oh hello

nothing much as changed ... some people are still jerks and some i still love.

i went to vote today for the election, and i saw her. my mind went racing but my heart felt nothing...

i ignored....

i guess its a good thing.

on another note that is the same same but different?

i had a moment today when i didn't know what to call her... my gf? or girl? or her, she blah blah blah.

spent the whole 16hours with her... went to dinner then movie then stayed up talking(and other monkey business too) had breakfast and went voting with her (yea... so the ex saw me with another... intense.) ... i think it's about time to make it official. seriously. time to commit. who am i trying to convince? myself.

i thought my mind was straight... i guess actions do speak louder than words...

i thought it would be easy.. because i found her , someone i am really crazy about and such... and i can finally be in a proper relationship... but i guess my eyes still like to eat candy.

she found out about my pass and it is bothering her... she wants to try, but it won't be easy, i know.

i like her.

i regret not listening when people say there will be consequences .. i just wanted to play..

girl after girl after girl.... doesn't make me a winner, only causes problems.

now i see.

maybe i don't like being labelled. it feels... restricting.

i want to be how i feel like, and when someone says that i am something... then i don't feel like myself.

i hate when people talk about religion, politics , and gender.... i'm not on any side of anything

i feel like i break too many rules to be religious.

politics is bullshit talk, and they will never get my interest until they legalise gay marriages.

and gender? you just can't help who you fall for.

..... blah i went away and lost my thought...

there is so much going on.....

most of the time i don't understand the situation... but im one who accepts things how it is... i don't questions but i feel like i should.

a friend is getting engaged .. or is engaged...

and it makes me miss Matt, a lot... or maybe abit more than a lot.

and it hurts when i miss him.

i often wonder about how life would be if i was with him... it he is still around.

overall, i regret not saying yes. and i miss him.

it's lonely.

...learnt a few facts tonight.... my mind is totally blown, but disappointing.

i don't know why i expect so much from people... we're all the same in one way or another.

been a tough week at work... the bitch is on my back.

my workplace... has the creepiest men i have ever met, and i feel really uncomfortable around them.

im sleepy.