attention, attention.
how do you get noticed? yea, i'm asking you.
how do you get attention from the people you want to be noticed by...
yes, you.
how do you know what to do to get the right attention....
....................
say, how do you go about getting attention from that hottie across the room...
yea, you.
how about trying to get attention from a friend, when you need to talk about something deep...
and, how about getting noticed by your parents....
and how do you go about getting attention from a crowd....
...how do you get attention from a distracted friend....when you are aching in stress and troubles and everything but happiness....?
how.
.............. getting attention is hard.
some of you are probably like, hey stupid.. why not just ask for their time?
well you,... asking for time is also hard too ....
don't you just shit yourself when your in such a fucked up mess and you'd have to book for your friend's time?
say, you have drunk a lot and is completely wasted with doubtful self-control and judgement... while in the tub holding a knife with suicidal tendency.... and you call a friend in hope of some sort of hope?...
and they book you in for next week, or not pick up the phone or respond to you at all or is distracted by something else...
how would you feel?
how do you express that this is fucking urgent and i need you like... right fucking now.
right now.
how do you say i need you urgently.
how do you express a sadness to someone...
its hard to get attention, but it worse to try to get the right attention.
sometimes what you say isn't enough to describe the situation...
no one else will ever 100% understand how you feel like or what you go through...
only you.
so how do you express it...
how do you say i really need you right now...
yes,you.
and when you try to get the attention, you have to watch what you say and do because you can't be misleading.
....so how do you get noticed while your shaking with fear and depression and everything but happiness...?
yea,you.
i'm asking you this is because i need help and i don't know how to seek it... people just arent around... and i don't know how to seek and crumble and ask for help.
and i'm asking all this is because i am hoping someone i know, will read this and help...
and i'm hoping that someone i know, will read this and know what i'm going through..
the most confident way for me to find comfort is to ask to hang out... which isn't enough to be noticed.
and what makes it worse is when i realise that someone and i stop contact out of nowhere...
no conversation, no hang outs...
whats up with that, where do people go all of a sudden, did i do something?
did they get bored of me and just decided to go else where?
like, whats up with that?!
why is it so hard to have friends...
or keep them.
do i neglect you? is that why you neglect me?
