lately i've been thinking

and thinking...


and thinking...


what would happen if nothing happened?

what i mean is... what would happen if we hadn't taken that path that we took...



i sound like im regreating or doubting something....
i guess i partly am....

"sara quin moment"

just a bored so decided to post up "sara moments" hahaha.. enjoy... shes a funny silly one..


"Just for the record if i did that to her she would get my mom to call me and be like "You know Tegan has low self-esteem right now and it doesn't help when you call her names on stage."

"He put a baby inside of me and now he thinks he can love me all the time like in the pornos."


"oh steroid man, you couldnt fit inside me its much too small"

"buenos nachos" (i laughed so hard at that one)

"Sometimes i feel like were such pussys, like we need to break shit and have sex with horses"

"My mom has amazing breasts"

Do you think the guy on the subway that is touching himself feels like he is spreading love? I will tell you right now there is a law against that."

"This next song is about when you get your heart broken and you try your best to glue it back together and you wake up one morning and you're so happy because you realize, "Oh my God, the tape's holding"

Tegan: "we love something together, and we made it together and we appreciate that and we'll always have that bond..."
Sara: "it was a mistake, I should've worn a condom."

"Home for me is when I can walk from the bathroom around the house naked"

t- hi, Sara can you keep playing so I can keep playing?
s- I don’t really usually play in this part.
t- oh really? Okay you go like this. This cord, then you go up to this cord right here.
s- oh, I don’t know if I can do that.
t- well skip that part and go back up to this part.
s- yeah, okay that’s good.
t- …2 3 4 (sings, stops) no, now you go up to that other cord.
s- I know, but see, I don’t play the same parts as you, I just, I cant do it. I’m sorry
t- you have to finish the song!

interviewer:give me three reasons why tegan and sara will always be cooler than the olsen twins.
sara:(laughs) well, it’s not like we’re really cool or anything, but…well, i don’t know if it’s just me, but isn’t there something sort of eerie about them?

Sara: Um, this is a cover song. Uh, I tried to learn a new cover but iiiiii didn't sound good? So i'm going to go back to the old sound uh-uh-umm.. yeah you know-you know what i'm saying. So this-this-this is it.
*Strums guitar but the sounds not projecting*
*presses petal*
*strums guitar*
*presses petal*
*strums guitar*
Tegan: Uh Sara you have the wrong guitar.
*Sara strums guitar again*
Sara: I have the wrong guitar.
Tegan: Yeah.
Sara: Excuse me thats really embrassing! *puts up hand* I'm going to go get a guitar thats plugged in.

sara: who wants to come over at 3 in the morning and take pictures of me?
tegan: of you??
sara: uh, i mean with me

tegan: sara you ate the whole thing of cookies?
sara: no, other people ate them too.
tegan: oh my god there's only one left!
sara: other people ate them too!!(admittedly), I had a few.

"thank you for that. I feel slightly embarrased, but excitable"


“God. Loosen up. Sergeant Sunshine.”

T: Sara drank a red bull before the show, as well as the whole band they all are making absolutely no fucking sence, so I told them they weren’t aloud to talk but Sara jumped right in there
S: Ok so I don’t drink caffeine but we played a show tonight and I figured I needed a bit of an upper, so I hope this all makes sence. We are real hard core when we really wanna get fucked up we just drink a red bull.

"Look at me... I'm like, if I punch her quickly in the face it will only hurt for a second"

"and so i put the money in and i start getting my massage..and this dirty old man walks by and his all like look at her she is totally getting off, it's turning her on. she likes the chair! she loves it!"

Sara: ... I put on a sweater this morning while I was doing my hair and I'm not thinking this is a girls thing cuz we've all done it and whether or not you say you've done it, I've done it, and you all have done it, so don't say you didn't do it.... .. but I forgot to put on deodorant... I'm a litlle person I don't even sweat that much, I'm short I'm out of shape, so I don't sweat a lot, but if you smell something.... just think of it as another little piece of Tegan and Sara for you to take home... OKAAY sooooo .. this is called hype.

well i know heaps more but i'll stop here lol... so did u enjoy it? lol

-[Pd]-

hello hello...

how are we all?

