WELP... Today .. IS the most important day .... XD..( if dunno wat it is.. tilt ya head left) well i will tell you WHY it is so. well for starters... it is indeed my birthday!! ^_^ yups.. it is my 16th birthday... ROFL.... and.. today... my promise and my waiting life begins.... well... im sorry if u cant understand me very welll meybe that is... is coz im probably partly drunk.... and im sorry it wasnt my idea or fault!... others spiked my drink...ROFL... im sorry.. i didnt mean to drink it... i didnt know until a while later... i made about $230... lol.. .. i wish i couldv spent today or birthday with Duyen.. like last yr... ooohh how that was wonderful... last yr... and part of this yr was great... coz i still had her around....oh how i love that gurl! -_-` but she gone now.... *AHEM*
well... i got... 3 years left of my life ..ROFL... 1095days to be exact! ROFL..lol.. hm Yes.... today is important..... yup.. lol..OMG im so full lol... well anyways.. yes i think thats all i wanna say ROFL... um... yes.. lol.. I Love you baby.....
WTF>??? LMAO....
stay koooool peeps...
Peanut
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Saturday, December 25, 2004
so confussed and lost!!!
I am so... confussed and lost... yes.. i know i am confussed and lost of many things... but this time.. its about.. my... um.. as u say.. Love Life. As you know.. i am still in love with Duyen... my recent ex. and now an update... i have another two girls hanging off me... one.. name Nancy and one name Fiona. and one more part of that is .. the problem im having with them... they think im in a relationship with each of them (like.. Nancy think im dating her and Fiona thinks im dating her)( they dont know each other) i tried telling them ... that its not true.. but they always think im joking about it.. so yea.. but i cant say that i dont enjoy their company.. its just that.. i have two of them... and.. AND.. i still really really REALLY like.. well... Love Duyen.. so its abit hard...
you see...
when i talk to Nancy or Fiona.. i ... um.. i tend to loose focus with Duyen...(i know.. some of you are saying its a good thing) but.. sometimes.. what they say.. or do it reminds me of Duyen.. and.. or.. when.. i look at Duyen's picture.. i feel her... emotionally feel her... and.. i feel that i need her in my life again.. and all that.. u know what i mean? (yea.. all you are saying is get rid of her pix its simple.. its not.. because.. even if i do.. i still got her picture her.. face.. in my heart and mind.. who knows over the years it might fade.. but right now.. its not.. it is standing strong and still!!!)
SO...... wraping that up.....
all it meant was.. no matter what i do... or who i meet or take interest in.. i always turn back to Duyen.. i mean i even(i know this sounds lame and sad but) cry to/for her most nights.. and i end up not sleeping.. yea.. if u know me.. u probabaly know that i havent been sleeping for a while.. yea.. i havent been sleeping since.. me and duyen started having trouble in the relationship till we broke up.. and she stoped talking to me.. and till now.. i havent been sleeping.. well most night anyways.. like 1 out of 5 nights i sleep... its like that ...that should give u an idea of my sleeping pattern... but rarely.. i sleep..... but i dont know.. i dont know what i should do anymore. i cant over come this.. she meant...mean so much to me.. i cant help but think of her all the time.. and think how stupid i was to push her away from me like that.. hm....
Gee i hate being single.... so confussing .. lol... i mean.. being single isnt bad its just lol.. to many.. confussing situations... ahhhh im a mess.!... lol.. let me ask you ppl.. which one of you look for a relationship.. which one of you look for love... ??? i dont.. i reckon it comes naturally so why not let it flow and take its place..? lol.. and im not actually a kinda girl that goes out to find ppl... im not actually attractive in anyway ( as u could see in my pic) im ugly.....lol..im a tomboy for one lol.. and its kinda hard to find the "kind" of ppl for me.. coz of me being bi-sexual and all .. lol.. anyways!!!!!! hahah got a lil of track there!! ROFL.. ..
gonan go now.. so STAY KoooOoOOL...
PeanutDevil
you see...
when i talk to Nancy or Fiona.. i ... um.. i tend to loose focus with Duyen...(i know.. some of you are saying its a good thing) but.. sometimes.. what they say.. or do it reminds me of Duyen.. and.. or.. when.. i look at Duyen's picture.. i feel her... emotionally feel her... and.. i feel that i need her in my life again.. and all that.. u know what i mean? (yea.. all you are saying is get rid of her pix its simple.. its not.. because.. even if i do.. i still got her picture her.. face.. in my heart and mind.. who knows over the years it might fade.. but right now.. its not.. it is standing strong and still!!!)
SO...... wraping that up.....
all it meant was.. no matter what i do... or who i meet or take interest in.. i always turn back to Duyen.. i mean i even(i know this sounds lame and sad but) cry to/for her most nights.. and i end up not sleeping.. yea.. if u know me.. u probabaly know that i havent been sleeping for a while.. yea.. i havent been sleeping since.. me and duyen started having trouble in the relationship till we broke up.. and she stoped talking to me.. and till now.. i havent been sleeping.. well most night anyways.. like 1 out of 5 nights i sleep... its like that ...that should give u an idea of my sleeping pattern... but rarely.. i sleep..... but i dont know.. i dont know what i should do anymore. i cant over come this.. she meant...mean so much to me.. i cant help but think of her all the time.. and think how stupid i was to push her away from me like that.. hm....
