i know i become distant once in a while, often.
it's not you, it's me.. honest.
i'm afraid of being depended on you, in whatever way that i feel comfortable around you, i'm afraid of being depending on you, on people...
don't take things too personal until you understand why...
people get angry and assume way too early in a situation.
blah.. what am i saying.....!!!!!!!
i guess what im saying is... or trying to say is..
that, i feel distant to people at the moment and most of the time i don't know why.
i feel like being by myself lately, but so want to be with people... that's hard to please.
i don't seem to get amuse so easily lately either, neither horny.. and yes i find that strange and out of the ordinary for me.
i miss matt.
i miss talking to him
i miss hugging him
i miss his laugh
i miss his stupid smile
i miss being on the phone with him
i miss his voice
i miss him calling me babe
i miss him being the first to say goodmorning and the last to say goodnight, everyday
i miss having coffee with him
i miss the stars with him
i miss his warmth
i miss his heart
i miss his mind
i miss him kissing me on the forehead when im sad n upset
i miss him telling me that he loves me
i miss telling him that i love him
i miss my matty.
if only i said yes to him, he would still be here...
