Dreams and memories make me feel good ^_^.
But when i step back to reality.. and it tears me apart.
I had a dream last night... it was nice..^_^.. i dreamt of Duyen.. and u know that once your dreaming anything could happen right? well i dreamt that she huged me..^_^ and we were back together..and i felt really comfortable.. you have no idea how comfortable it was.. it even is right now when im thinking of it. then i eventually woke up.. and realised how comfortable i was and continuely throughout the day. i loved it.. well it was close enough of having her back...^_^ so today i would say its a relaxing day.. *big smile*...
oh yea.. in case whos been following my life. the thing with sara....... *sigh*.. i gave up... i do admit i think of her sometimes... but i see her at school and she has so much fun laughing and all and ... i dont want to ruin it. even if its ruining me. to tell u the truth.. i have never been so heartbroken as much as i did/do.have in 2 to 4 of these years... well i do have upsides..but more down sides.. well... i'll list some that has been breaking me... my best friend kathy died Year 2002. lost a girl i wanted to a prick 2002 - 2003? Lost duyen 2004. another friend died 2004.lost some friends 2005. sara left 2005.on drugs 2005. found out im going to die earlier than i thought 2005.
So there you go.
All it is, is that i have a shitty life.. but yet again.. who doesnt... but most of us look upon the highlights...
so yea.. felt like sharing my day so ... ^_^... Talk later... bye bye
