my head is like a really bad mosh pit, so deep that i dont know how to get out, i feel like i'm panicing!!! and i have never paniced like this before.
whats going on in my head..??!!!
everything is such a mess!!
i feel like some of my friends are abandon by me, and are feeling pretty damn shitted up about it. i am truely sorry about everything.
my heart is also messed up.... after i lost my confidence.. im not sure about my feelings anymore.. i dont know my mood swings.. i dont know who i like.. but i still know who i dont like lol...
i dont feel as connected to Thao as she feels for me and or i used to feel for her.. the lack of "me" is upsetting me and hurting Thao.
um...
for the last.... week, i've been feeling rage.. desire for... the passion of pain.. blood, bleeding.. that kind of things..
and i dont know what im gonna go about it... i have some ideas but.. it always upset other people.. -_-" !! grrr.
i lost myself once more.
-[Pd]-