Gee i hate being single.... so confussing .. lol... i mean.. being single isnt bad its just lol.. to many.. confussing situations... ahhhh im a mess.!... lol.. let me ask you ppl.. which one of you look for a relationship.. which one of you look for love... ??? i dont.. i reckon it comes naturally so why not let it flow and take its place..? lol.. and im not actually a kinda girl that goes out to find ppl... im not actually attractive in anyway ( as u could see in my pic) im ugly.....lol..im a tomboy for one lol.. and its kinda hard to find the "kind" of ppl for me.. coz of me being bi-sexual and all .. lol.. anyways!!!!!! hahah got a lil of track there!! ROFL.. ..
gonan go now.. so STAY KoooOoOOL...
PeanutDevil
Friday, December 17, 2004
um.. just want to talk?
Hey i just want to point out something from todays newspaper, its my star sign..
" 'There are more questions than answer'. or so the song goes. That's not necessarily true, though, as many questions seem to have more than one answer. It's prbably also why we end up asking the same old questions, over and over again, only to find that the answer keeps on changing.You are feeling more than a little frustrated at the moment. An awkward, antagonistic alignment between your ruler and the Sun makes you suspect that the weekend will contain further puzzles.But actually, things will get easier." hm.. kinda true.. but very unsure about the last bit about getting better.... or easier... ..
im just.. so.. ticked off!!! so bloodly frustrated with myself!!!! its like ARGHHH!!!! i think im like.. metally ill or something because not everything i do is to blame for. nothing is to blame for i reckon... i reckon that people blame because they cant find the correct reason for things ... for things they do.. their concequencies as i like to call them.... um...i just had apoint.. but.. i lost it.. so yea.. um.. but still ... i think i may have mention that i have an confession on my mind...? i so want....NEED to talk about it.. or to tell the truth behind what i did. i just have it weighing on my mind... always on the top front of my mind... hm... i did what i did on purpose and for the best. for her best more it is.... so yea.. im not feeling that well at the moment.. so yea...
stay chilled
PeanutDevil
" 'There are more questions than answer'. or so the song goes. That's not necessarily true, though, as many questions seem to have more than one answer. It's prbably also why we end up asking the same old questions, over and over again, only to find that the answer keeps on changing.You are feeling more than a little frustrated at the moment. An awkward, antagonistic alignment between your ruler and the Sun makes you suspect that the weekend will contain further puzzles.But actually, things will get easier." hm.. kinda true.. but very unsure about the last bit about getting better.... or easier... ..
im just.. so.. ticked off!!! so bloodly frustrated with myself!!!! its like ARGHHH!!!! i think im like.. metally ill or something because not everything i do is to blame for. nothing is to blame for i reckon... i reckon that people blame because they cant find the correct reason for things ... for things they do.. their concequencies as i like to call them.... um...i just had apoint.. but.. i lost it.. so yea.. um.. but still ... i think i may have mention that i have an confession on my mind...? i so want....NEED to talk about it.. or to tell the truth behind what i did. i just have it weighing on my mind... always on the top front of my mind... hm... i did what i did on purpose and for the best. for her best more it is.... so yea.. im not feeling that well at the moment.. so yea...
stay chilled
PeanutDevil
Monday, December 13, 2004
i think its time..... for what u say?....
well my friend its time to leave everything behide.. like what? hm... like... my life? my love... ( i know i know.. in ya head u probably going.. here me go again.. always this.. but whats your point.. its my place to talk about my problems and what i feel) um.. yea.. i think its time.. i dont think i can count down the days anymore... yea.. if u know me.. like.. on my hotmail messenger.. i count down the days to my plan of death.. and at the same time im holding on to a promise i made and "committed" to, so i have no choice but to keep hold to it,so thats why im counting or else i'll be dead by now.
hm... have you ever had someone... shove alot of bad things in your face? and its like.. hard enough for you to like... go on with your life without it? do you live in a broken home...? and do you ever run away from home.. and you try to call up your friends for help.. BUT NONE OF THEM PICKS UP????or reply?? so your stuck with no where to go? oh yea.. and plus to that u have no money on ya?,.. and its raining ? so its cold and wet.. and your hungry.. but you said to yourself your not going home for at least 2 or 3 days?... well thats what happened to me.. now isnt that a bummer... and today... omg.. and what a dear friend i have.. that tries to "help" me.. so much that lead me to such writting... what a true friend that is.. ok enough with the sacasim with that "friend".. so as u can tell.. it was a shitty day..
oh yea... i visited a cemetery today... and its like.. so amazing that some of them has been there for so long.,like over 100's of years... but the thing is.. the whole time i was there i was thinking where am i gonna be buried when i die. is my grave gonna still be there after a 100 years? even.. is anyone gonna bother visiting it? me? but then after all that.. i felt like.. that is too much attention.. i dont want that much attention... its like.. i live my life ,u live yours.. when its over its over.. but still theres a saying "He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man. " and still so its true when u think about it.. people dont cherish you until u are actually gone.. but i dont want that.. i just want to be gone. I wonder sometimes .. that when we die.. what happens... like.. u know those stories about hell and heaven... how hell is bad n for bad people so they get punished and heaven is for good people n they get served....?.. its like.. how do we know that really happens... like.. did someone actually died and come back to tell the story?.. i mean.. did that really happen? then if so.. how can they escape the "eternity" and why cant other people or " spirits" so that.. and how does that work.. i mean.. the cycle.. u know the death cycle.. everyone should..yea.. how does that work.. so u die.. float to eternity to do your servings then granted a life(babylife) get ya head rewined and pop there u go your alive again? ( im sorry if this offening you in anyway.. its just im curious.. i mean i have been thinking about thses things since um... what 8?) and what happens to your "old" memories... i mean what if u had a really good life... in the end is it all a waste? coz you get your mind erased? oh yea.. and in movies.. lol in movies.. some people have "flash backs" on their "past life" does that happen? coz i think i might have that once... or twice.. (or im just crazy) and it scared the living hit out of me ...and so to the person i was with... but then again.. to think... of it.. i might be crazy... well thats what i think of myself... crazy.....
hm... i think i just got abit out of hand there with my curious thinking about death... but anyways... yea.. oh geez.. i think i wrote too much.. so yea.
peace.. stay kool.
