every half or full hour from then on, i woke to check the time...
8am came around, the alarm set off and all i did was turn it straight off and thought to myself, fuck this i so can't be bothered right now, maybe tomorrow... and back to sleep i went.
2 hours later, here i am suffering from the biggest headache because of my weird pattern of sleep, i hate it when i look forward to something or have something i know i have to do the next day... i will always over think it and never sleep properly or at all.
even with the most simplest task, like going to the post office, or returning a cooking pan.
this is why i don't like plans, plans make me think about it... the further away the planning to the actual event, the more i suffer.
and what if the even doesn't happen? then i have wasted all this suffering for nothing.
i have been having seriously light sleeps lately, and i feel like i drift in and out between what meant to be dreams and my own reality.... i feel like i imagine things when i'm feeling like this, things are right there and then, real.
i feel Bridgette coming on again, no matter how hard she can deny... i can feel it.
but its not just her, i can feel it on my side as well.
maybe we just feel this way because we like the chase of the situation....blah.
