I am so... confussed and lost... yes.. i know i am confussed and lost of many things... but this time.. its about.. my... um.. as u say.. Love Life. As you know.. i am still in love with Duyen... my recent ex. and now an update... i have another two girls hanging off me... one.. name Nancy and one name Fiona. and one more part of that is .. the problem im having with them... they think im in a relationship with each of them (like.. Nancy think im dating her and Fiona thinks im dating her)( they dont know each other) i tried telling them ... that its not true.. but they always think im joking about it.. so yea.. but i cant say that i dont enjoy their company.. its just that.. i have two of them... and.. AND.. i still really really REALLY like.. well... Love Duyen.. so its abit hard...
you see...
when i talk to Nancy or Fiona.. i ... um.. i tend to loose focus with Duyen...(i know.. some of you are saying its a good thing) but.. sometimes.. what they say.. or do it reminds me of Duyen.. and.. or.. when.. i look at Duyen's picture.. i feel her... emotionally feel her... and.. i feel that i need her in my life again.. and all that.. u know what i mean? (yea.. all you are saying is get rid of her pix its simple.. its not.. because.. even if i do.. i still got her picture her.. face.. in my heart and mind.. who knows over the years it might fade.. but right now.. its not.. it is standing strong and still!!!)
SO...... wraping that up.....
all it meant was.. no matter what i do... or who i meet or take interest in.. i always turn back to Duyen.. i mean i even(i know this sounds lame and sad but) cry to/for her most nights.. and i end up not sleeping.. yea.. if u know me.. u probabaly know that i havent been sleeping for a while.. yea.. i havent been sleeping since.. me and duyen started having trouble in the relationship till we broke up.. and she stoped talking to me.. and till now.. i havent been sleeping.. well most night anyways.. like 1 out of 5 nights i sleep... its like that ...that should give u an idea of my sleeping pattern... but rarely.. i sleep..... but i dont know.. i dont know what i should do anymore. i cant over come this.. she meant...mean so much to me.. i cant help but think of her all the time.. and think how stupid i was to push her away from me like that.. hm....
Gee i hate being single.... so confussing .. lol... i mean.. being single isnt bad its just lol.. to many.. confussing situations... ahhhh im a mess.!... lol.. let me ask you ppl.. which one of you look for a relationship.. which one of you look for love... ??? i dont.. i reckon it comes naturally so why not let it flow and take its place..? lol.. and im not actually a kinda girl that goes out to find ppl... im not actually attractive in anyway ( as u could see in my pic) im ugly.....lol..im a tomboy for one lol.. and its kinda hard to find the "kind" of ppl for me.. coz of me being bi-sexual and all .. lol.. anyways!!!!!! hahah got a lil of track there!! ROFL.. ..
gonan go now.. so STAY KoooOoOOL...
PeanutDevil
