ok... THE LUST FACTOR.. ahem.... lol wait.. hold up.. is that all i've been thinking about for the last 2 days?.... hahahaha... well i must of admit.. it was kinda.... fun?.. thinking about the old days.. the memories..(please dont get me wrong..i think u all know and understand wat i sayin..lol).. and if u have been reading my blogs... u just have to guess this right... yes i am thinking of her... that beautiful..... SEXY!!!,.... passionate.. wonderful girl!!! =D.... omg... "D".. lol....
I remember the first time i actually met her... *smiles* (it was at skool by the way!!)that was a sweet moment... !!!! ^_^ *the first thought* wow! shes beautiful...and i kept looking.. "whaow i think shes a fun person to spend time with"...lol i remember our first conversation lol... it was about how i wanted a lazer gun hahaha.. that was so stupid... lol... i dont know but.. it ended up with she owes me the gun and Ann(a friend of hers but i know..) owes me diamonds to use for the laser lol... (but then wouldnt i just sell them and get money instead?? lol).. so.. that was about it for that day.. lol.. actually i left with a great impression of her... u know the saying " left breathless" that was it! then the night came... do you know how hard it is to sleep when u found and absolute perfect person? that u really want... well need in ur life?!! omgosh.. but then....PAUSE RIGHT THERE!!! i had to wait to see if she felt the same.. because.. being gay.. well bi in my case isnt that easy to have a possitive reply.. it actually took a fairly long while... then,..... after that long while (hell it felt long a very very long while!!!!! but then it came!=D)i felt... her feelings..(it sounds a lil crazy n weird but) i sensed it.. that strong feeling... i looked into her eyes and i wanted to kiss her right there and then!!.. but unsure if she was comfortable with it...so.. that was a miss out..then.. i waited 2 weeks again... then it happened again.. so this time i was sure about the feeling and trusted my heart and went for it.. i asked her out.. but.. i was so sure that i was thinking too much while wanting to ask her... and it wasnt a nice ask out either... lol i asked at skool and wanted to find somewhere quiet and private.. but that blew out.. skool was packed that day lol.. so i walked her away from friends sat her down and lol i didnt say anything.. took me a while?.. THEN the BELL RANG!!!! so i said.. " would u like to be my gf".. but i dont think she heard me... =/... cause she said "what?" as i said i was thinking too much at that moment.. than i said " you and me.... think about it... and reply when ur ready"... then off to class.... omg.. so nervous!!!! lol.. off to history for me... so wraped in that.. didnt pay enought attention in class lol got sent out... skool ended... it was like... 4:00pm... yea i think around there... she called... told me to come out... to... "my bridge" lol... *ahem* yea... and said.. a reasonable rejection... so that week was a total... weird... bad week... then that week ended... then u know wat?? SHE SAID YES!!!!! omgosh that was the best day..(as u could imagine!!!) she made my day.... .. ok... this is alot to read lol...
well then life went on.. lol... i remember our first handhold... =D.. it was on the bus... lol we were on the way to the end of skool picnic... 2003... it was slow but we got there... that day was great... lol... i made her sit in the water for so long.. i think she went cold..... (sorry).. but the sun was there so it was alright... ^_^ yea.. it was a fun day...after that... i held her hand and bag.. and walked her home...^_^... she lives like 4 st's away from me... i got a huge tan on that day man lol... ...
our first date lol.. it was with her friends... at um.. Livo? or para... i think it was livo westfields... that was fun too lol.. then X-mas came.. =D spent it at my house... then my bday was shorty after that.. spent at my house again... then new year came... we went to the city and with her cousin... to watch fireworks... =D pretty.... on that night.. i would actually call that the first kiss... lol.. [is it true that how u spent our new year is how ur year would turn out to be?please comment on that i wanna know lol] came home late and got in heaps of trouble lol.. suppose to be grounded but went out neways... and then... the real deal started.... it was first month... i gave her a kiss on the way to her house... she didnt respon so i was like.. did i do that wrong?.. lol.. but the next day changed lol.. uh huh.. thats right... i dont think we got enough of each other... we spent so much time together that her parents kicked me out of the house.. ... oh that was tough.. well on her u know... well newayz....time went by... lust .... temptation went stronger... and so my memories began..... i dont wanna talk about it lol.. too much ... yea... it was like %%%$&^**(*%$@~~~!@_)(*&^%$#@_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^%$# kinda thing... lol.. ..... u could say i have been beaten in my own game ~_^... lol... i just realised (again) that this is pretty long.. and and AND.. i got alot of homework to catch up on.. lol so yea...
Peace out
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