( *shocked and laughing* my key says "DEXTER" on it.. ahhaha)

hm, i dont see the last post i published.. hm.. anywho...

my keyboard is really stuffed and really hard to type with... im typing slowly so i can smash the keys with my weak weak fingers. sounds fun doesnt it?, it reminds me of when i was younger and my house had those type writers... where you need to press down real hard so it'll hit the ink and print the letter on the paper...

um, i was out this morning...
i felt really.... and i mean REALLY giddy around good looking people... i almost looked very pathetically and pervertically creepy. stuttered abit too, blah.
and thats just being around my local area, think what i would be like if i was in the city... probably end up with a heart attack.
anyways, went home because got things done and simply could not take the uncontrollable giddy-ness anymore, so i went home where it is safe from good looking people?

washed my doggy today... shes so cute, and i love the fact that she got use to baths now... and not so fussy like my last doggy...

i feel like such a shithead towards "Tina", and of course i'll tell you why, it is because she wants to continue our some sort of a relationship... and i dont. i mean, i do like her... but shes not here, she moved away voluntary, she did offer to stay but still i said no because i didnt want to hurt or disappoint her if i dont turn out to be right for her, because it is a big deal moving interstate... not like i can pop into a car and get to her within less than an hours time, but then again thats not the point.. the point is that i cant keep the bond strong if shes not with me, i think i would just be sad during the relationship because i wouldnt be able to see her and to be with her... and that just sucks... i would rather leave it now when the feelings are still on the low.
and im not so sure we could be one of close friends either, because i like her and that would stand in the way of us being friends and or me moving on if im still attached to her... even though nothings happening.
and proof of that point is from well from all my post show that i have that problem.

um...

i have to go shopping for a dress..... i never thought i'd say that EVER... but i have said that now three times.... once for my year 12 formal, and then a normal casual dress.. which i cant find anymore... and now i need to get another one..... and some fancy footwear... probably need a hair cut too... a trim.

i will be spending time with a good friend of mine tomorrow and looking forward to it!! OH!!!... i said "tomorrow" .... i get so confused when people use the word "tomorrow" after midnight..... i dont know what tomorrow means at that point.. because different people use it differently...
like for example, right now is Wednesday... and after midnight tonight.. some people call it Thursday so when they use "tomorrow" they mean Friday... and that just confuses the crap out of my.... not to mention im sleepy and tired by midnight and i would have to think about it too... and to me.. personally.. if i havent slept... its not another day yet.. until the sun rises... so if you so happen to be talking to me late at night... please use the name of the days... *cheers*

hm... im watching alil tv now... probably til i decide to sleep... would be like, probably about 6 or 7 hours later lol... drinking tea.... and strawberry milk, separately.

OH, ahahah i heard something on the news last night and they said australia in " man - drought" and i thought to myself... is that the reason why im gay? lol.. coz i cant find a guy? and there's girls EVERYWHERE?....
nah, just random thought.... thats not why i like girls.... my interest in girls came naturally...

um... um.... wow.. looks like enough for tonight.. hehehe...... will mumble on tomorrow night... ciao now..

-[Pd]-