is marilyn, well she flew all the way from L.A to see me!! and we dont even know each other enough for something like that to happen... lol.

i just have to say this first.. have you ever seen someone that likes you, shaking and tremble or completely speechless as they are trying to talking to you? well i did, and that was the most cutest, sweetest thing EVER!!... lol

i was working last night in the studio with jane and jane told me she'd be gone for like two hours for a meeting.. and then she came back and marilyn was with her!! i was totally shocked!! she was so beautiful just standing there with roses in her hands.. i could see that she was shaking, that must be the most sweetest, most romantic thing i have experienced ever...
she was just standing there, so i walked over to invite her in... she couldnt speak for like about 5mins? lol.. and i asking.. "wow, what are you doing here" sorta questions...
and she said " i came here to see you,since that night we met, i couldnt and cant stop thinking of you." " i just had to do something to see you, and i dont know when you were going to come back, so i called up jane and she helped me out, and now i'm here".

marilyn is such a sweet amazing girl... and pretty amazing? to fly here JUST to see me.. its just wow.... this makes me feel like im on top of the moon!! i'd never thought someone can feel so strongly about me like this before..

i'll write more next time..

-[Pd]-


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(part 2 of posty)

ok .. so where was i?.. ah, yes.. um.. yea i never had anyone feels so strong about me before... well maybe i have but I DONT KNOW..

she's going to leave in a couple of days, i met her when i was working with bradly in the studio, she was one of the staffs there that looks after the studios...
Marilyn reminds me of Katie Melua.. lol , when i saw her i thought i was meeting katie melua!! lol.. but she was one of the staffs. Marilyn actually help me with most of the equiptment there, which was really cool.

so anyways... shes here now and its so cute to watch someone go weak for you!! lol...

just had brunch with her... coz breaky lasted till lunch!! lol... and she is staying with jane,

now, i dont know where to go from here.

-[Pd]-

Be careful on what you wish and dream for.

Wishes and dreams can be very deadly... Dangerous I mean. I can turn out good, great, it could be the best thing ever... but it can also be so out of control that neither you nor anyone else can handle it... I found that out the hard way.


One of the girls said to me “Love only comes once in your life” and that makes me wonder… how do you know if its love, how do you know if it’s there. How do you know what love is? What I found out is that I don’t know what love is, I’d always thought I knew, but I realized that it was only an overwhelming excitement of new experiences. That’s what I realized with part of my feelings…

I’ve always said that I’m a committed person, and I personally still believe that I am!!! I mean like if I do like (“LOVE”) someone then I’ll give them my full attention… but lately I’ve been really messed up in that factor… I’ve been jumping from here to there… continuously with new girls every so often, and honestly I don’t know way it’s happening, I don’t even realize it until its now too late!! I think maybe this is happening is because I want to see my options… like look for someone I actually like, then I’ll stop, but I have found someone I really like, but I cant be with her so I try to continue this random pick up play… to forget about the fact I cant have her…. Is that right? Is that’s what’s happening? Probably.

I feel so messed up. I don’t know what I really want right now. Things that I want just always seem to have a positive and a negative… but then everything is like that, if not to you then for others around you or just others.

-[Pd]-

i love simple things...

I LOVE SIMPLE THINGS!!!...... just thought i'd make that clear lol..

i like to do simple things... maybe because i have a simple mind.... most of the time anyways..

yea.. i went out with nicky last night, and i had a great time... actually both of us had a great time... we went for dinner then caught a movie (we watched superbad, it was a good movie!!) then went for ice-cream... lol.. and according to her, i am her "junkfood".... and i dont mind lol.. because that means im special to her... lol.. because you know how people are toward junkfood... they want it but they know they shouldnt have it... and when they do have it, IT FEELS GREAT!! lol.. you know what i mean?
she's great... and she likes to hang out with me... just hang out you know? and we dont need to do anything EXTREME to enjoy each other's company.. we just sit and talk kinda thing... have a drive, catch a movie... have dinner..

ANYWAYS... lol.. enough about nicky..and how great she is and makes me feel....

HOW ARE YOU?? i'm sorry i havent asked that in a while.. you know that i care about each and everyone of you.... i just forget to say things once in a while, you know? i try my best to have time for each and everyone of you as well... and blogging just helps me to reach out to all of you at once!! LOL... you know how lazy i am ^_^" .

pretty busy with work as well... the Australian's dj-ing competition is on soon AND The world's dj competition is coming back again soon also... and need to prepare for it..... not sure if i want to attend it this year...
maybe i should skip it and try to work on an album instead, like perfect recording all the songs i've writen... pro it up.. if you like.. lol... i think that'll be better...

yea.. if you must know.. i'm still having trouble with relationships.. i dont know why it's so hard though.... i dont know what sort of status i'm in with them, like what am i to them? like do they see me as a partner? a friend? a something? lol.. i dont know.. thats the trouble with relations and bonding. it can never make sence.

oh yea... ROUNDABOUTS ARE FUN!! went around the roundabouts about three times with nicky last night lol.... yes.. simple silly things amuses me as well... but isnt that a good thing? i think its a great thing!! it just simply means that i can enjoy life more easier and quicker...
everything has a simple side of it.. and i love that fact... it doesnt make me a lazy person to everything.. lol

my heart is feeling pretty good at the moment.. I am feeling pretty good. and i'm glad i said that, because it's true.

i feel good, and lets hope that feeling stays for a while... forever even...

enjoy your day/night.

-[Pd]-

in the land of women

In the land of women is a movie i am currently watching...
this movie, i bought a while back.. well anyway.. im watching it again.. now..

i like this movie, for me its an emotional yet feel good movie that encourage me tp just sit down a think about the people around me, but you got to pay attention in order to understand, the story either goes too quickly or too simutationally that you cant understand, or it can be boring for you... but i like it.

theres a scene in there where a girl is pissed off and she runs to the bathroom, locked the door then turned on the tap... now that makes me think... i probably know the answer but i still want to know, why does it feel so good being around fast running powerful water? is it because of the strong high pressure feeling of freedom is being released?(gee i dont even know if that made sence?)

a smile can make you cry... either from a beautiful moment or a really nasty mean one... a smile and make you cry.

why does it feel so good just to sit in the middle of an empty park......??

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erm.. dont really know what to write here... i just thought i havent posted in a while so thought i'd swing by to pop in a line or two... or more.. who knows.

so.. lets see. hm.

why do little kiddies pick their nose then eat it?.. lol

why cant i perfect my skateboarding skills??

why do i continue to push myself to the edge??

why am i running out of things to say??

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