PeanutDevil
hm... have you ever had someone... shove alot of bad things in your face? and its like.. hard enough for you to like... go on with your life without it? do you live in a broken home...? and do you ever run away from home.. and you try to call up your friends for help.. BUT NONE OF THEM PICKS UP????or reply?? so your stuck with no where to go? oh yea.. and plus to that u have no money on ya?,.. and its raining ? so its cold and wet.. and your hungry.. but you said to yourself your not going home for at least 2 or 3 days?... well thats what happened to me.. now isnt that a bummer... and today... omg.. and what a dear friend i have.. that tries to "help" me.. so much that lead me to such writting... what a true friend that is.. ok enough with the sacasim with that "friend".. so as u can tell.. it was a shitty day..
oh yea... i visited a cemetery today... and its like.. so amazing that some of them has been there for so long.,like over 100's of years... but the thing is.. the whole time i was there i was thinking where am i gonna be buried when i die. is my grave gonna still be there after a 100 years? even.. is anyone gonna bother visiting it? me? but then after all that.. i felt like.. that is too much attention.. i dont want that much attention... its like.. i live my life ,u live yours.. when its over its over.. but still theres a saying "He who has gone, so we but cherish his memory, abides with us, more potent, nay, more present than the living man. " and still so its true when u think about it.. people dont cherish you until u are actually gone.. but i dont want that.. i just want to be gone. I wonder sometimes .. that when we die.. what happens... like.. u know those stories about hell and heaven... how hell is bad n for bad people so they get punished and heaven is for good people n they get served....?.. its like.. how do we know that really happens... like.. did someone actually died and come back to tell the story?.. i mean.. did that really happen? then if so.. how can they escape the "eternity" and why cant other people or " spirits" so that.. and how does that work.. i mean.. the cycle.. u know the death cycle.. everyone should..yea.. how does that work.. so u die.. float to eternity to do your servings then granted a life(babylife) get ya head rewined and pop there u go your alive again? ( im sorry if this offening you in anyway.. its just im curious.. i mean i have been thinking about thses things since um... what 8?) and what happens to your "old" memories... i mean what if u had a really good life... in the end is it all a waste? coz you get your mind erased? oh yea.. and in movies.. lol in movies.. some people have "flash backs" on their "past life" does that happen? coz i think i might have that once... or twice.. (or im just crazy) and it scared the living hit out of me ...and so to the person i was with... but then again.. to think... of it.. i might be crazy... well thats what i think of myself... crazy.....
hm... i think i just got abit out of hand there with my curious thinking about death... but anyways... yea.. oh geez.. i think i wrote too much.. so yea.
peace.. stay kool.
PeanutDevil
Friday, November 26, 2004
wise mind
i just think this is really good to mention!!!! it was in my history class lol.. now known as my legal studies class.
so here it goes.
As we know,
there are no known known.
There are things we know we know,
we also know there are known unknowns,
That is to say we know there are some things we do not know.
But there are also unknowns unknowns,
The ones we dont know we dont know.
its pretty good... great meaning too.. lol.. think about and it'll hit in the face lol.. it took me a while to really really get the meaning... i got it but not the real meaning.. so if u think u know what it means.... think more into it... it makes more sense lol....
Enjoy
Peace out.
PeanutDevil
so here it goes.
As we know,
there are no known known.
There are things we know we know,
we also know there are known unknowns,
That is to say we know there are some things we do not know.
But there are also unknowns unknowns,
The ones we dont know we dont know.
its pretty good... great meaning too.. lol.. think about and it'll hit in the face lol.. it took me a while to really really get the meaning... i got it but not the real meaning.. so if u think u know what it means.... think more into it... it makes more sense lol....
Enjoy
Peace out.
PeanutDevil
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
why..
Why are people doubting me about me moving on with my life... why am i getting picked on.. and why the hell am i getting in trouble when im being picked on....???!! i mean its like.. what tha hell is going on. Cant i stand up for myself now..??? i just really dont know what to do anymore. but im sure somewhere else in the world someone elses life is woser than mine.... at least i got a home and food to live on... i guess we just want to much... we dont "need" it.. we just "want" it.. like our selfish "wants".. dont we think about anyone else?.. dont we think about anything else... beyond ourself.? most of u would probably say yes.. but thats not true.. just... just think about it..
i cant really explain what im feeling these days... or now... its just.. horriable.. terriable... im tired. restless. miserable... hm.. omg... i dont really care about the fights i've been in.. the only thing i.. care.. think about is.. 'D'.. i dont know.. but why is it so hard.. to get on... and people dont support me on it either... and when im down about her.. they say " stop it get on with ya life find sum1 else" and when i actually try .. they doubt it'll work... for eg. i would say "ok im gonna move on.. im gonan forget her.." then they go" but u cant. coz u still like her" and its like wtf??? thery going the other way all of a sudden. what are you trying to say people??!!! make it clear and one point. omgosh.. its bad enough for me that im trying to forget her... which i dont really wana do.. and i make some bit of effort and u doubt me.
geez....
i mean... for sure i do love her.. i really do truely and dearly.. but she made it pretty clear that me and her aint never ever gonna happen again... gee i dont even think she'll talk to me again.. thats what im most focused worried is... she wouldnt even look at me.. how could i expect her to talk to me... =./... i mean come on.. anyone could see that right?.
hm... im sorry.. you have to always read about her... my problems i have with her.. and that.. i just cant help it... ok.. so tired now... so yea.. im gone
Peace man... take care.
