Sad day today...... felt too lazy!!! and alot of things on my mind.
I had a really long think about what i should do with Fiona -_-".............
about only 2 weeks since me n her started going out. but is not going well! the reason being is that she is unfaithful aka cheating... its rather on me or on the other dude. which ever way, i dont like it.. nor the other dude lol.. well now im trying or made clear that its over..... shes still around.
on that kinda case.. i'v brrn thinking about/of Duyen alot again.. to this point i dont know if its a good thing or bad thing anymore.
well!!! school sucks right now.... cant keep up... still having peer problems also.
my toe is getting better!!^_^ so is my head? but not sure about my health is getting better...
havent been sleeping for about 3 weeks now. =./
life sucks....ROFL
Fuck 'em all
Saturday, July 16, 2005
" i want to date someone because i am bored!"
this - means different story.
" i want to date someone because i am bored!" i cant believe i actually said that!! -_-" i dont know if i meant it or not but i said it. and it sounded pretty stressing to me... for sure because i have never had that thought, ok i think what i meant was to pick up someone becuase i am bored. but i said " i want to date someone because i am bored!" ok some of you may think this is no big deal but i think its a big deal lol.. coz its... stupid? basically. the thought to going out with someone .. to be is a big deal. even a fling is a big deal and its not suppose to be lol!!!.
i just cant believe i said it. -_-"
eyyyy..... i don't really know what i'm saying..... if u get all that up there.. lol u know me pretty good.^_^
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ok.. on other news. i broke my toe. lol... how? had a hit and run accidient with a car and obviously they. more like HE ran away... what happened? well i was crossing a crossing and a car speed past as i was half way thru to the otherside and i got hit and he drove over my foot to get away so now my poor big toe is broken.. well for 2 weeks now.. i just got out of bed =/ so here i am back on the net ^_^ hehe... so im ok now. still in pain but im ok ^_^.
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oh yea. on another hand i have met a girl. and shes um.. pretty kool? lol.. her name is Fiona. yea.. lets leave it as that.
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went to a party at joey's and it was pretty lame? lol.. sorry guys. but if u call it a party than it shouldnt be like that lol.. but i guess different people have different ideas of parties and gatherings.. nah man it was alright.. although i didnt drink met a couple of new people. nice people.
i had control over the music :D so that was kool. mixed up the "party". lol...
well thats all.
[Pd]
" i want to date someone because i am bored!" i cant believe i actually said that!! -_-" i dont know if i meant it or not but i said it. and it sounded pretty stressing to me... for sure because i have never had that thought, ok i think what i meant was to pick up someone becuase i am bored. but i said " i want to date someone because i am bored!" ok some of you may think this is no big deal but i think its a big deal lol.. coz its... stupid? basically. the thought to going out with someone .. to be is a big deal. even a fling is a big deal and its not suppose to be lol!!!.
i just cant believe i said it. -_-"
eyyyy..... i don't really know what i'm saying..... if u get all that up there.. lol u know me pretty good.^_^
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ok.. on other news. i broke my toe. lol... how? had a hit and run accidient with a car and obviously they. more like HE ran away... what happened? well i was crossing a crossing and a car speed past as i was half way thru to the otherside and i got hit and he drove over my foot to get away so now my poor big toe is broken.. well for 2 weeks now.. i just got out of bed =/ so here i am back on the net ^_^ hehe... so im ok now. still in pain but im ok ^_^.
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oh yea. on another hand i have met a girl. and shes um.. pretty kool? lol.. her name is Fiona. yea.. lets leave it as that.
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went to a party at joey's and it was pretty lame? lol.. sorry guys. but if u call it a party than it shouldnt be like that lol.. but i guess different people have different ideas of parties and gatherings.. nah man it was alright.. although i didnt drink met a couple of new people. nice people.
i had control over the music :D so that was kool. mixed up the "party". lol...
well thats all.
[Pd]
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
well.. at this point all i really want to do is just sit here.
i dont want to do anything anymore.. they all seem so useless in the end. not feeling any proud or happy either. just feel. on a certain point of empty. but there.
i think i'v caused enough trouble. i just want to leave now. that i know i can. its so kinda frustrating that people want me to stay but dont even know me, like.. out of no where i'm important. where has that come from?! since when do people notice me. i want to leave sooner than i'm suppose to. like now would be good. theres so many ways i could yet im still here!. why? i can honestly say i dont know. everything is over. its done. its gone. i give up upon everything.
And one thing.. i cant stand that is... Friends!!! at first.. they are all " hey man,, i care.. " etc... and one lil miner thing comes and their gone before u can say hi. or if its just something they didnt expect from you has come out. they gone. i cant stand that. Really i cant. u trust them.. u be honest and they leave u hanging with nothing left but hurtfulness?. im frustrated with life now. i cant stand the sight and yet im still here. I guess i dont have a true friend.i only have people to hang out with.. but no true friend. they say that friends last a lifetime, but i guess i dont have friends so they dont. so think about who is your friends and who is ur hang outs.does it matter? u say?. it does.. because who is going to stand next to ur hospital bed when ur dying, who's face are u going to see last,whos tears are u going to taste. u dont know do u. i sure know mine are.. no one. i thank and appreciate all the ones that are here now. but im sure u wont be for long.
why must i be so negative all the time u say? because if u think on what i say its all true. and thats how i see life. harsh and filled up with lies. its all true.
" Funny how everyone thinks that making a promise will somehow help. In the end it will only hurt you more when they break them."
i dont want to do anything anymore.. they all seem so useless in the end. not feeling any proud or happy either. just feel. on a certain point of empty. but there.
i think i'v caused enough trouble. i just want to leave now. that i know i can. its so kinda frustrating that people want me to stay but dont even know me, like.. out of no where i'm important. where has that come from?! since when do people notice me. i want to leave sooner than i'm suppose to. like now would be good. theres so many ways i could yet im still here!. why? i can honestly say i dont know. everything is over. its done. its gone. i give up upon everything.
And one thing.. i cant stand that is... Friends!!! at first.. they are all " hey man,, i care.. " etc... and one lil miner thing comes and their gone before u can say hi. or if its just something they didnt expect from you has come out. they gone. i cant stand that. Really i cant. u trust them.. u be honest and they leave u hanging with nothing left but hurtfulness?. im frustrated with life now. i cant stand the sight and yet im still here. I guess i dont have a true friend.i only have people to hang out with.. but no true friend. they say that friends last a lifetime, but i guess i dont have friends so they dont. so think about who is your friends and who is ur hang outs.does it matter? u say?. it does.. because who is going to stand next to ur hospital bed when ur dying, who's face are u going to see last,whos tears are u going to taste. u dont know do u. i sure know mine are.. no one. i thank and appreciate all the ones that are here now. but im sure u wont be for long.
why must i be so negative all the time u say? because if u think on what i say its all true. and thats how i see life. harsh and filled up with lies. its all true.
" Funny how everyone thinks that making a promise will somehow help. In the end it will only hurt you more when they break them."
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