Why are people doubting me about me moving on with my life... why am i getting picked on.. and why the hell am i getting in trouble when im being picked on....???!! i mean its like.. what tha hell is going on. Cant i stand up for myself now..??? i just really dont know what to do anymore. but im sure somewhere else in the world someone elses life is woser than mine.... at least i got a home and food to live on... i guess we just want to much... we dont "need" it.. we just "want" it.. like our selfish "wants".. dont we think about anyone else?.. dont we think about anything else... beyond ourself.? most of u would probably say yes.. but thats not true.. just... just think about it..
i cant really explain what im feeling these days... or now... its just.. horriable.. terriable... im tired. restless. miserable... hm.. omg... i dont really care about the fights i've been in.. the only thing i.. care.. think about is.. 'D'.. i dont know.. but why is it so hard.. to get on... and people dont support me on it either... and when im down about her.. they say " stop it get on with ya life find sum1 else" and when i actually try .. they doubt it'll work... for eg. i would say "ok im gonna move on.. im gonan forget her.." then they go" but u cant. coz u still like her" and its like wtf??? thery going the other way all of a sudden. what are you trying to say people??!!! make it clear and one point. omgosh.. its bad enough for me that im trying to forget her... which i dont really wana do.. and i make some bit of effort and u doubt me.
geez....
i mean... for sure i do love her.. i really do truely and dearly.. but she made it pretty clear that me and her aint never ever gonna happen again... gee i dont even think she'll talk to me again.. thats what im most focused worried is... she wouldnt even look at me.. how could i expect her to talk to me... =./... i mean come on.. anyone could see that right?.
hm... im sorry.. you have to always read about her... my problems i have with her.. and that.. i just cant help it... ok.. so tired now... so yea.. im gone
Peace man... take care.
~[Peanut]~
shoutout. tributes to the ~[R.I.P]~ Gang.. with all my respect...
