she runs free and the sun in my sky
but she comes to me when she`s got nowhere to hide
she tried to leave once but she didn`t instead came crying
my shoulder her head
i count the seconds that she isnt around
every single minute is a new treasure found
oh she`s my angel she`s my moments of joy
she`s my baby
she`s my love love love love

in the middle of the night
i feel her holding me tight
face to face in between yea thats asleep in the night
never enough blanket but to me its alright
she can have it, she can have it all
she`s my love love love love

she`s the sun in my sky
no i swear i wont shine without her
in the light of the moon
no i cant help but swoon
theres something about her
forgive me if i go on and on about her charm
something about her i dont know
she`s my love love love love

-[Pd]-

my mind is filled with a bunch of shit.... ( SOMEONE CALL THE PLUMBER!!)...

no... um.. my mind is swimming with thoughts...

and I'm not quite sure what to do.
my problems doesn't seem to leave me...





i used to be free spirited, now I'm just free of sleep.



right now i feel like i just had a really bad break up from a serious long relationship..

i have no other way to explain it... but that's how it is,

i thought i might be feeling down because cooper didn't get to come over yesterday, and I'm feeling a bit worried because she became really really sick... hm...

i feel like our relationship has gone too emotional, we always had this sync of each other since we knew each other, have almost everything in common, and our situations or moments/thought are always at the same time frame...
its sort of freaky, but cool at the same time... we can predict ourselves and each other.
sometimes we get a bit confused with each other.... like how we are and how we are towards each other, but overall we enjoy each others company...





hm...

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i was going to talk about something else... but it'll have to wait for the next post..


cheers.

-[Pd]-

childish behaviour, but can it be true?

me and my friend, Shane...... have swapped/trade confidence for 10 days...

at first, we didn't think much of it... but we are starting to get really suspicious that it is really happening!!!!!!!!
it has been about 3 or 4 days... and i feel like my confidence is really going down... and he feels like his confidence has been going way up...

now.... can this really be happening?... is it a psychological thing?
i know that when you tell your mind something multiple times... your mind will believe it.. but this is ridiculous!!


hm....

if you want.. please give me some thoughts....

-[Pd]-

today......

is....



.....puzzling.

yesterday... went to watch a movie with some friends and watched "Role Model" and it was really good, i enjoyed it.





then went to the city with cooper, with the plan to visit the Sydney's festival, but when we got there tickets are supposed to be purchased so we didn't get into it, because it looked like it was going to be a waste of entry fees of $30 and nothing else is covered inside the venue.


so we spent about 4 hours walking around the whole entire city... and ate some Japanese food.

i am aching.

i enjoy bumming around with her, she's like another me, but way cooler...and neater.

funny when we check out the same people or thing, then we jokingly fight about it... and she would hit me because she gave up on fighting, or we'll share.

a lot of people think that we are dating, no we are not dating... just mates (though we do get curious about it sometimes.... hm...).

sometimes, silence is so loud. ...so maybe.

hm...

-[Pd]-

sorry about the last post... i think i should post again with proper human talk...

well... not much has been happening lately (reason for lack of posting), so I'm not quite sure on what to talk about...

let me think...


oh, OK... my high school friend that went to Melbourne came back to stay in Sydney for good, and hung out with her a few times so that was good to see her again...
she is cute, without even trying.



i feel like i am un-attached from Nicky, I'm not so sure if that in general is a good thing or bad.
so many things has changed so much during the not so long time absent from each other that i felt the moment of shock the first time around and now I'm not feeling so affected by it, in a way i mean is, it doesn't hurt so much that shes not in my life so much anymore.
am i finally letting go of her? finally letting go of this love hold she happens to give people?...
in a way i feel a bit relieved but in a way i do feel really sad,
i don't feel so comfortable around her as i use to feel, i feel abut blank to be honest and i don't know if its because i get nervous around her and just stutter all the freaking time, or its because that "talk" bond i developed for her is now gone or in hesitant because its afraid that I'll depend on her once again and she cant be there.
it drives me a bit... just a tiny bit insane that i cant have one ...... just one moment alone with her, either just to enjoy her company or something is needed to be said, i sit there looking at her and finally finding and building the courage to talk or want to talk to her about whats going on and she gets distracted from her phone or someone approaching her...
*sighs*
i just don't know, i feel sad but i want to leave it, i don't want to think into it and i should just let it be, because it should be simple.

is it because she is beautiful?
her mind, her body and her soul?

it should be simple.




i admit i have been so cruel to the "girls" recently... leaving them hanging from a thread...
i hope i can fix them all... and avoid going back to the player's days...

i need a better view of people, things, situations, opportunities and myself...
i feel like i'm clouding up, my emotions, my thoughts and my actions are all messing up.

i miss my dog, i miss her so much... my baby's gone forever...
it's been 17days without her...
R.I.P Pep.



-[Pd]-

hello there,

time for some deep talk, just because i haven't for a while.

it is hot outside... and i am feeling abit emotional, yet my mind is blank...
so lets talk from the heart shall we,

my heart (emotionally) feels like its literally in my hands, and i don't know what to do with it,
there's so many things i want to do and say, honestly and directly to a couple of people...

hm.........

it takes so much to bring up words...

well, hello there.... long time no see.

my friend and i went to a birthday party the other night, and we were just talking about it because we have been continuously tagged in the photos... anyways... we were just talking about it, and she started to point out what i was doing or how i acted at the party ...
especially when i was around my ex.. and or when i was around this girl i had my eye on.

when i was around my ex.... i seemed to have spoken more....
hm, OK... i see where that is going... i mean of course because i felt nervous and a bit awkward at the same time...

and when I'm around the girl i had my eye on(the birthday girl's cousin, and never met her before and she is pretty so i was interested)... i was more charming and straight forward, she told me i was really straight out or in other words.... talked too direct and too fast into things,
hm... i don't know if she was trying to tell me if it was a good thing or not.
i didn't or don't realise what i do when meeting someone...
i wasnt even trying to get her... i was just normal... with a few smiles here and there, btu she was there alone so i jsut wanted to talk to her and my friend said it was really obvious that i liked her, and now im wondering if everyone could seen that.

hm, work has been abit ok... i have been live streaming to america because i cannot be there...
other than that.. its pretty quiet around here...

the weather for today and yesterday.... was and still is screaming hot... it so hot that i cant get to sleep, my house does not have air-conditioning... and the fight for the fans are always tough so i dont bother, im sitting on a leather seat... and my butt is boiling...

i am super tired..... so i am going to try to sleep... sorry that this post isnt so interesting... i figured that i left you for too long.. and so yea, sorry again guys.

cheers.

-[Pd]-