... Last night was um.... hektic?lol... but sweet because i was at a wedding... omg... i almost cried... lol... yea... *i wish u all the best Sinh & Jenny!!!*......
so anyways... that night.. i wanted to stay home!!! but NO!! i had to go..=(..hm...
-_- if only u n i were..... then we could spend sum time together last night... but alwells... u cant have everything u want!.....lol i showed up in jeans.. lol... odd one out...lol... hm.. danced(forced!!)(i shouldv danced with D ... but i didnt,,,=( i regret that so much!!) with a couple of peoples on the bride side( im on the man side) lol the bride's maids... lol.. i know people on the bride side lol. but i didnt know... lol one of the bride's maid was..... i say was... my ex lol... that i havnt talk to or seen in a very long while..... so i was shock when i saw her.... hm....
lol.. i just realised this was the first wedding i attended in like... 3? years... lol... amazing.. lol... you know what i realised... Love... Love is like a chasing game... why is that... its like we adore people that dont think of us at all and leave the people that adore us aside... everybody does that.. why is that.... even i do that...but.... i cant say that about everyone... because some people are lucky enough to find there ends of adorance.... they find each other... well.. i wouldnt call it luck... more of fate.... like in the oc says.." you cant fight fate man"...but then.. what if.. theres two somebodys for one person.....???...and what if.. 2 people likes one person but that one person likes someone else...??? lol ok now im just confussing myself..probably u too... .. um.. yerrrraa..... ok im lost.. i lost my point to this one lol.. ok im out...
peace out..
Peanut
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Saturday, October 30, 2004
outrageous...!!! what am i saying in this one!!! hahaha
.....Oh… its so hot and I need some air… If anyone knows me…what so ever… they should know that I like the average girl way better than strippers!!! LoL....
Hey how do u react to this "Lay back baby, close your eyes ,Ice on the pinky finger froze your thighs"..? lol...
you know what... instead of me going on about hot sexy stuffs... way dont i give ya'll some tips...about the female body.... you know .. how to satisfy a lady...it might be true.. it might be not.. but this is what i've learnt in my days lol ~_^
so.. here it goes : (WARNING!!!! this could get a lil .. u know.. so if u dont want to know/read it then DONT!!!![dont say i didnt warn ya coz i just did!!])
1- Spine-While you should never massage the spine directly, feel free to use your tongue or fingers to glide up it every now and then. To drive her crazy, let your tongue graze over the little hairs on her back. Or, you can always use your fingers to tickle your way up to her neck.
2- Behind the neck- Believe it or not, for some women, the back of the neck is the spot that makes them melt. Next time you kiss your girl , move her hair away from her neck (if applicable) and breathe on her neck, letting your lips graze against it before you kiss and then lightly bite into it.
3- Scalp- While you're kissing your girl, put your hands on the back of her head and massage her scalp for a minute. As well, feel free to give her hair a little tug from the roots; it will heighten her senses.
4- Shoulders -From kissing and massaging to lightly biting, the shoulders are an oft-ignored body part, but should be given some serious attention. Because this area of a woman's body is often neglected, when you do spend some time appreciating her shoulders, she will get the chills and, in turn, you will get your thrills.
5- Breasts (not nipples) -We tend to instinctively head straight for the nipples and only grab on to the breasts when we want to bring the nipples closer to our mouths. However, if you want her nipple to beg for your attention, you need to spend some time kissing and caressing the surrounding area -- the breast. Lick and bite near the nipples without actually touching them and she'll be begging you to wrap your mouth around them.
6- Outer labia -As with the breast, when it comes to the vagina , we tend to dive right into the wet spot and ignore the outer lips. Assuming she's well-groomed, use your mouth and tongue to lick and kiss the labia majors of your woman's vagina and when you finally head on in, she'll be soaked.
7- Ankles- It's somewhat anti-climactic to finish off with it, I know, but some women love having their feet kissed and touched. But rather than her feet, opt to kiss and caress her ankles instead. Be careful; don't bite the area because it can hurt her.
well that all i can think of at this very moment.. lol...
alright.. Peace out ya'll
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Hey how do u react to this "Lay back baby, close your eyes ,Ice on the pinky finger froze your thighs"..? lol...
you know what... instead of me going on about hot sexy stuffs... way dont i give ya'll some tips...about the female body.... you know .. how to satisfy a lady...it might be true.. it might be not.. but this is what i've learnt in my days lol ~_^
so.. here it goes : (WARNING!!!! this could get a lil .. u know.. so if u dont want to know/read it then DONT!!!![dont say i didnt warn ya coz i just did!!])
