i finally slept last night,..it's been about 3 months.

i cheated and took some sleeping pills, i was frustrated and stressed out.

i want to sleep again, but i don't want to swallow pills to help, or knock me out.

i don't want to be depended on sleeping pills for the rest of my life, i don't want to be depended on any kind of medications every single day for the most simplest task for the rest of my life.

i'm tired of being sick.

i hate being sick.

i can't relax.