Tuesday, July 21, 2009

the four, once again.

so, a couple of nights ago...me and my lovely friends went for dinner.
there was no dress code, just if you are wondering....(yes, i find it funny and odd when people dress alike without knowing, but then it is even more odd and funny when they do it intentionally- you know those couples..-.... maybe it's the style trend... so there's basically no other option.)

it has been a hell of a long time since we all got together as a group, i miss it.
i don't know why i keep going to that restaurant, it is so bad.. the food and the service, but i keep going back... well, maybe because there is no where else local to go at that time of night and always end up there.
the picture there... is at the end of our meal and as you can see, non of us finished our food.

chatted to cooper last night, she is Singapore now.. i can't believe she's been gone for almost a month... she's having an awesome time. ^_^, I'm expecting pictures... she sent me a picture last night but she edited her sister out... so i couldn't be bothered anymore...
we're just mucking around.. she'll show me proper pictures when she comes back.

nothing else has been happening much,

I'm trying to deal with my health...

and I'm not playing around much anymore.. though i feel like Bridgette is somewhat trying to get back in my life, like she regret leaving in the first place, and trying to do whatever to try to make up for it and to stay. She is still in Queensland.. though she flies back often to see me and started buying me things... cooking for me again, calls/text me often...
i don't know how to be around/towards her.
I'm not looking for a fling anymore... i want something real, but it's hard to find someone real.

just, re-formatted my computer yesterday and it's been running good, nice and light.
i hate that my computer is so public.. people just sit and use it whenever and do whatever without thinking... even if they don't know what it is or don't know the net at all, they just sit around clicking every single random thing they see and just infest my computer with a whole population of random viruses. frustration.


discovered, Zee Avi.... and i am totally in love.
her music, her words... melts around me.
her music shows how beautiful simple music can be, and her voice is just incredible.
in line with, with Angus and Julia Stone, Jason Mraz, Gabe bondoc.


my brother wants to keep a rabbit.
I'm not sure if I'm ready for another pet... my dad caught some birds in the backyard and now they are his pets.. my brother already has fish... and my place has a random cat...
if anything, I'd like a dog...either a Jack Russel or a big dog, but they are so active and energetic, and I'm not so much, but it's hard to move on from pep, i love her so much. i don't want the same thing to happen again...
poor animals.

... I've been watching these "make-up" clips and my mum walked in while i was watching one and i felt that she was proud of me... thinking " FINALLY!!".. but sorry mum.. I'm not going that way..
i like watching girls get ready and put on make up (not literally put on make up, i always like the naturals best.. just the taking care of themselves thing)...
i watch the girls get ready for me, so fine and beautiful and i always look like i just rolled out of a washing machine, i feel bad for them to have to be with me... but i dress how i feel, and i like to be comfortable, so i dress comfortable. simple.

-[Pd]-

Saturday, July 18, 2009

would you like some breaky?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

i fainted the other day...
when my friends and i were suppose to go out...but it was cancelled.

i fainted at home and got rushed to the hospital... they took a head scan and discovered that the black spot is now back....

i am scared. and i dont know who to talk to.
i am scared.

i need some help, but i dont want to explain myself... i am scared and i just want some company.

Thursday, July 09, 2009

" how come you don't talk more since your friend isn't around for you to talk to..?"

errr coz?




...well, i don't know...

nothings been happening besides heaps of people being sick.... the kids are sick and the family is sick... friends are sick.... basically everyone.

been hanging out with buddy Shane a lot more lately...took him to try yum cha, though disappointed because we didn't consume much... apparently it was too early for us to eat (12:30 in the afternoon...he just woke up and i just don't eat yet.. or much at all), went to pho the other day.. also bumped into Nicky and hung out with all three for the day, went over Nicky's to fix her computer connections.
i miss her usually.. but hanging out with her, being with her makes me realised how much more i miss her and how much more she matters in my life and how i feel.


seems like Bridgette is back in my life, in what way? i have no idea.. i figured not to think too much on that one and just let it flow.. i gave up on trying and she doesn't seem to like to take me seriously so why not just have some fun and let it flow right?.


....sigh... i miss cooper... only messaged twice with her since she left.... hope shes having a blast though.
the kids stuck the photos cooper and i took together on my monitor and in my wallet because they asked me and also said " do you miss cooper?, i stuck her photo on your computer tv(monitor) and your wallet so when you miss her you can look at her picture where ever you go.".
..cute.



is it possible to make or agree on a date without realising? because i think i did last night.. i thought it was just a friendly hang out or meet up.. but the way she spoke about what she'll do and etc really leans more towards a date...
the thing is, i don't want to go if its considered a date... because i just do not feel for her that way.
i met her once before and i didn't like how she was.. a smoker and a bit of rusty.
though i hope she changed her ways... been talking to her and it sounds like she is more down to earth now with a settled mind, hope she quit smoking too.
its now too late to pull out of it now, meeting her next week.
she even remembers where i live and she isnt from this area, and she only drove me home once, she either has a good memory or shes kinda nuts.


that reminds me.. i need to make a roadtrip to find out where cooper lives.. i promised to find out where she lives before she comes back from her holiday...
i'm pretty sure i explained why...

anywho... catching up with some close friends tomorrow night and looking forward to it... since its been an epic fail to get it together!!!!.... *sigh*.. i miss them dearly but it never works out.


-[Pd]-

Saturday, July 04, 2009























LOL.. funny.......

and yes.. i put one on the other on purpose. you figure it out ~_^.v
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doesn't that just look awesome?.


i am very amused by this.
this is my new juicer!!, i think it looks like a flower pot.



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um, i am very very bored.



can't find anyone i can say random shit to... hm...

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surround myself with cold and flu medicines... just in case i get sick... because almost everyone in the family is sick... i think i'm on my way.

i think i'm addicted to paracetamol.... the higher the amount, the better.
i feel like i just find excuses to use it now...
or take heaps at once...
or just take it without knowing...
or drinking it every shorter period instead of the recommended dose and time.

so.... caffeine and paracetamol are my drug addiction.

oh my heart is aching for some just thinking about it.


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my ex rang me today telling me that she is getting married,
we haven't spoken since the last time we saw each other which was like.. 2 years ago and she just rang me to just let me know.
she didn't sound so sure of it.

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i feel sleepy, and it's only 10pm about.
.
gonna watch a movie now....

-[Pd]-