1- Spine-While you should never massage the spine directly, feel free to use your tongue or fingers to glide up it every now and then. To drive her crazy, let your tongue graze over the little hairs on her back. Or, you can always use your fingers to tickle your way up to her neck.
2- Behind the neck- Believe it or not, for some women, the back of the neck is the spot that makes them melt. Next time you kiss your girl , move her hair away from her neck (if applicable) and breathe on her neck, letting your lips graze against it before you kiss and then lightly bite into it.
3- Scalp- While you're kissing your girl, put your hands on the back of her head and massage her scalp for a minute. As well, feel free to give her hair a little tug from the roots; it will heighten her senses.
4- Shoulders -From kissing and massaging to lightly biting, the shoulders are an oft-ignored body part, but should be given some serious attention. Because this area of a woman's body is often neglected, when you do spend some time appreciating her shoulders, she will get the chills and, in turn, you will get your thrills.
5- Breasts (not nipples) -We tend to instinctively head straight for the nipples and only grab on to the breasts when we want to bring the nipples closer to our mouths. However, if you want her nipple to beg for your attention, you need to spend some time kissing and caressing the surrounding area -- the breast. Lick and bite near the nipples without actually touching them and she'll be begging you to wrap your mouth around them.
6- Outer labia -As with the breast, when it comes to the vagina , we tend to dive right into the wet spot and ignore the outer lips. Assuming she's well-groomed, use your mouth and tongue to lick and kiss the labia majors of your woman's vagina and when you finally head on in, she'll be soaked.
7- Ankles- It's somewhat anti-climactic to finish off with it, I know, but some women love having their feet kissed and touched. But rather than her feet, opt to kiss and caress her ankles instead. Be careful; don't bite the area because it can hurt her.
well that all i can think of at this very moment.. lol...
alright.. Peace out ya'll
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Thursday, October 28, 2004
The Lust Factor......?????!!! WHAT??? yup... wait NO its HER!!
ok... THE LUST FACTOR.. ahem.... lol wait.. hold up.. is that all i've been thinking about for the last 2 days?.... hahahaha... well i must of admit.. it was kinda.... fun?.. thinking about the old days.. the memories..(please dont get me wrong..i think u all know and understand wat i sayin..lol).. and if u have been reading my blogs... u just have to guess this right... yes i am thinking of her... that beautiful..... SEXY!!!,.... passionate.. wonderful girl!!! =D.... omg... "D".. lol....
I remember the first time i actually met her... *smiles* (it was at skool by the way!!)that was a sweet moment... !!!! ^_^ *the first thought* wow! shes beautiful...and i kept looking.. "whaow i think shes a fun person to spend time with"...lol i remember our first conversation lol... it was about how i wanted a lazer gun hahaha.. that was so stupid... lol... i dont know but.. it ended up with she owes me the gun and Ann(a friend of hers but i know..) owes me diamonds to use for the laser lol... (but then wouldnt i just sell them and get money instead?? lol).. so.. that was about it for that day.. lol.. actually i left with a great impression of her... u know the saying " left breathless" that was it! then the night came... do you know how hard it is to sleep when u found and absolute perfect person? that u really want... well need in ur life?!! omgosh.. but then....PAUSE RIGHT THERE!!! i had to wait to see if she felt the same.. because.. being gay.. well bi in my case isnt that easy to have a possitive reply.. it actually took a fairly long while... then,..... after that long while (hell it felt long a very very long while!!!!! but then it came!=D)i felt... her feelings..(it sounds a lil crazy n weird but) i sensed it.. that strong feeling... i looked into her eyes and i wanted to kiss her right there and then!!.. but unsure if she was comfortable with it...so.. that was a miss out..then.. i waited 2 weeks again... then it happened again.. so this time i was sure about the feeling and trusted my heart and went for it.. i asked her out.. but.. i was so sure that i was thinking too much while wanting to ask her... and it wasnt a nice ask out either... lol i asked at skool and wanted to find somewhere quiet and private.. but that blew out.. skool was packed that day lol.. so i walked her away from friends sat her down and lol i didnt say anything.. took me a while?.. THEN the BELL RANG!!!! so i said.. " would u like to be my gf".. but i dont think she heard me... =/... cause she said "what?" as i said i was thinking too much at that moment.. than i said " you and me.... think about it... and reply when ur ready"... then off to class.... omg.. so nervous!!!! lol.. off to history for me... so wraped in that.. didnt pay enought attention in class lol got sent out... skool ended... it was like... 4:00pm... yea i think around there... she called... told me to come out... to... "my bridge" lol... *ahem* yea... and said.. a reasonable rejection... so that week was a total... weird... bad week... then that week ended... then u know wat?? SHE SAID YES!!!!! omgosh that was the best day..(as u could imagine!!!) she made my day.... .. ok... this is alot to read lol...
