why am i feeling so down? when i try to figure it out.. it doesnt make much sense.... ok, its like, ok fine i do have down time and i cant be satisfied 24/7.. and there are things i just dont care about. but why am i feeling sad, depressed, frustrated? i dont know.
do you know?

why arnt i happy of where i stand now.... i'm finding life as a larriken right now.. things are serious.. but it all seems like a joke. is it because i cant get what i want? or is it that i dont know what i have. there are so many unsatisfied things and thoughts in my life, i dont know how to satisfy myself without.. affecting someone else?.. what do i want...
hm... what do i want....?.... i want to know what i want.!!!.. so basically.. does that mean.. that.. what i want is to know what i want?.. alwells... confussing but makes sense.......

im a mess at the moment.... i try to smile.. but ... dont be fooled.

what happens if i die tonight......

-[Pd]-