hey, sorry about not finishing that post below... but um.. yea..
um.. i got tired and lazy?
this morning i woke up saying...
i love it when she gets close and say i love you, i love it when she gives me hugs, i love it when she calls me for no particular reason at all, i love it when we text message each other through out the day, i love the way she drives her hot sexy black manual car?, i love it when she always finds time to spend with me even if its the most hectic day, i love that she cares to almost everything, i love it that shes so polite yet i love it when she releases alil anger and frustration sometimes, i love it how she laughs or smiles at my lame jokes or just at something i said at all, i love it that she finds me interesting, i love her beautiful smile, i love her look, i love the soft gentle touch she gives me when im down or when she tries to calm me down, i love her accent in her voice, i love that she likes my music and lyrics even though she's not into the genre, i love the way she's taken me in to her life and shown me what i should look forward to, i love it how she inspired me and gave me something to believe in. i love that she loves me.
then... i said..
i hate myself for loving her, i hate the fact that i found a great girl and cant be with her as wanted, i hate the fact that she's so great and loves me too. i hate the fact that shes so close yet so far away, i hate the fact that she is off limits, i want to go beyond that limit even just to know what it feels like.
i'm going in too deep and feeling uncontrolably uncomfortable.
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i'm wondering where everyone else is?.. no one seems to be around right now, i know some are busy with school, uni and work and things.. but where are the rest of the people? or am i blocking everyone else out? because im too stuck into my shit..
anywhos... take care guys and girls..
-[Pd]-