well then life went on.. lol... i remember our first handhold... =D.. it was on the bus... lol we were on the way to the end of skool picnic... 2003... it was slow but we got there... that day was great... lol... i made her sit in the water for so long.. i think she went cold..... (sorry).. but the sun was there so it was alright... ^_^ yea.. it was a fun day...after that... i held her hand and bag.. and walked her home...^_^... she lives like 4 st's away from me... i got a huge tan on that day man lol... ...
our first date lol.. it was with her friends... at um.. Livo? or para... i think it was livo westfields... that was fun too lol.. then X-mas came.. =D spent it at my house... then my bday was shorty after that.. spent at my house again... then new year came... we went to the city and with her cousin... to watch fireworks... =D pretty.... on that night.. i would actually call that the first kiss... lol.. [is it true that how u spent our new year is how ur year would turn out to be?please comment on that i wanna know lol] came home late and got in heaps of trouble lol.. suppose to be grounded but went out neways... and then... the real deal started.... it was first month... i gave her a kiss on the way to her house... she didnt respon so i was like.. did i do that wrong?.. lol.. but the next day changed lol.. uh huh.. thats right... i dont think we got enough of each other... we spent so much time together that her parents kicked me out of the house.. ... oh that was tough.. well on her u know... well newayz....time went by... lust .... temptation went stronger... and so my memories began..... i dont wanna talk about it lol.. too much ... yea... it was like %%%$&^**(*%$@~~~!@_)(*&^%$#@_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^%$# kinda thing... lol.. ..... u could say i have been beaten in my own game ~_^... lol... i just realised (again) that this is pretty long.. and and AND.. i got alot of homework to catch up on.. lol so yea...
Peace out
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I remember the first time i actually met her... *smiles* (it was at skool by the way!!)that was a sweet moment... !!!! ^_^ *the first thought* wow! shes beautiful...and i kept looking.. "whaow i think shes a fun person to spend time with"...lol i remember our first conversation lol... it was about how i wanted a lazer gun hahaha.. that was so stupid... lol... i dont know but.. it ended up with she owes me the gun and Ann(a friend of hers but i know..) owes me diamonds to use for the laser lol... (but then wouldnt i just sell them and get money instead?? lol).. so.. that was about it for that day.. lol.. actually i left with a great impression of her... u know the saying " left breathless" that was it! then the night came... do you know how hard it is to sleep when u found and absolute perfect person? that u really want... well need in ur life?!! omgosh.. but then....PAUSE RIGHT THERE!!! i had to wait to see if she felt the same.. because.. being gay.. well bi in my case isnt that easy to have a possitive reply.. it actually took a fairly long while... then,..... after that long while (hell it felt long a very very long while!!!!! but then it came!=D)i felt... her feelings..(it sounds a lil crazy n weird but) i sensed it.. that strong feeling... i looked into her eyes and i wanted to kiss her right there and then!!.. but unsure if she was comfortable with it...so.. that was a miss out..then.. i waited 2 weeks again... then it happened again.. so this time i was sure about the feeling and trusted my heart and went for it.. i asked her out.. but.. i was so sure that i was thinking too much while wanting to ask her... and it wasnt a nice ask out either... lol i asked at skool and wanted to find somewhere quiet and private.. but that blew out.. skool was packed that day lol.. so i walked her away from friends sat her down and lol i didnt say anything.. took me a while?.. THEN the BELL RANG!!!! so i said.. " would u like to be my gf".. but i dont think she heard me... =/... cause she said "what?" as i said i was thinking too much at that moment.. than i said " you and me.... think about it... and reply when ur ready"... then off to class.... omg.. so nervous!!!! lol.. off to history for me... so wraped in that.. didnt pay enought attention in class lol got sent out... skool ended... it was like... 4:00pm... yea i think around there... she called... told me to come out... to... "my bridge" lol... *ahem* yea... and said.. a reasonable rejection... so that week was a total... weird... bad week... then that week ended... then u know wat?? SHE SAID YES!!!!! omgosh that was the best day..(as u could imagine!!!) she made my day.... .. ok... this is alot to read lol...
