i want a proper girlfriend. someone i can actually stick to for a general long or very long time. someone that probably knows me well and im in total truth with, or else it'll wont work out.

i said that because i am actually really.... not liking this swinging life of mine anymore... its so complicated with most, or i feel as though i will soon run out of people to swing with!! lol.... (i know, i know.. i just had to make a joke of it... but hey.. thats me lol )

i just to settle down now... stay with one. i really like this girl, she is a pretty close friend and we have been friends for a long time. i try not to get involved with her in that way because i dont want to loose the friendship that we share.. i love her dearly but i try to keep my distance.

*sighs* i dont know what im missing but i feel like im missing something or someone, i dont know what i want. do u know what u want?
im always feeling empty. i could be missing you. yeah.. you.. but then im not sure and i dont want to mislead anyone. thats been a big problem for me right now... maybe im not presenting myself properly, yeah.. maybe thats it, because i dont like to show my true self with new people, just the basic general interests of me.

ah... so many issues.... with everyone and everywhere.

-[Pd]-