hey.... keep it simple...
keep what simple?.... i dont know..
how?... i dont know..
"keep it simple"....pretty easy to say isnt it...
how do you act upon that though, how can you control something to keep it simple, i know i cant... even though i look i can... really, honestly i cant keep it simple.
um, maybe i think too much and in too deep that it makes a situation more complicated than it really is... i just realised that today, that habit is a disadvantage for me but an advantage for others....
but why do i do that for...
i was just chatting to a friend that im having personal emotional issues with... and i really wanted to tell her what im going through with her and how much i wanted to stop it... like to just have a break from each other or not see each other anymore.. i almost did it... but i hesitated, why? because it feels good talking to her, but at the same time it was awkward coz i didnt say what i needed to say to her, i was just holding on for a reason on why she was so absent.. and when the reason came, i was glad then that i didnt tell her.. but now i regret not telling her, i should have told her.
see how much it messes me up inside?...
if only she reads this blog... then i dont need to directly say it to her... but no... i dont want her to read this... how personally fucked up i feel and plus that would be a coward way to communicate to someone.. especially someone that means so much...
so that was a close call.
so.... how am i suppose to keep that simple...
i am feeling completely dismantled.
-[Pd]-