well then life went on.. lol... i remember our first handhold... =D.. it was on the bus... lol we were on the way to the end of skool picnic... 2003... it was slow but we got there... that day was great... lol... i made her sit in the water for so long.. i think she went cold..... (sorry).. but the sun was there so it was alright... ^_^ yea.. it was a fun day...after that... i held her hand and bag.. and walked her home...^_^... she lives like 4 st's away from me... i got a huge tan on that day man lol... ...
our first date lol.. it was with her friends... at um.. Livo? or para... i think it was livo westfields... that was fun too lol.. then X-mas came.. =D spent it at my house... then my bday was shorty after that.. spent at my house again... then new year came... we went to the city and with her cousin... to watch fireworks... =D pretty.... on that night.. i would actually call that the first kiss... lol.. [is it true that how u spent our new year is how ur year would turn out to be?please comment on that i wanna know lol] came home late and got in heaps of trouble lol.. suppose to be grounded but went out neways... and then... the real deal started.... it was first month... i gave her a kiss on the way to her house... she didnt respon so i was like.. did i do that wrong?.. lol.. but the next day changed lol.. uh huh.. thats right... i dont think we got enough of each other... we spent so much time together that her parents kicked me out of the house.. ... oh that was tough.. well on her u know... well newayz....time went by... lust .... temptation went stronger... and so my memories began..... i dont wanna talk about it lol.. too much ... yea... it was like %%%$&^**(*%$@~~~!@_)(*&^%$#@_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^%$# kinda thing... lol.. ..... u could say i have been beaten in my own game ~_^... lol... i just realised (again) that this is pretty long.. and and AND.. i got alot of homework to catch up on.. lol so yea...
Peace out
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
tuesday...... yes? .. yes tuesday
so today is tuesday.... today was... um.. ok? well i thought about what to say .. it took me a while ..um...i dont really wanna talk but then.. all i wanna talk about at the moment is about someone... -_-`.... i think thats all i thought about today... well besides... watching out incase i get hit in sport...=/...
have you ever felt so lost that you dont know what to do anymore? or who to call? to talk to?...and your never satisfied with what you do at that time of period?.... ....
i think writing this today would go nowhere besides to the fact i miss someone... =(.... i just want to say that ... gurl.... i miss you... i Love you... i dont think shes even gonna read this but... it worth to say.. i want everyone to know... to know how i feel about her... how much and still Love her n always be in my heart.......*tear*
sigin out peeps....
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
have you ever felt so lost that you dont know what to do anymore? or who to call? to talk to?...and your never satisfied with what you do at that time of period?.... ....
i think writing this today would go nowhere besides to the fact i miss someone... =(.... i just want to say that ... gurl.... i miss you... i Love you... i dont think shes even gonna read this but... it worth to say.. i want everyone to know... to know how i feel about her... how much and still Love her n always be in my heart.......*tear*
sigin out peeps....
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
What a Monday
well last night was a bummer.... i couldnt sleep last and that affected my whole day lol.. gee i never knew my family could be noisy 24/7... ohmygod.... yea.. slept on the couch...=/ nieghbours dogs were fighting or something...my bird was sreaming.. my dog was barking? well i think it was my dog... family members snoring lol... so annoying... geezus.. it was a night of animal hell.... lol... then woke up with another bodyache.....
so anyways... school... hm... erm.. school.. what can i say about school.... school.. was actually fine today.... went by quicker than usual.... got to see my god sis.. so that was kool...^_^... all subjects went by fast ... well besides math?.... if i had my usual teacher it could'v went by faster as well but i got some slow guy.....lol... um... i was supprise that history wasnt as long... and i dont think we did any work in history lol... which was kool..... um...man.. today was kinda hot wasnt it? i brought my jumper and didnt wanna take it off so it was heatin up for me.. lol.. um,... i had a topic on mind that i wanted to share but then .. i forgot lol... how silly of me..well im listenign to an RnB station at the moment... its kinda kool but the hosts aint that good hahaa... well good enough i suppose...
