so, i have some free time on my hands...

'she's crying for direction,
lost in her reflection,
all the while pretending she's alive'

i want to move away... not to hide from everything, but i just want to be in another place, have another feel and view of things.

i need something new?

i keep thinking that, if only Matt is still around so i can just easily go to him, just go to him, be under his wings til i'm ok again.

my friend said that i need to fall in love, and as silly as that sound, i think so too.

i need the positivity energy around, i think i need someone there to tell me things will be ok no matter what the situation is... like tell me it will be ok when i plan to go to the beach and it fucking storms, say 'baby its ok, we can stay in and watch a movie today and drink hot chocos =)' .

maybe it's time to stop playing and get serious about my heart, open it up a little more.

saying that is easy, attraction is a bitch.

if i find you on the street and i come up to you, that's probably because i think you lookin fine, and what's on my mind is that i wonder what you'll look like naked on my bed, and not ,hey i wonder how you feel about animal cruelty.

and if you're a friend.... then you are a friend, no matter how i much i want you, i am a friend to you.

on that note, i met someone that seriously reminds me of my friend Sara,

the look, the personality, the laugh.

maybe its the shock, but my mind is totally blown...

..and i'm not sure how or where to set her...

good thing i just met her, it gives me a little time before i have to deal with it... in the mean time... she's cute.

...that was so off track.

i feel bored, i have nothing to do, my brother borrowed my car to work today so i'm stuck at home... ran out of things to eat and watch.

nap?.....