when you set a goal... it seems so hard to get there... don't you think?
have i said i've given up on sara? i thought i did... but she and the avoiding thingy poped back on my mind again today... been thinking about it all day, lol saw her all day, bumpd into her.. um... 3 times? today.. felt weird!! and i thought about it.. and i shouldnt be feeling weird. at sport i had a talk with my friend and some problems she was having... and to tell you the truth... i have never saw her so upset n sad and confussed since.... ever. and during the talk.. i said some things to her that made me realise that i should be taking my own advice as well, about conflict...... and such. i dont know why i dont do it.. maybe its because its happening to me and that i dont think on whats actually going on and stuff. and others your thinking for them..well whatever she choose to do.. i hope her well!!!
I have been having alot of different sorts of dreams lately. about sara.. duyen... ricky(tran).. fiona... scary monsters... fantasy land.... etc etc. and its all almost weird everytime. im a lil disapointed in saras and duyens dreams.... it all ends with me dying some how. =S ... maybe thats a message im suppose to take in from them.. but yet again.. its just a dream... -......
i've been trying this.. newself thing my psychologist told me about and trying to put me to try it out if it helps me control myself better and not be so crazy. and its giving me the shits!!! i'v been in bad moods since a week ago.. i hope the bad mood goes away soon... right now.. im either too high or too much of a bad mood.
SchooL..... is also giving me the shits... everything is bloody friggen limited in school BESIDES WORK!!! grrr... and what also is giving me the shits at skool is that i see the people that i cant interact with.. and i really want to. im not saying they are pacificly giving me the shits,, its just the FACT that i cant talk to them is.=/ but what can i do. i tried.
i have more to say .. but cant really put it in word at the moment... so seeya
~[Pd]~