well as usual i miss that special person... i saw her today... but far away so.. not that satisfied... and u know that song.... "My Boo" - by Usher feat. Alicia Keys..? well that song.. made me really miss her... ='(.....well this whole station reminds me of her... because its an HipHop/RnB and Soul station... and she like the kind of music so yea.
soooOOo sleepy dudes..... but got too much homework... lol.. i could always skip it... but then again.. i cant... i wanna take a holiday man. lol.. its only week 3 of term and im saying this oready... ..
u know what...? i didnt say this on yesterdays one but... yesterday.. this 3? gurls came up to me... and its like.. " hey... whats ur name... could i have ur number"... then i went... " nah.. sorry im kinda like still on sumone" and they like" oh ok... anyways my name is... (dun wanna say it ).. and heres my number if u change ur mind"... then the three walked away with a smile? i think it was a smile lol.. then like... an hour? later... i was just sitting there and this guy came up n go " hey .. u know johnny right? " i go " yerrrr?" he:" oh kool.. how are you.. " me:" um.. ok?" he: hahaha ok im sorry to bother you i'll see ya at the party" me: "what party... i wasnt invited to anyones party" he:"oh.. didt u? well i invite you.. its at my house" me:" oh.. ok? seeya there?" then he said bye n went lol.. i guess i have to go now lol... i just hope they dun make me drink anymore.. im getting off it.. havnt been drinking for a while now... lol..imma clean!!!!^_^... no drugs... no alcohol... no smoking.. omg.. that reminds me... hahahaha *flashback*... parties use to be wild bro... have any of you ever tried "body shots" ?.. lol.. for those who dont know what this is... it is when a gurl/guy lies on a table u or sum1 else or she/he pours alcohol shots (speaking vodka) on her/him with salt and lemon on her/him.. and u drink... lick it off her body...(well as u can tell its mostly more common on gurls rather than on guys) well..? have any one ever?.. lol it use to be fun.. .. i stoped because i meet someone special and dont wanna um.. get to her... and promise to quiet drinkin lol... um..yea.. lol... im so tired... lol and someone is here .. i dun wanna write any more... so peace...
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
so anyways... school... hm... erm.. school.. what can i say about school.... school.. was actually fine today.... went by quicker than usual.... got to see my god sis.. so that was kool...^_^... all subjects went by fast ... well besides math?.... if i had my usual teacher it could'v went by faster as well but i got some slow guy.....lol... um... i was supprise that history wasnt as long... and i dont think we did any work in history lol... which was kool..... um...man.. today was kinda hot wasnt it? i brought my jumper and didnt wanna take it off so it was heatin up for me.. lol.. um,... i had a topic on mind that i wanted to share but then .. i forgot lol... how silly of me..well im listenign to an RnB station at the moment... its kinda kool but the hosts aint that good hahaa... well good enough i suppose...
well as usual i miss that special person... i saw her today... but far away so.. not that satisfied... and u know that song.... "My Boo" - by Usher feat. Alicia Keys..? well that song.. made me really miss her... ='(.....well this whole station reminds me of her... because its an HipHop/RnB and Soul station... and she like the kind of music so yea.
soooOOo sleepy dudes..... but got too much homework... lol.. i could always skip it... but then again.. i cant... i wanna take a holiday man. lol.. its only week 3 of term and im saying this oready... ..
u know what...? i didnt say this on yesterdays one but... yesterday.. this 3? gurls came up to me... and its like.. " hey... whats ur name... could i have ur number"... then i went... " nah.. sorry im kinda like still on sumone" and they like" oh ok... anyways my name is... (dun wanna say it ).. and heres my number if u change ur mind"... then the three walked away with a smile? i think it was a smile lol.. then like... an hour? later... i was just sitting there and this guy came up n go " hey .. u know johnny right? " i go " yerrrr?" he:" oh kool.. how are you.. " me:" um.. ok?" he: hahaha ok im sorry to bother you i'll see ya at the party" me: "what party... i wasnt invited to anyones party" he:"oh.. didt u? well i invite you.. its at my house" me:" oh.. ok? seeya there?" then he said bye n went lol.. i guess i have to go now lol... i just hope they dun make me drink anymore.. im getting off it.. havnt been drinking for a while now... lol..imma clean!!!!^_^... no drugs... no alcohol... no smoking.. omg.. that reminds me... hahahaha *flashback*... parties use to be wild bro... have any of you ever tried "body shots" ?.. lol.. for those who dont know what this is... it is when a gurl/guy lies on a table u or sum1 else or she/he pours alcohol shots (speaking vodka) on her/him with salt and lemon on her/him.. and u drink... lick it off her body...(well as u can tell its mostly more common on gurls rather than on guys) well..? have any one ever?.. lol it use to be fun.. .. i stoped because i meet someone special and dont wanna um.. get to her... and promise to quiet drinkin lol... um..yea.. lol... im so tired... lol and someone is here .. i dun wanna write any more... so peace...