~[Peanut]~
shoutout. tributes to the ~[R.I.P]~ Gang.. with all my respect...
i cant really explain what im feeling these days... or now... its just.. horriable.. terriable... im tired. restless. miserable... hm.. omg... i dont really care about the fights i've been in.. the only thing i.. care.. think about is.. 'D'.. i dont know.. but why is it so hard.. to get on... and people dont support me on it either... and when im down about her.. they say " stop it get on with ya life find sum1 else" and when i actually try .. they doubt it'll work... for eg. i would say "ok im gonna move on.. im gonan forget her.." then they go" but u cant. coz u still like her" and its like wtf??? thery going the other way all of a sudden. what are you trying to say people??!!! make it clear and one point. omgosh.. its bad enough for me that im trying to forget her... which i dont really wana do.. and i make some bit of effort and u doubt me.
geez....
i mean... for sure i do love her.. i really do truely and dearly.. but she made it pretty clear that me and her aint never ever gonna happen again... gee i dont even think she'll talk to me again.. thats what im most focused worried is... she wouldnt even look at me.. how could i expect her to talk to me... =./... i mean come on.. anyone could see that right?.
hm... im sorry.. you have to always read about her... my problems i have with her.. and that.. i just cant help it... ok.. so tired now... so yea.. im gone
Peace man... take care.
~[Peanut]~
shoutout. tributes to the ~[R.I.P]~ Gang.. with all my respect...
Monday, November 08, 2004
Abeyance ( dont know what it is? then look it up)
...hm... today was the SC... it was alright... um... yea...
for the last.. few days.... i dont know how to explain it... its like.. intense... crampt.... i dont know.... its so.... ARGH!!!!!!! yea.. um..
i have thing to say... but i dont think its a good idea to say it all on here... hm... yu know what.. im actually not that keen on talking at the moment... not that keen... maybe i will... but.. right now.. not so sure..i got alot on my mind... i um.. what can i really say.. i lost the one i really love... -_-` how more stupid can i get!!!
um... i want to say.. all these things ... to her .. to everybody,.. even to you?..( lol it depends on who u r.. um) well.. if u do know me.. im not the kinda of person that speaks well... i dont really know how to express myself....i.. um.... please.. dont take things for granted... worth it.. make it all worth living for.. and dont let go.. be satisfied.. dont go looking for more(by urself that is)...dont waste your life.. dont waste your love.. and dont everu waste the time.. life and love of the other.. that loves you.. truely......and if u do love them truely.. dont spare it!.. tell them.. keep it.. show them.. omg...!!!!
hm.. i am.. in dept of..... i guess everything,... .... what i mean by that..??? im not that sure.. it just sounds kinda right.. =/... *sigh* what a simple mind i'v got.!!! well.. this simple minded person.. is outta here.. coz if i dont.. in about a minute.. im gonan be saying alot of things that i really shouldnt.....-_-.. so yes,...
Peace out......
Peanut..(too lazy to do me label!!)
for the last.. few days.... i dont know how to explain it... its like.. intense... crampt.... i dont know.... its so.... ARGH!!!!!!! yea.. um..
i have thing to say... but i dont think its a good idea to say it all on here... hm... yu know what.. im actually not that keen on talking at the moment... not that keen... maybe i will... but.. right now.. not so sure..i got alot on my mind... i um.. what can i really say.. i lost the one i really love... -_-` how more stupid can i get!!!
um... i want to say.. all these things ... to her .. to everybody,.. even to you?..( lol it depends on who u r.. um) well.. if u do know me.. im not the kinda of person that speaks well... i dont really know how to express myself....i.. um.... please.. dont take things for granted... worth it.. make it all worth living for.. and dont let go.. be satisfied.. dont go looking for more(by urself that is)...dont waste your life.. dont waste your love.. and dont everu waste the time.. life and love of the other.. that loves you.. truely......and if u do love them truely.. dont spare it!.. tell them.. keep it.. show them.. omg...!!!!
hm.. i am.. in dept of..... i guess everything,... .... what i mean by that..??? im not that sure.. it just sounds kinda right.. =/... *sigh* what a simple mind i'v got.!!! well.. this simple minded person.. is outta here.. coz if i dont.. in about a minute.. im gonan be saying alot of things that i really shouldnt.....-_-.. so yes,...
Peace out......
Peanut..(too lazy to do me label!!)
Monday, November 01, 2004
WHAT A FRIGGEN DAY!!bloody hektic
well... today was all about "new" things... hahahaha well mostly at skool anyways.. it was like being in yr 7 once again hahah it was first day of yr 11.. so yea.. new classes...
well neways
after skool... played some jokes on a couple of people... lol it was fun... forgotten how fun things use to be... im gonan tell u about it... first... lol.. i sat in a parked car a lansvale macus... put some sunglasses on pulled out a hairdryer and pointed it at passing cars.. hahaha they actually slowed down... hahahaha then...anyone that talked to me and wanted something.. i said " do u want fries with that?".. hahaha...then..at home.. haha (family is caffeine addictions...) i put all the coffees to decaf and when they all get over the addictions.. i'll change it back to espresso... hahah lol... i didnt do this but.. my mate asked everyone what their sex(gender) was and laught hysterically after they answer... and we went through "drive-through" and after we finish ordering.. we oredered "to-go" hahahaha..hahaha and the last thing we did was... went to the atm and when u money came out we shouted " we won we won third time this week!!!!!" hahahathat was it.. but then,... we thought of more things to do lol...like.. When leaving the zoo, start running toward the parking lot yelling, "run for your lives, they're loose!" & Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme. &Sing along at the opera &. Put mosquito netting around your work area. Play a tape of jungle sounds all day.& Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.
hahah thats it too.....
it was funny... fun today..*ahem*.... but underneath all that... on my mind... yes thats right.... lol... all about...her.... yea.... lol at the moment . i think im high on something... or maybe i havnt had this much fun since she seriously left me... erm.. i dunno... well ok... thats it from me... for.. um..tonight? yea..
