It’s been a few days so I think I should at least update even though I don’t have time to post right now…
I’m writing as I’m working… so forgive me if I don’t provide enough details on certain things…
So… … I um… oh, did I mentioned I met cooper on Thursday?...
I started work really really early on Friday… about 4am to be exact, I’m on a pretty tight schedule so haven’t been able to do much… and in my free time I had some company so no time for the internet either… haven’t even checked my emails or anything!!!
Yea, so while out with cooper on Thursday night, I met a girl that I have been spending my time with… it’s been a few days with her but I’m not so sure if her and I would go on any further then a little fun… I don’t know most to everything about her but so far I’m interested, but I think that she’s a kind of person that the more I know about them the more I lose my interest to her, sounds harsh but its true. No, I’m not calling her boring, I’m saying that, Number one: I find her very clingy if she opens up too much to me and will bombard my life and try to take control of everything I do or want to do. Number two: Because so far we don’t share much in common, but that’s fine, things in common don’t bother me much, because I find that it’s good that you can learn things of and from each other… but her personality is too different to mine, in an extreme way that I can’t find a long term connection, so she’s a weekender swing.
Did a VERY HUGE wedding for a rich family on Saturday… was awesome, I was so surprised that they requested me personally to come and run the wedding, because the bride said she saw me perform at a club and loved me ahhhhahah, else I would have just chuck a mixed tape to them and make one of guys to go.. But HECK it was a HUGE party… I wouldn’t be surprised if it cost them about to more than a million bucks…
The crew and I got paid and treated well. (Oh, well we only got paid like… $20 zero zero zero!! Is that much? *grins*)
Now I kind of wish I’m able to use my money like that… I would be living big right now… (Yup, the cap words are a sign of exaggeration, but it is big...)
Um, gee the weather has been great hey. Just Lovely. Makes me feel excited for summer!!.... But at the same time I’m kind of wishing its still winter so I don’t need to work so much…. When the sun is out, that busy season. Now I don’t think I’ll have much free time anymore. Bummer. BUT MORE WORK MEANS MORE MONEY!!! I so need to replace my savings… it all flushed away on other things, things like important family and friends’ survival type of things… I need to regain my future fund.
I’ve been writing heaps of songs, so sometimes soon, hopefully I would get free time and I will record an acoustic album, ahhhaha no, it will not be released… only for my personal pleasure only… maybe iTunes? Nah, doubt it, but then again who knows, a lot of people have been uploading themselves with crappy things on iTunes…
OH!!! I am absolutely in love with watching the remake of 90210… ahhhaha… people say its like The Oc but I don’t think so. Well maybe the “getting in trouble” bit does… but you can only compare it to the trouble that Marisa Cooper lingers around… and well maybe compare it because it all “rich” kids and family… and the family has a adopted kid.. Which could be “ryan”…?
But that’s it… maybe I’ll see more links the further I watch it…
So far I love it, especially captivated by the girl character name “sliver”…
And if you know me well enough, you’ll know why.
I know I mentioned that I met a girl that I have been in swings with, I feel like I’m getting into the habit again… I just cant pace myself to wait for something I can’t have, even though the feeling is so strong I just can’t leave myself in this pain for nothing, so I guess I’m keeping myself occupied… I’m not saying I’m leaving and running away from the situations, I am still here if ever they would need me, it’s just I can’t keep giving myself false hope.
In a way I’m distracting myself until I’m needed? Or that could just be a lame excuse for swings and flings again… I don’t know, you tell me. “Once a criminal, always a criminal” is what people say to me… and honestly I agree, especially when it’s used on me. I also feel like going back to my dark ways… no not being emo… I don’t think I can be emo… I find things too funny too easily, I mean like the dark twisted ways how I find blood and cuts and scars uber hot, well I think scars are sexy…. Depends on the scar though of course.
But I think maybe I should let myself be dark for a while… release and satisfy the hunger or else it might explode and it wont be so nice… I know what I’m capable of so yea, might be dangerous.
Ahhha… funny thing I noticed while banking these days, the service people in my local area are becoming more good looking… so now I don’t mind going to the bank and waiting in the long ass queue!!... Especially because I go to all four banks to do my banking… its not so bad anymore…
I’m feeling so sleepy right now and it’s only like 6pm right now…
I’m writing this on Tuesday by the way.
Well there’s a nice update for you… I’ll continue soon.
It’s now about 8:30pm Tuesday…
Hhahaha… and I don’t have anything to say… just wanted to pop in.
Ok, about 9pm now…
I just got off the phone with the girl I mentioned I met on Thursday night while out with cooper, we were having a three way chat… and I asked her friend if she was into girls, and she just giggled without answering and every time I ask she would giggle… I don’t quite understand the point of that, is she too shy to talk about it? Or does she want me to find out for myself?... hm… but hey it was fun, I haven’t talked on the phone for that long since a serious relationship, like 3 years ago… not saying that this is a serious relationship, though I do miss the talking to get to know someone deeper then they show… I have been lacking a heap of talking, I don’t seem to talk much these days anymore, especially about me, I haven’t spoken to anyone lately, well just a little bit to Matty, I love you Matty bear!!
About 9:56pm now…
Yea I got nothing… hahaha…
Cheers.
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hey hey, so its been a day over a week... and i'm sorry and i am fine.. just been really busy and yea my interweb access wasnt so great either... but im back now...
cheers.
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