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Just woke up...
I just woke up from a huge hangover .... nah im just kiddin.... but then again i did just wake up.. ohmygod.. that was the worse night ever.... i dont know why its bad... maybe because i dont feel so well when i woke up... i have a backache right now.. i fell of my bed hahaha.... from a pretty weird dream... it was nice at first../ but then it turned around into some sort of horror thing... lol.. i was being chased by some crazy scary guy.. i dont know..now that that come up.. it kinda reminded me of the movie "Freddy 'vs' Jason" lol.. it was kinda like that in my dream.. but then i woke up saying "kool...i mean wt?" lol... ok enough about that.... lets move on.
tonight.. im hoping to go clubbin... just get out for the night.. and maybe if i do go.. i'll write about that tonight too.. lol.. or tomorrow..
neways... im doing some jammin at the moment so yea... my fingers hurt.. =(
havnt played in a long while, very long while.. lol i think i just made up my own song... its pretty catchy too... ...
you know what...? have you ever tried to challage urself so that u could take ur mind of some things and set it on something else?... lol.. i'm trying it at the moment and i dont think its working for me... because i challaged myself to read a book..( and i dont usually read... well besides for english!) and its a huge ass book for me.. its about 610 pages.. and guess whats its about... a CAT!!!! A CAT!!! the book is called "Matthew Flinders Cat" i just had to choose it... out of all the books in the library... -_-`....well cats have a relation to what im trying to put my mind out off..... but then.. it only makes me think more...i mean i dont mind thinking about her... my ex... OHMYGOD shes so unbelieveably unforgetable... period that is... i dont wanna forget her... i still got her picture on my wall... the song i use to sing to her still in my head.. on mind... i mean... " Love is an emotion, not a choice. " right?.. because you dont just go up to some one and go.. hey im going to love you now.. lol.. u'll get slaped? or laugh at... and that aint feel good... lol..ok.. im out for now.. i'll end here...
my quote for this one is....
*Better to have loved and lost,than to have never loved at all*
so rock out peeps...stay kool!!! \m/d[>.<]b\m/ hahaha
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
tonight.. im hoping to go clubbin... just get out for the night.. and maybe if i do go.. i'll write about that tonight too.. lol.. or tomorrow..
neways... im doing some jammin at the moment so yea... my fingers hurt.. =(
havnt played in a long while, very long while.. lol i think i just made up my own song... its pretty catchy too... ...
you know what...? have you ever tried to challage urself so that u could take ur mind of some things and set it on something else?... lol.. i'm trying it at the moment and i dont think its working for me... because i challaged myself to read a book..( and i dont usually read... well besides for english!) and its a huge ass book for me.. its about 610 pages.. and guess whats its about... a CAT!!!! A CAT!!! the book is called "Matthew Flinders Cat" i just had to choose it... out of all the books in the library... -_-`....well cats have a relation to what im trying to put my mind out off..... but then.. it only makes me think more...i mean i dont mind thinking about her... my ex... OHMYGOD shes so unbelieveably unforgetable... period that is... i dont wanna forget her... i still got her picture on my wall... the song i use to sing to her still in my head.. on mind... i mean... " Love is an emotion, not a choice. " right?.. because you dont just go up to some one and go.. hey im going to love you now.. lol.. u'll get slaped? or laugh at... and that aint feel good... lol..ok.. im out for now.. i'll end here...
my quote for this one is....
