Today turned out pretty good ^_^. (besides the fact i kept thinking about.... *ahem* Duyen.. -_-" all wells)
Today was good because i dont have school today.. and tomorrow. (exams)(4 day weeknd!!!!!!!!!!) and i went out and abouts, lol.. i nearly decided to actually go peirce my bottom lip. lol.. i also got to rest.. meaning.. actually relax and time to myself kinda thing. And play around with Vivian (my niece)... she is so darn cute!! LOL...
and also had like a umz..... 5 minute convo with 'gorgeous'.. lol.. which is good.. coz havent talked to her for awhile now because of the exam and all that... so.. yea.. im really starting to miss talking to her? + hanging out with her. i noticed we dont do any of that at school. hm.!!!!.
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Thao is........ hm... driving me up the wall? (in case u dont know, thao is my kinda current gf.. and i say kinda coz well ) because she dropped a bomb on me? she is pregnant. what should i do?. i like her but i dont know. is she cheating on me? and if i choose to stay with her... how is it going to work?
Thao and I talked about it and she said if we choose to stay together its going to be our child? that just blew me away... first of all. i am under 18. she is under 18. how is it "our child"??!! its only been like 3 weeks since we've been officially together!! and she is one month pregnant??!!why me. i want to suport her but i feel like im rejecting her. i mean what happened to that guy that got her bloody pregnant!!! (one night stand?) if i choose to stay... what happens in the long term...? when the baby is born... whats going to happen.... truth be told.. Thao and I were just a fling relationship...but now.. suddenly its so serious... i mean i dont mind but.. whats going to happen in the long term, what are our family going to think? is it possible to become a family? Do I Love Her Enough To Stay With Her???? pity love?
I cant be with someone when im thinking of someone else.
does she love me? why did she choose me to be the 'other parent'? am i responsible for this? am i being stopped on my path of my life and forced to settle down already? does she know who i am? who i really am?
life is complicated almost all the time.. but you just got to face it and work something out.
-[Pd]-
