i had a great night with the girls last night and i wish&hope that the feeling of that night never dies... and we continue to be part of each other and come together to share our lives and thoughts of our lives and the world out there... different views are aways better than one view.

there sat five different views.

seven.. including the kids.

eight... including the baby.

it is so difficult to get all of us together because we all have our things to do, epic fail...

but that day just somehow worked, such a fluke.

but it was a great fluke.

i appreciate it a lot when it does happen.

ok, be straight... am i a dirty minded person? ok, i reckon i am... but, do i say it out too openly?

i know i speak openly and make fun of and mock... and sarcastically comment with certain things but, is it getting out of control do you think? because apparently... i made a remark 85% of the night.

if you know me then i would like to know what you think... because i know my friends has accept it.. but is it a default personality that pops up when people think of me?...

I'm not freaking out... i am just curious.

and last night's conversations made me think about a lot of things that i haven't realised or noticed lately, and now i'm wondering what have i been doing? where has my mind been off to?

something changed, and my thoughts changed, my actions and behaviour changed.

for example, they were talking about psych class.... and i thought... 'hm.. i haven't thought about someone in a while' - ' i haven't tried to figure out someone out in a while' - ' - i haven't been out to meet new people in a while, play with their minds a bit'....

i just realised that i have stopped analysing anything and anyone... like my mind has been absent, i really think that my mind is absent.

maybe, i am going through down time.

i doubt that though, because the way my mind has been behaving, i wouldn't call it absent or down time.... maybe one part had taken over, maybe... but no down time (more like overload with sexual thoughts of... everything... have you realised that you can make everything, if not a lot of things sound dirty/naughty?) .

Matt left me a comment on my facebook that.. play is a choice, and i don't disagree on that...and then we got into this whole thing about me messing around with people's minds and such... and he told me to play safe... play nice.. because yeah.. apparently i get into people's minds...

but i don't target and dig into people's mind... i only pick up on the things they let out.. like i said, body language/ facial expression plays a huge roll, but it's also the imagination and the conclusion, assumption of people that plays the part as well...

what do you think of when i say..... whipped cream.

you might think of food like.. strawberries, or a nice iced coffee... i dont know, you tell me.

honest(90%of the night has whipped cream invloved.) , my first thought is strawberries... but it also doesn't stop there....... there always has to involve another person when i think about whipped cream.. and it was pretty obvious that my friends picked that up from me... 99% of them would know that i would be thinking of something sexual, does that make them dirty minded too? because they knew?... how would they know.. if they didn't, or like i said... its a default thought for me from others, so predictable, so expected.

ok, another question... is it ok to hand to mouth feed a friend strawberries with whipped cream?.. i did it last night and apparently a lot of people say thats not an ok thing to do with a friend...

what do you think?

is spoon feeding ice cream to a friend wrong too? is hand to mouth feeding a pizza wrong too?

my friend and i.. we are that comfortable around each other that often we feed each other.. most of the time is because one or another's hands is occupied (on the phone.. txting... we are txt-holics).. or driving.. or it's just quicker as a 'here, try this' method.. (yea.. we do that in restaurants.. and people don't think thats normal as friends).

hm.. now i'm thinking about the whole.. friend bounderies ...

what is acceptable and what is not..?

isn't it just depends on the level of comfort between you and your friend?

like, i have close friends but i only hug a few of them and not all... (im not naturally a touchy feely person, so i do't hug everyone i meet) <-- with that said.. i'm not saying that they arnt special or you know.. i just find that, i hug some people.. and some i don't... and i question it when if they are a close friend.

some people just hugs and kiss everyone.. no point, i'm just saying.

and what about the level of trust.. and comfort.. and bondage.. how much do you share with your friends...? how much does your friends share with you?

hm... questions... questions.... i'll never get answers... even if i do.. i'll pick it apart and raise more questions...

i am so cold right now, i am sitting here in shorts..... i have no idea where my pants went... did they take a holiday in busy season or something??!!

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