*Better to have loved and lost,than to have never loved at all*
so rock out peeps...stay kool!!! \m/d[>.<]b\m/ hahaha
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nething
well i am bored at the moment so i ask a couple of people to give me a topic.. any topic.. and it goes like this... school, Life, Naruto, and.. cow? lol.. yes cow was from my brother... so..
SCHOOL. well school... um.. what can i really tell u about school from my point of view... well to me school is a pain in the ass!! well school is fine.... the subjects.. the classes.. but what really bugs me is.. the people in them... teenagers... some of them.. just cant take a changed point... i understand.. i am to a teenager... and we need sometimes need something to talk about.. right? so why dont we talk about music or movies or fashion? or somthing like that and rather than picking on other students in the school because their different..??!!! "everyone has their own mind" as i said in my other article... but then i cant say that about everyone... i just stand up for all those who actually gets picked on... like me... or even worser.... some people are actually nice in school... others? maybe they should find something else to do... they are just people that a bored outta their brains and think they are to better than everyone else... im sorry i have to end "school" here... because im going a little nutty....
ok,.. LIFE.. whos life... my life? hm... not much excitment happen in my life... besides finding someone i like..... love in that matter of fact.. well i dont live a nice decent life... and the reason? well the main reason is that the fact im bisexual.. and that kinda relates to what i wrote in "school".... and i live in a fairly... unstabble family... well i cant say that mind is the worse because i knwo out there somewhere someone elses family is in worser condition.... but i get along day by day.. maybe with abit of anger through the day but yea... ok.. next subject.
NARUTO...... naruto? sorry i dont watch that... im too lazy to read the subtittles... lol.. my bro watches it.. my friends watches it.. but i dont.. lol.. i'll watch it when they actually translate it... in english... so yea.. not much to say here.. sorry.
COW,....cow? i like cows? they provide milk... lol.. and meat... i like the cows that is white with black spots... lol... they are cute... cows... um... people use cows in movies? in music videos? lol yea.. and in story books.. kiddy ones mostly.. and they make cow toys lol.. some are cute n cuddly others not so much lol... they can be scary... and hey,... why dont they make a cow bank too... coz that would be really cute.. coz u know the piggy banks? where u save ya money... yea.. think of a cow one... wouldnt that be cute.. lol... (i sound lame).
so.. that is all .. lol.. i wanna write more but then... this looks long... so yea.. i'll stop now,,, and might write again later?... i dunno why im writting so much but i am and i hope u enjoyed? lol.. yea.. peace out...
Keep Chillin' peepsa
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SCHOOL. well school... um.. what can i really tell u about school from my point of view... well to me school is a pain in the ass!! well school is fine.... the subjects.. the classes.. but what really bugs me is.. the people in them... teenagers... some of them.. just cant take a changed point... i understand.. i am to a teenager... and we need sometimes need something to talk about.. right? so why dont we talk about music or movies or fashion? or somthing like that and rather than picking on other students in the school because their different..??!!! "everyone has their own mind" as i said in my other article... but then i cant say that about everyone... i just stand up for all those who actually gets picked on... like me... or even worser.... some people are actually nice in school... others? maybe they should find something else to do... they are just people that a bored outta their brains and think they are to better than everyone else... im sorry i have to end "school" here... because im going a little nutty....
ok,.. LIFE.. whos life... my life? hm... not much excitment happen in my life... besides finding someone i like..... love in that matter of fact.. well i dont live a nice decent life... and the reason? well the main reason is that the fact im bisexual.. and that kinda relates to what i wrote in "school".... and i live in a fairly... unstabble family... well i cant say that mind is the worse because i knwo out there somewhere someone elses family is in worser condition.... but i get along day by day.. maybe with abit of anger through the day but yea... ok.. next subject.
NARUTO...... naruto? sorry i dont watch that... im too lazy to read the subtittles... lol.. my bro watches it.. my friends watches it.. but i dont.. lol.. i'll watch it when they actually translate it... in english... so yea.. not much to say here.. sorry.
COW,....cow? i like cows? they provide milk... lol.. and meat... i like the cows that is white with black spots... lol... they are cute... cows... um... people use cows in movies? in music videos? lol yea.. and in story books.. kiddy ones mostly.. and they make cow toys lol.. some are cute n cuddly others not so much lol... they can be scary... and hey,... why dont they make a cow bank too... coz that would be really cute.. coz u know the piggy banks? where u save ya money... yea.. think of a cow one... wouldnt that be cute.. lol... (i sound lame).
so.. that is all .. lol.. i wanna write more but then... this looks long... so yea.. i'll stop now,,, and might write again later?... i dunno why im writting so much but i am and i hope u enjoyed? lol.. yea.. peace out...
