i'm tired of initiating again, and i'm also sick of sitting here waiting around.
but hey, not like my bitching is gonna do anything but relieve my insanity of a stress... and i'll get over it, but thats not an excuse for you to not make an effort.
make a fucking effort or i'm out of here, pretty simple.
i don't know.. since when i stopped doing what i want to do, when i want to do something then i'll fucking do it...
lately its all fucked up blurred in feelings.
fuck feelings.
fuck this frustration,
and lonely.
since when did i need somebody there next to me to do something.
since when did i become so depended on people, that the absent makes me feel so fucked up.
my confidence has been pushed over by my frustration.
.. and since when did i become afraid of dealing with girls.
i have 4 i could be fucking, but no... my feelings are in the way.
fuck you feelings.
i need to get the fuck out of here.
