i want my mr to look like that.

hm... all the matts i know kinda looks the same...

all great looking ~_^.v

................................ lifes been crap lately..

so fucking crap, theres no point in trying to fix anymore, no fucking point.

i hate little mistakes/misunderstandings.

you know what?

fuck misunderstandings...

mistakes, i dont mind so much because you can learn from it and it'll probably happen again and you can take a different step....

....just take a breath and move on really.

my kidney hasn't been improving... i am so stressed out about that... i might have to have it removed... i don't want to.

i'm getting married.

i'm missing a friend.

i'm crying heaps.

i'm always medicated.

so much pressure from home, work, friends.... from all i need.

my attitude is, i just want to fuck it and move on...

but deep down, i'm drowning in tears and stress and pain... i just want to let it out.. all out....

i need to get away.. planned to go to vietnam in nov.

i hope it happens.

i'm getting married... and i'm dying.. who the fuck wants to marry a dying bride.

loosing people in my life.... loosing the bondage.. the connection... it'll never recover.

fml.

fml, indeed.

-[Pd]-