"Do you Love me?".. how many times have you been asked that.? i for one.. has just been ask that again... no.. sorry not by Duyen.. by someone else..by Nancy... and... Fiona.. GOD i cant take it anymore.. my single life sucks man... i miss Duyen.. i wish i was asked by her rather than Nancy and Fiona. =,/ but its nobodies fault.... could be mine but im not sure lol... but Nancy and fiona are nice people.. i just dont think its gonna happen.. i mean i would like to but.. i still got feelings for Duyen.. so i cant.. and also there are two of them.. so i cant choose either.. but the main is i cant because i still Love Duyen.
yea.. lol.. im just wondering.. as i say.. and so do others "we adore the ones who does not adore us and push away the people who do adore us" yea.. im just wondering why that happens.. i mean everybody does it and i cant say that i dont.. lol as i said in my previous.. "we are a weird lot"..
i wanna know why things happen... so... why do things happen...?.. there are reasons behide everything.. as so people say.. yes that is true.. but dont sometimes when you think.. about a matter or problem and u think.. whats possible reason that is.. and later find there is none?.. i think i have.. a couple of times.. but "LOVE"... can or could u answer to that?.. "do you love me?"... or..."Why do u love me" how can u honestly answer that.... its abit hard.. because to me.. love doesnt have a reason i reckon.. it just comes.. its like.. most people.. when u ask them.. "what do u look for in your perfect guy/gurl?".. and most people probably could answer that.. like.. eg.. um.. someone who respects me and treat me right.. someone tall... dark hair.. rich..etc.. i mean.. is that all nessasary?.. well the respecting and treating is but u know.. the body type.. the voice? ( yes people are picky on that too).. is that all nessasary?.. well i dont think it is.. maybe to some.. but to me.. no. is it to you? you love who u love u cant hide it or force into it... and.. if u are my ex.. any of my ex and reading this... think about this.. have i ever said "I Love You" to you? like in a way that is truly i love you? no? that is correct.. i have only said it to ONE person... and i think u could guess whom. and if u cant.. its Duyen.. she is the only person i said it to. because Love for me isnt a simple thing.. like.. i cant just say it to someone.. Love has a meaning and i respect that meaning.. the emotional.. strong feeling .. but the actual word lol.. just saying so u know lol.. i've had a bad pass.. emotionally and physically. and i could say that im still struggling with some.. or and developed some extra bad things as life goes on.
ok.. i dont think i know what im actually writting now so yea.. thats like.. all i wanna talk about.. so yea...
Stay KooooL
PeanutDevil