Chill out!!!!
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
well neways
after skool... played some jokes on a couple of people... lol it was fun... forgotten how fun things use to be... im gonan tell u about it... first... lol.. i sat in a parked car a lansvale macus... put some sunglasses on pulled out a hairdryer and pointed it at passing cars.. hahaha they actually slowed down... hahahaha then...anyone that talked to me and wanted something.. i said " do u want fries with that?".. hahaha...then..at home.. haha (family is caffeine addictions...) i put all the coffees to decaf and when they all get over the addictions.. i'll change it back to espresso... hahah lol... i didnt do this but.. my mate asked everyone what their sex(gender) was and laught hysterically after they answer... and we went through "drive-through" and after we finish ordering.. we oredered "to-go" hahahaha..hahaha and the last thing we did was... went to the atm and when u money came out we shouted " we won we won third time this week!!!!!" hahahathat was it.. but then,... we thought of more things to do lol...like.. When leaving the zoo, start running toward the parking lot yelling, "run for your lives, they're loose!" & Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme. &Sing along at the opera &. Put mosquito netting around your work area. Play a tape of jungle sounds all day.& Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.
hahah thats it too.....
it was funny... fun today..*ahem*.... but underneath all that... on my mind... yes thats right.... lol... all about...her.... yea.... lol at the moment . i think im high on something... or maybe i havnt had this much fun since she seriously left me... erm.. i dunno... well ok... thats it from me... for.. um..tonight? yea..
Chill out!!!!
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Sunday, October 31, 2004
whao.. what a night... -_-`
... Last night was um.... hektic?lol... but sweet because i was at a wedding... omg... i almost cried... lol... yea... *i wish u all the best Sinh & Jenny!!!*......
so anyways... that night.. i wanted to stay home!!! but NO!! i had to go..=(..hm...
-_- if only u n i were..... then we could spend sum time together last night... but alwells... u cant have everything u want!.....lol i showed up in jeans.. lol... odd one out...lol... hm.. danced(forced!!)(i shouldv danced with D ... but i didnt,,,=( i regret that so much!!) with a couple of peoples on the bride side( im on the man side) lol the bride's maids... lol.. i know people on the bride side lol. but i didnt know... lol one of the bride's maid was..... i say was... my ex lol... that i havnt talk to or seen in a very long while..... so i was shock when i saw her.... hm....
lol.. i just realised this was the first wedding i attended in like... 3? years... lol... amazing.. lol... you know what i realised... Love... Love is like a chasing game... why is that... its like we adore people that dont think of us at all and leave the people that adore us aside... everybody does that.. why is that.... even i do that...but.... i cant say that about everyone... because some people are lucky enough to find there ends of adorance.... they find each other... well.. i wouldnt call it luck... more of fate.... like in the oc says.." you cant fight fate man"...but then.. what if.. theres two somebodys for one person.....???...and what if.. 2 people likes one person but that one person likes someone else...??? lol ok now im just confussing myself..probably u too... .. um.. yerrrraa..... ok im lost.. i lost my point to this one lol.. ok im out...
peace out..
Peanut
so anyways... that night.. i wanted to stay home!!! but NO!! i had to go..=(..hm...
-_- if only u n i were..... then we could spend sum time together last night... but alwells... u cant have everything u want!.....lol i showed up in jeans.. lol... odd one out...lol... hm.. danced(forced!!)(i shouldv danced with D ... but i didnt,,,=( i regret that so much!!) with a couple of peoples on the bride side( im on the man side) lol the bride's maids... lol.. i know people on the bride side lol. but i didnt know... lol one of the bride's maid was..... i say was... my ex lol... that i havnt talk to or seen in a very long while..... so i was shock when i saw her.... hm....
lol.. i just realised this was the first wedding i attended in like... 3? years... lol... amazing.. lol... you know what i realised... Love... Love is like a chasing game... why is that... its like we adore people that dont think of us at all and leave the people that adore us aside... everybody does that.. why is that.... even i do that...but.... i cant say that about everyone... because some people are lucky enough to find there ends of adorance.... they find each other... well.. i wouldnt call it luck... more of fate.... like in the oc says.." you cant fight fate man"...but then.. what if.. theres two somebodys for one person.....???...and what if.. 2 people likes one person but that one person likes someone else...??? lol ok now im just confussing myself..probably u too... .. um.. yerrrraa..... ok im lost.. i lost my point to this one lol.. ok im out...
peace out..
Peanut
Saturday, October 30, 2004
outrageous...!!! what am i saying in this one!!! hahaha
.....Oh… its so hot and I need some air… If anyone knows me…what so ever… they should know that I like the average girl way better than strippers!!! LoL....
Hey how do u react to this "Lay back baby, close your eyes ,Ice on the pinky finger froze your thighs"..? lol...
you know what... instead of me going on about hot sexy stuffs... way dont i give ya'll some tips...about the female body.... you know .. how to satisfy a lady...it might be true.. it might be not.. but this is what i've learnt in my days lol ~_^
so.. here it goes : (WARNING!!!! this could get a lil .. u know.. so if u dont want to know/read it then DONT!!!![dont say i didnt warn ya coz i just did!!])
