well after i wrote that last post.... i need to watch how i talk.... because i feel like a totally jerk and not listen to what i say. THAT is because i feel so... unwanting to be apart of anything but mopping around wanting to kill myself and such and such..........blah blah blah.... i cried my eyes out last night because i was breaking off alot of close or useless relationships.... in other words.. pushing people away and not wanting anyone to be around me.. i guess that for the near future this blog space will be my best friend.. even though i never really had one.. because most of .. well two of my best buds died.. and lately .. im not close with anyone.. and i really need to let go of duyen... i know i should have a really long time ago.. but i will now... because i cant take anything anymore... nor serious or a joke.... i dont want any feelings. i dont want to waste my tears anymore. And i really do not want to get hurt anymore.... coz it takes two to tango but i stand alone so i should just quit. i want to close myself off!! i think i will continue pushing people away... i dont want anything to do with you people anymore... please dont take it personally.. i just need time.. to myself... from myself... to.. find.. i gues.. my destiny?....
cya laters....
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