i am pretty good right now.. pretty good.
just relaxing.. enjoying almost every moment i have..
holidays are coming around .... looking forward to it... looking forward to spending time with my gorgeous friends and family...

been to nicky's the other day.. and DAMN SHE HAS A HUGE HOUSE!!! lol..when she said it was big... SHE MEANT IT!! hahaha... hm... maybe i should move in? lol.. just a thought... but she did offer.. but just a thought lol.. and her dog must be the most friendly doggie i've ever met... her name is Arden and although shes an american pitbull she is such a sweet dog..

hm... i dont really know what to write about now.. nothing else really happened... just hung out with nicky most of my time now.. and i could just talk about that.. but im sure your sick of me talking about nicky already!!.. lol.

so hm.. i'll just end it here? and come back when i actually do have something to say lol...

til then, take care... and share your love... we need more of that in the world.

-[Pd]-

her

hey, sorry about not finishing that post below... but um.. yea..

um.. i got tired and lazy?


this morning i woke up saying...

i love it when she gets close and say i love you, i love it when she gives me hugs, i love it when she calls me for no particular reason at all, i love it when we text message each other through out the day, i love the way she drives her hot sexy black manual car?, i love it when she always finds time to spend with me even if its the most hectic day, i love that she cares to almost everything, i love it that shes so polite yet i love it when she releases alil anger and frustration sometimes, i love it how she laughs or smiles at my lame jokes or just at something i said at all, i love it that she finds me interesting, i love her beautiful smile, i love her look, i love the soft gentle touch she gives me when im down or when she tries to calm me down, i love her accent in her voice, i love that she likes my music and lyrics even though she's not into the genre, i love the way she's taken me in to her life and shown me what i should look forward to, i love it how she inspired me and gave me something to believe in. i love that she loves me.

then... i said..

i hate myself for loving her, i hate the fact that i found a great girl and cant be with her as wanted, i hate the fact that she's so great and loves me too. i hate the fact that shes so close yet so far away, i hate the fact that she is off limits, i want to go beyond that limit even just to know what it feels like.


i'm going in too deep and feeling uncontrolably uncomfortable.
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i'm wondering where everyone else is?.. no one seems to be around right now, i know some are busy with school, uni and work and things.. but where are the rest of the people? or am i blocking everyone else out? because im too stuck into my shit..


anywhos... take care guys and girls..

-[Pd]-

hello hello...? how have you all been lately.... i apologise that i haven't been blogging much.. my mind has been occupied with current issues.. yet i feel like i dont have anything to say... maybe i'm just having trouble starting..

well i'll start with.. me?.. lol.. (yea i know.. lame joke.. but i think its funny.. for abit, good for a chuckle at least) i think i liked it better before i went into hospital, im not sure what my body or mind is up to right now, i keep getting really extremely tired and end up sleeping for most of my 24 hours, im not even sure if it's supose to be doing that, it sounds wrong already.. like i mean who sleeps for almost 24 hours in.. 24 hours?. and honestly if u leave me alone i will fall asleep, yesterday.. i slept for the whole day and the only time i woke was to use the bathroom or when nicky texted me...

(ah, i seemed to start well? i think.. well to find another topic.. hm)

ah yes, i went to church, twice.... and.. it was awesome? its awesome because it wasnt as i expect it to be, it was like a mini rock concert!!! awesome indeed.. so awesome i want to go again? but is it ok to just go for the music? i feel like its not ok just to go for the music... the reason i went to church the first place was because dear Nicky prayed for me, like i said before, she prayed extremely for me so i'd just thought it would be good for me to go church with her to thank her and god?.. or is it jesus.. or is it god and jesus... or jesus is god?... i dont know.. i'll find out.. and get back to you lol.. but yea.. i went to thank.. and found out i enjoyed it..awesome mini rock concert.. although singing of the lord... i enjoyed the music..

i tried the "green tea" ice cream the other night.. i didnt like it so much.. it was like a "hm... ooookaaay.." sort of impression, both nicky and i thought it tasted like full cream ,cream?.. or full cream milk.. which ever.. so yea.. i wanted and craved and STILL craving a choc mint... lol..

hm... THE FOUR are planning to get together... ( three goes to melbourne to see one lol equals four!!)

gonna jet off for a few hours... come back later to continue this post....