1- Spine-While you should never massage the spine directly, feel free to use your tongue or fingers to glide up it every now and then. To drive her crazy, let your tongue graze over the little hairs on her back. Or, you can always use your fingers to tickle your way up to her neck.
2- Behind the neck- Believe it or not, for some women, the back of the neck is the spot that makes them melt. Next time you kiss your girl , move her hair away from her neck (if applicable) and breathe on her neck, letting your lips graze against it before you kiss and then lightly bite into it.
3- Scalp- While you're kissing your girl, put your hands on the back of her head and massage her scalp for a minute. As well, feel free to give her hair a little tug from the roots; it will heighten her senses.
4- Shoulders -From kissing and massaging to lightly biting, the shoulders are an oft-ignored body part, but should be given some serious attention. Because this area of a woman's body is often neglected, when you do spend some time appreciating her shoulders, she will get the chills and, in turn, you will get your thrills.
5- Breasts (not nipples) -We tend to instinctively head straight for the nipples and only grab on to the breasts when we want to bring the nipples closer to our mouths. However, if you want her nipple to beg for your attention, you need to spend some time kissing and caressing the surrounding area -- the breast. Lick and bite near the nipples without actually touching them and she'll be begging you to wrap your mouth around them.
6- Outer labia -As with the breast, when it comes to the vagina , we tend to dive right into the wet spot and ignore the outer lips. Assuming she's well-groomed, use your mouth and tongue to lick and kiss the labia majors of your woman's vagina and when you finally head on in, she'll be soaked.
7- Ankles- It's somewhat anti-climactic to finish off with it, I know, but some women love having their feet kissed and touched. But rather than her feet, opt to kiss and caress her ankles instead. Be careful; don't bite the area because it can hurt her.
well that all i can think of at this very moment.. lol...
alright.. Peace out ya'll
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Hey how do u react to this "Lay back baby, close your eyes ,Ice on the pinky finger froze your thighs"..? lol...
you know what... instead of me going on about hot sexy stuffs... way dont i give ya'll some tips...about the female body.... you know .. how to satisfy a lady...it might be true.. it might be not.. but this is what i've learnt in my days lol ~_^
so.. here it goes : (WARNING!!!! this could get a lil .. u know.. so if u dont want to know/read it then DONT!!!![dont say i didnt warn ya coz i just did!!])
1- Spine-While you should never massage the spine directly, feel free to use your tongue or fingers to glide up it every now and then. To drive her crazy, let your tongue graze over the little hairs on her back. Or, you can always use your fingers to tickle your way up to her neck.
2- Behind the neck- Believe it or not, for some women, the back of the neck is the spot that makes them melt. Next time you kiss your girl , move her hair away from her neck (if applicable) and breathe on her neck, letting your lips graze against it before you kiss and then lightly bite into it.
3- Scalp- While you're kissing your girl, put your hands on the back of her head and massage her scalp for a minute. As well, feel free to give her hair a little tug from the roots; it will heighten her senses.
4- Shoulders -From kissing and massaging to lightly biting, the shoulders are an oft-ignored body part, but should be given some serious attention. Because this area of a woman's body is often neglected, when you do spend some time appreciating her shoulders, she will get the chills and, in turn, you will get your thrills.
5- Breasts (not nipples) -We tend to instinctively head straight for the nipples and only grab on to the breasts when we want to bring the nipples closer to our mouths. However, if you want her nipple to beg for your attention, you need to spend some time kissing and caressing the surrounding area -- the breast. Lick and bite near the nipples without actually touching them and she'll be begging you to wrap your mouth around them.
6- Outer labia -As with the breast, when it comes to the vagina , we tend to dive right into the wet spot and ignore the outer lips. Assuming she's well-groomed, use your mouth and tongue to lick and kiss the labia majors of your woman's vagina and when you finally head on in, she'll be soaked.
7- Ankles- It's somewhat anti-climactic to finish off with it, I know, but some women love having their feet kissed and touched. But rather than her feet, opt to kiss and caress her ankles instead. Be careful; don't bite the area because it can hurt her.
well that all i can think of at this very moment.. lol...
alright.. Peace out ya'll
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Thursday, October 28, 2004
The Lust Factor......?????!!! WHAT??? yup... wait NO its HER!!
ok... THE LUST FACTOR.. ahem.... lol wait.. hold up.. is that all i've been thinking about for the last 2 days?.... hahahaha... well i must of admit.. it was kinda.... fun?.. thinking about the old days.. the memories..(please dont get me wrong..i think u all know and understand wat i sayin..lol).. and if u have been reading my blogs... u just have to guess this right... yes i am thinking of her... that beautiful..... SEXY!!!,.... passionate.. wonderful girl!!! =D.... omg... "D".. lol....
