I am feeling pretty damn tired and miserable right now, pretty much sums up to being depressed. Because of mostly stupid things, and that makes me even more stupid, letting it rule my mind and bothering and distract me.
Everything is just so.. happening at once and making a major big impact on me. I am not coping well, at all, but theres not much i can do to ease myself. my life right now is so busy and up and going all the time, even troubledsome.
I could be thinking too much, thats why I'm so distracted, and making little things into big things....in my head.

I'm falling in love with my gf, also with the baby. but can i say that this is happening at the wrong time of my life? or is this my faith that i need to face. is my path being set for me? i know theres always an 'out' as there is an 'in'. i dont want to go into too much detail about my gf and i because its personal and she wants it to be that way. so yea....

Another thing bothering me at the moment is.. problems im having with certain friends.



I need to get away and relax..... i dont want to turn back to drugs and alcohol. quiet the opposite i want.. i need to get healthy again. i want to have fun. fun is simply gone from my life right now... even Dj-ing isnt that amusing to me anymore... my gf makes me happy, for sure, but our situation doesnt.

well I'm leaving it here before i start mumbleling.

-[Pd]-