i feel like i am on a display.
i feel like a study object!
i am a study object.
i'm upset, i've been upset for a while... but i have no idea how to say/express it..
it intermittently comes and goes and it makes me completely bipolar.
"intermittently" pfft who says that.
i'm so tired.
i am exhausted from being on show... fucking 5 hours of being examined. FML!
i have been placed on new medication again, yay.
hopefully it works this time and i can get better and feel not so angry all the fucking time.
the most impact is in the front left of my brain, so it affects my moods.. behaviour.. memory.. organisation... direction..speech... sexual-ness. etc etc .
i can't sleep. - fucking intense insomnia.
i guess i always thought, i had a mental problem... with my intense mood swings, depression and all that suicidal stuffs... but i don't, though no one is for sure.
"they" just found weird behaviours with my brain so i guess they will blame it on the physical first.
i also had my psychology examination every so often because of all that emotional wreckness that goes on up there.
lets just say.... i'm still angry and lonely.
Sylvie's pretty awesome, but i feel like i bother her.
everyone else is just gone, like...just gone.
and the rest of them either gets mad of how i am or are crazy ex girlfriends.
FML, i think i'm attracted to crazy girls. they're just fun... until it becomes too much.
...*sigh*.. thats enough of the day for me...
goodnight world, hello sleeping pills.
