maybe i just miss you too much.
i cried as i lay there in bed remembering how you use to hold me while we slept and i would wake and still be in your arms.
i try to smile today... but all i feel is pain.
today was a lie, i am not fine...
i guess i just said that i was fine because i still don't want to believe that this is happening...
and that i didn't want to stay in the moment of pain, i just want to remember the good with you and not the fact that i will never see you again.
i drank a can of mother today.. the energy drink.. and i miss how you would mock the attitude of whats written on it...
the can says " If you need a MOTHER of an energy hit, you need MOTHER. It delivers double the hit in a big black can. So now when a mate turns up with a wussy-sized can, you can raise your MOTHER up and proudly say ' did yours come with a man bag'."
and, " WARNING! high caffeine content... OK, we know that's why you're drinking it but our lame legal guys made us warn you not to feed this to kids, up the duff women or the weak who just can't tolerate it."
i love the mock.
i love you matt.
