I just want to say that i am very much pissed off today....and there are many reasons why. and the one mostly on my nerves right now is how immature guys can be. mostly in HIGH SCHOOL!!!. YEAR 12!!! -_-" if only i had a weapon.... i would have... or picked up a chair and such and such BUT.. well yea.. i tried not to hurt anyone... coz its in school.... im not that stupid to start or end for that matter a riot in school!!. *sigh*
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Linda Tried to pull a suicidal act .. it was on Sunday.. and she is released from hospital today. -_-"
she doesnt want to tell me why she did it.. but then.. why did she call me when she did it?? does it got anything to do with me?? is that why she called me? i cant figure it out.. i mean like.. i have a clue or my own conclusion.. but i cant be right. its not proven. she wants here there but doesnt tell me why. we arnt that close, i dont even know her. and this may be bad but.. i do feel frustrated and im not as patient as i use to be either.
and another thing i've noticed.. is.. whenever.. someone (within the people i know) suicide... attempt suicide... they almost always call me. is it because im suicidal and they want someone that has been there before?.
I have so many questions to everything.. but true fact is theres is never enough answers for there are questions.
People expect me to have answers for them... but geez man.. im not BOB (back of book / answers located at behind a text book). but then again.. i dont mind helping people with problems or issues they have, just to sit down and talk to them.. face to face. i dont like talking over the phone or net about problems.. i want to be able to feel the connection to be able to talk to them, or read body sign/ language of theirs to understand them..
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and another thing i just need to talk about lol.. myself. i cant talk to like.. a pacific person about this.. it just seems to stupid, so i rather talk.. in general.. lol..
i noticed that the people i meet these days.. are not like u know.. virgins.. lol.. i cant find a decent person. and thats fine... but its like.. they always want more. they just cant settle with hugs and kisses... they just always want more... they cant pace themselves.... they rush and.. i dont want it.. and its like... *sigh*... lets stop there...
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Anyways..... school crushes update...
um.... i would say it would still be christine... i guess lol.. (yr 11 2006)
um... my grade? i dont know im not sure.. i dont think anyone... actually.. this is not a crush but i think Adriana is hot. in a cool way. but still hot lol.(yr 12 2006)
no more..
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i have been eating healthy and badly craving heavy junk food!!! had breaky at mcdonolds on sunday with Helen.. but got really sick after eating um... a hashbrown and a sausage macmuffin... -_-.. which is a good thing right? lol...man i didnt noticed how much oil and stuff...yuck...
been working out for a while now too. my muscles and abs are starting to slowly come back... which is a really good thing!!!
anyhow... this is the end of this... so..
chill out.... i know i should...
-[Pd]-