Keep Chillin' peepsa
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Saturday, October 23, 2004
Missing those perfect eyes...
I think this is a flashback moment....... i miss some one that....yea
the first day i met her... that day... i couldnt believe my eyes.... she is so beautiful just stunning...i wanted her just that minute.. but.. i had to take time.. cause it takes to make sure right?lol... i dont know if i should be saying stuffs like this on here.. um... yea.. i love her... i miss her... i miss her ways she gets around me?.. dude.. its hot...... um...*ahem* she just puts a smile on my face... do u know that feeling? its like whaow....isnt it....when im with her.. its like.. whaow... i wanna be with this gurl forever... hm.. have you ever felt that way? its a wonderful feeling u know... i think its love but... not sure.. cause.. how do u know if it is or not... do u even know wat it is? and does love have a reason to be?.... to me i dont think it does... all i got is.. i miss her... im crazy over her... her body(its like ouch look at that body move!!~_^).... touch.?...her mind....just her... just her name kinda explains her oready...
BUT THEN..... things have changed... i mean not the fact that i Love her.. that'll never ever change!!!!!!..... but what has change is that... she hates me now... she thinks i did something wrong... and i lost her trust bcause of that. well everyone has a mind of their own right...?.. i gotto get her back somehow.. but i know that isnt easy... nothing is easy... i follow my heart... its like " Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't. " now isnt that true... to tell u the truth.. the eye is pretty slow lol... i cant get rid of the feeling that i like her.... lover .. but then again i dont ever want to..damn. i sound creepy for a minute there.. lol... ok...
" Sometimes, love makes a big scar in your heart. Be happy for that scar because the bigger the scar, the bigger you've loved. "
chill out
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the first day i met her... that day... i couldnt believe my eyes.... she is so beautiful just stunning...i wanted her just that minute.. but.. i had to take time.. cause it takes to make sure right?lol... i dont know if i should be saying stuffs like this on here.. um... yea.. i love her... i miss her... i miss her ways she gets around me?.. dude.. its hot...... um...*ahem* she just puts a smile on my face... do u know that feeling? its like whaow....isnt it....when im with her.. its like.. whaow... i wanna be with this gurl forever... hm.. have you ever felt that way? its a wonderful feeling u know... i think its love but... not sure.. cause.. how do u know if it is or not... do u even know wat it is? and does love have a reason to be?.... to me i dont think it does... all i got is.. i miss her... im crazy over her... her body(its like ouch look at that body move!!~_^).... touch.?...her mind....just her... just her name kinda explains her oready...
BUT THEN..... things have changed... i mean not the fact that i Love her.. that'll never ever change!!!!!!..... but what has change is that... she hates me now... she thinks i did something wrong... and i lost her trust bcause of that. well everyone has a mind of their own right...?.. i gotto get her back somehow.. but i know that isnt easy... nothing is easy... i follow my heart... its like " Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't. " now isnt that true... to tell u the truth.. the eye is pretty slow lol... i cant get rid of the feeling that i like her.... lover .. but then again i dont ever want to..damn. i sound creepy for a minute there.. lol... ok...
" Sometimes, love makes a big scar in your heart. Be happy for that scar because the bigger the scar, the bigger you've loved. "
chill out
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intro.. intro of me... lol....
well... this is like my first post ever of actual writing lol. so yea.. if i've done wrong... give me a break lol um.... im basically a gurl..... im 16 yrs of age...... n i live in the Canley Vale area.. lol.. im in love.. with some one i cant be with so thats a pain...Shes a wonderful gurl.... and yes.. im gay.... actually wouldnt call it gay im bi... yes shes a wonderful gurl... i dont know what i did wrong to lose her but i did... and theres no turning back!!!!.... =/... um...
Today... is a pissy day today... far out.... i think i join this so i could.. say things out... cause at the moment no one wants to listen to me... um.... yea.. im sorry but it all i got to say today...
chill out peeps!~!!!
Today... is a pissy day today... far out.... i think i join this so i could.. say things out... cause at the moment no one wants to listen to me... um.... yea.. im sorry but it all i got to say today...
chill out peeps!~!!!
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