i want either to pull it... or cut it the fuck off.
decisions decisions.
i don't know how to think right now... or ever, it was always clearer when i wasn't in a situation.
but i am unsure of outsider's opinions.
i can pick bits and pieces from what people say and take it into consideration, but then again that's just a 'hear what i want to hear' situation, and that becomes pointless.
i'm sick, again.
this time it seems worse than it was before, i am unable to sleep... at all.
my brain just doesn't shut down anymore, maybe it's stress related.
i had a physical medical examination, and a psychotic examination....
so what i got out of those are... i have abnormal brain activity that affects my relaxations which unables me to sleep, and i suffer from mild PMD.
i've been afraid to drive because i lose concentration.
i haven't gone out to see anyone, because i just don't feel happy,comfortable,.... acceptable.
im blah feeling... and it's rude.
but i want time to myself.... but i also want to be with people, i miss people.
i don't know how to tell people what i'm going through, i don't know how or when to seek help and support.. i dont know how to explain myself.
goodnight.
