so, today.... i just laid around the house not doing much... occasionally picked up my guitar to jam. also did alot of thinking..... random thinking...
OH!!!.... akkeke i was playing with a baby today too... my nephew actually... (my cousin's kid) he is about 2 months now and he is so cute... i love the baby smell...
reminded me of Thao's baby.... i miss them some much....
last night i was chatting to a friend of mine.... and we both kinda just exploded with girl issues.... like she was talking about how much she is hooked on this girl and how frustrated she is and how much she wants to let go but cant... sort of thing.... and i also did it too..... i wasnt going to, but i cracked and exploded with myside of the love forest of mine... i never realised how deep i feel about or for people, i was never a one to open up and let people so into my life, and now that i have.... i realise how much feelings hurt.... how much i can be messed and off track i can be.
so i kinda just stayed awake...... thinking and missing people and things and moments..... everything really. i feel so emo? lol.. nah not really.. just down...
im craving a good big kebab and a good cold ginger beer.... ahhahaha i have been eating good and healthy!!
im always good and healthy if when theres someone im trying to impress ahhhaha.... but shes gone now.... and the other hasnt been around for a while....
so.... does this mean... junk food again?..... probably... if no ones looking... ahhaha
um, my mind is so heavy with thoughts and feelings right now... but i have no idea how to explain it all out....
im full of heaviness.....
-[Pd]-
