my friend.... is feeling frustrated... with something i dont know, but she wants to leave her life... her family... this country... she wants a new start to her life.. in a new place, i dont understand what is going on with her, but i hope she'll be fine and fresh when she wakes up in the morning...
i guess she wants her own life now, without anyone in the way to stop things from happening... i can understand that... because she is bi-sexual and she wants to have a life that she can freely express herself without the gravity of family or opinionated friends...
maybe she is having some family problems...
maybe shes having some problems at work...
maybe she is feeling like she wants to travel and experience new things because life is too short and she is getting older.
i just dont know... i can only guess until she talks to me about it...
i hope she feels better.
i heart her, i dont want her to leave but i will support her with anything she decides to do.
i am worried, if you cant tell... and i wont play the mind games and go into her head but i will wait for her to open up to me and let it out on her own, i think its healthier that way.
anyways...
sometimes i feel like i want to be god, though i am not a believer, nor a disbeliever...
sometimes i feel like i want to be god so i can fix everything... but i know that is a stupid thing to want, because i know that i cant handle it and just let everyone down and create more chaos.
everyone has problems in one way or another.
there is so many things rushing through my mind at the moment but i dont know how to describe it to proper words to write up... all i can say now is that i feel sad and feeling teary...
i dont know what to do or say...
i love you, yes, you... please smile.
-[Pd]-