I remember the first time i actually met her... *smiles* (it was at skool by the way!!)that was a sweet moment... !!!! ^_^ *the first thought* wow! shes beautiful...and i kept looking.. "whaow i think shes a fun person to spend time with"...lol i remember our first conversation lol... it was about how i wanted a lazer gun hahaha.. that was so stupid... lol... i dont know but.. it ended up with she owes me the gun and Ann(a friend of hers but i know..) owes me diamonds to use for the laser lol... (but then wouldnt i just sell them and get money instead?? lol).. so.. that was about it for that day.. lol.. actually i left with a great impression of her... u know the saying " left breathless" that was it! then the night came... do you know how hard it is to sleep when u found and absolute perfect person? that u really want... well need in ur life?!! omgosh.. but then....PAUSE RIGHT THERE!!! i had to wait to see if she felt the same.. because.. being gay.. well bi in my case isnt that easy to have a possitive reply.. it actually took a fairly long while... then,..... after that long while (hell it felt long a very very long while!!!!! but then it came!=D)i felt... her feelings..(it sounds a lil crazy n weird but) i sensed it.. that strong feeling... i looked into her eyes and i wanted to kiss her right there and then!!.. but unsure if she was comfortable with it...so.. that was a miss out..then.. i waited 2 weeks again... then it happened again.. so this time i was sure about the feeling and trusted my heart and went for it.. i asked her out.. but.. i was so sure that i was thinking too much while wanting to ask her... and it wasnt a nice ask out either... lol i asked at skool and wanted to find somewhere quiet and private.. but that blew out.. skool was packed that day lol.. so i walked her away from friends sat her down and lol i didnt say anything.. took me a while?.. THEN the BELL RANG!!!! so i said.. " would u like to be my gf".. but i dont think she heard me... =/... cause she said "what?" as i said i was thinking too much at that moment.. than i said " you and me.... think about it... and reply when ur ready"... then off to class.... omg.. so nervous!!!! lol.. off to history for me... so wraped in that.. didnt pay enought attention in class lol got sent out... skool ended... it was like... 4:00pm... yea i think around there... she called... told me to come out... to... "my bridge" lol... *ahem* yea... and said.. a reasonable rejection... so that week was a total... weird... bad week... then that week ended... then u know wat?? SHE SAID YES!!!!! omgosh that was the best day..(as u could imagine!!!) she made my day.... .. ok... this is alot to read lol...
well then life went on.. lol... i remember our first handhold... =D.. it was on the bus... lol we were on the way to the end of skool picnic... 2003... it was slow but we got there... that day was great... lol... i made her sit in the water for so long.. i think she went cold..... (sorry).. but the sun was there so it was alright... ^_^ yea.. it was a fun day...after that... i held her hand and bag.. and walked her home...^_^... she lives like 4 st's away from me... i got a huge tan on that day man lol... ...
our first date lol.. it was with her friends... at um.. Livo? or para... i think it was livo westfields... that was fun too lol.. then X-mas came.. =D spent it at my house... then my bday was shorty after that.. spent at my house again... then new year came... we went to the city and with her cousin... to watch fireworks... =D pretty.... on that night.. i would actually call that the first kiss... lol.. [is it true that how u spent our new year is how ur year would turn out to be?please comment on that i wanna know lol] came home late and got in heaps of trouble lol.. suppose to be grounded but went out neways... and then... the real deal started.... it was first month... i gave her a kiss on the way to her house... she didnt respon so i was like.. did i do that wrong?.. lol.. but the next day changed lol.. uh huh.. thats right... i dont think we got enough of each other... we spent so much time together that her parents kicked me out of the house.. ... oh that was tough.. well on her u know... well newayz....time went by... lust .... temptation went stronger... and so my memories began..... i dont wanna talk about it lol.. too much ... yea... it was like %%%$&^**(*%$@~~~!@_)(*&^%$#@_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^%$# kinda thing... lol.. ..... u could say i have been beaten in my own game ~_^... lol... i just realised (again) that this is pretty long.. and and AND.. i got alot of homework to catch up on.. lol so yea...
Peace out
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
I remember the first time i actually met her... *smiles* (it was at skool by the way!!)that was a sweet moment... !!!! ^_^ *the first thought* wow! shes beautiful...and i kept looking.. "whaow i think shes a fun person to spend time with"...lol i remember our first conversation lol... it was about how i wanted a lazer gun hahaha.. that was so stupid... lol... i dont know but.. it ended up with she owes me the gun and Ann(a friend of hers but i know..) owes me diamonds to use for the laser lol... (but then wouldnt i just sell them and get money instead?? lol).. so.. that was about it for that day.. lol.. actually i left with a great impression of her... u know the saying " left breathless" that was it! then the night came... do you know how hard it is to sleep when u found and absolute perfect person? that u really want... well need in ur life?!! omgosh.. but then....PAUSE RIGHT THERE!!! i had to wait to see if she felt the same.. because.. being gay.. well bi in my case isnt that easy to have a possitive reply.. it actually took a fairly long while... then,..... after that long while (hell it felt long a very very long while!!!!! but then it came!=D)i felt... her feelings..(it sounds a lil crazy n weird but) i sensed it.. that strong feeling... i looked into her eyes and i wanted to kiss her right there and then!!.. but unsure if she was comfortable with it...so.. that was a miss out..then.. i waited 2 weeks again... then it happened again.. so this time i was sure about the feeling and trusted my heart and went for it.. i asked her out.. but.. i was so sure that i was thinking too much while wanting to ask her... and it wasnt a nice ask out either... lol i asked at skool and wanted to find somewhere quiet and private.. but that blew out.. skool was packed that day lol.. so i walked her away from friends sat her down and lol i didnt say anything.. took me a while?.. THEN the BELL RANG!!!! so i said.. " would u like to be my gf".. but i dont think she heard me... =/... cause she said "what?" as i said i was thinking too much at that moment.. than i said " you and me.... think about it... and reply when ur ready"... then off to class.... omg.. so nervous!!!! lol.. off to history for me... so wraped in that.. didnt pay enought attention in class lol got sent out... skool ended... it was like... 4:00pm... yea i think around there... she called... told me to come out... to... "my bridge" lol... *ahem* yea... and said.. a reasonable rejection... so that week was a total... weird... bad week... then that week ended... then u know wat?? SHE SAID YES!!!!! omgosh that was the best day..(as u could imagine!!!) she made my day.... .. ok... this is alot to read lol...
