and i want you NOW!!.
i am unsure on what i'm suppose to be figuring out, why are we waiting when nothing is stopping us, you and me.
you and i can figure it out when it comes to our door step, you and i can wait for it together, all the while in the comfort of each other's warmth.
......................................
this girl, i want this girl... she makes me feel wild with crazy moshy feelings.
she makes me feel frustration, horny,thrilled and fear.
she not only makes me happy but a bunch of other feelings too, that's the best part!
it's been a while since i found someone that can make me completely insane, oh how i miss this feeling.... i know hurt will one day rise, but in the mean time, hurt can suck excitements' balls.
she told me to figure some things out before she thinks i'm ready to be with her.. she knows my past and she wants me to set my mind straight, she knows i linger between people and i've been around....
she wants me clean.... and i think she is worth the effort.
(maybe a tad demanding? but then again she does have a point.)
she's young, though i'm not that much older to make a big deal of....
she's creative, passionate.
she is an artist, her art is amazing.
she is studying journalism.
....... i realised something.... i think i like girls that are into art, but most of the time i don't know they are into art until later on... but my ex's all do or like art, strange..thats something to think about.
i can't draw to save my life and i don't know how to appreciate a painting.... i even get confused with colours...why are there so many shades of colours?!
anyway.
update on me? not much happening other than still unable to sleep properly... been working 5 days a week (WOOOO pay week this week) ... haven't seen any friends besides cooper the other,,,weeknd? when we went to look for cars... erm..
i need to go get my eyes checked and maybe get new glasses, can't wait til i can get a car...
i was thinking about..... a car... or buying a new house/apartment/unit.. or smashing down the house i live in now and rebuild it.
because i realise that i really want to live in a better and nicer place.... i've been in this same house and room since i was like.. a month old.
i've got money, why not use it for a better living.
grrr have to try and sleep now... or just lay down and not do anything to reserve energy for work.
goodnight,friend.