well then life went on.. lol... i remember our first handhold... =D.. it was on the bus... lol we were on the way to the end of skool picnic... 2003... it was slow but we got there... that day was great... lol... i made her sit in the water for so long.. i think she went cold..... (sorry).. but the sun was there so it was alright... ^_^ yea.. it was a fun day...after that... i held her hand and bag.. and walked her home...^_^... she lives like 4 st's away from me... i got a huge tan on that day man lol... ...
our first date lol.. it was with her friends... at um.. Livo? or para... i think it was livo westfields... that was fun too lol.. then X-mas came.. =D spent it at my house... then my bday was shorty after that.. spent at my house again... then new year came... we went to the city and with her cousin... to watch fireworks... =D pretty.... on that night.. i would actually call that the first kiss... lol.. [is it true that how u spent our new year is how ur year would turn out to be?please comment on that i wanna know lol] came home late and got in heaps of trouble lol.. suppose to be grounded but went out neways... and then... the real deal started.... it was first month... i gave her a kiss on the way to her house... she didnt respon so i was like.. did i do that wrong?.. lol.. but the next day changed lol.. uh huh.. thats right... i dont think we got enough of each other... we spent so much time together that her parents kicked me out of the house.. ... oh that was tough.. well on her u know... well newayz....time went by... lust .... temptation went stronger... and so my memories began..... i dont wanna talk about it lol.. too much ... yea... it was like %%%$&^**(*%$@~~~!@_)(*&^%$#@_)(*&^%$#@@#$%^%$# kinda thing... lol.. ..... u could say i have been beaten in my own game ~_^... lol... i just realised (again) that this is pretty long.. and and AND.. i got alot of homework to catch up on.. lol so yea...
Peace out
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
tuesday...... yes? .. yes tuesday
so today is tuesday.... today was... um.. ok? well i thought about what to say .. it took me a while ..um...i dont really wanna talk but then.. all i wanna talk about at the moment is about someone... -_-`.... i think thats all i thought about today... well besides... watching out incase i get hit in sport...=/...
have you ever felt so lost that you dont know what to do anymore? or who to call? to talk to?...and your never satisfied with what you do at that time of period?.... ....
i think writing this today would go nowhere besides to the fact i miss someone... =(.... i just want to say that ... gurl.... i miss you... i Love you... i dont think shes even gonna read this but... it worth to say.. i want everyone to know... to know how i feel about her... how much and still Love her n always be in my heart.......*tear*
sigin out peeps....
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
have you ever felt so lost that you dont know what to do anymore? or who to call? to talk to?...and your never satisfied with what you do at that time of period?.... ....
i think writing this today would go nowhere besides to the fact i miss someone... =(.... i just want to say that ... gurl.... i miss you... i Love you... i dont think shes even gonna read this but... it worth to say.. i want everyone to know... to know how i feel about her... how much and still Love her n always be in my heart.......*tear*
sigin out peeps....
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
What a Monday
well last night was a bummer.... i couldnt sleep last and that affected my whole day lol.. gee i never knew my family could be noisy 24/7... ohmygod.... yea.. slept on the couch...=/ nieghbours dogs were fighting or something...my bird was sreaming.. my dog was barking? well i think it was my dog... family members snoring lol... so annoying... geezus.. it was a night of animal hell.... lol... then woke up with another bodyache.....
so anyways... school... hm... erm.. school.. what can i say about school.... school.. was actually fine today.... went by quicker than usual.... got to see my god sis.. so that was kool...^_^... all subjects went by fast ... well besides math?.... if i had my usual teacher it could'v went by faster as well but i got some slow guy.....lol... um... i was supprise that history wasnt as long... and i dont think we did any work in history lol... which was kool..... um...man.. today was kinda hot wasnt it? i brought my jumper and didnt wanna take it off so it was heatin up for me.. lol.. um,... i had a topic on mind that i wanted to share but then .. i forgot lol... how silly of me..well im listenign to an RnB station at the moment... its kinda kool but the hosts aint that good hahaa... well good enough i suppose...
well as usual i miss that special person... i saw her today... but far away so.. not that satisfied... and u know that song.... "My Boo" - by Usher feat. Alicia Keys..? well that song.. made me really miss her... ='(.....well this whole station reminds me of her... because its an HipHop/RnB and Soul station... and she like the kind of music so yea.
soooOOo sleepy dudes..... but got too much homework... lol.. i could always skip it... but then again.. i cant... i wanna take a holiday man. lol.. its only week 3 of term and im saying this oready... ..
u know what...? i didnt say this on yesterdays one but... yesterday.. this 3? gurls came up to me... and its like.. " hey... whats ur name... could i have ur number"... then i went... " nah.. sorry im kinda like still on sumone" and they like" oh ok... anyways my name is... (dun wanna say it ).. and heres my number if u change ur mind"... then the three walked away with a smile? i think it was a smile lol.. then like... an hour? later... i was just sitting there and this guy came up n go " hey .. u know johnny right? " i go " yerrrr?" he:" oh kool.. how are you.. " me:" um.. ok?" he: hahaha ok im sorry to bother you i'll see ya at the party" me: "what party... i wasnt invited to anyones party" he:"oh.. didt u? well i invite you.. its at my house" me:" oh.. ok? seeya there?" then he said bye n went lol.. i guess i have to go now lol... i just hope they dun make me drink anymore.. im getting off it.. havnt been drinking for a while now... lol..imma clean!!!!^_^... no drugs... no alcohol... no smoking.. omg.. that reminds me... hahahaha *flashback*... parties use to be wild bro... have any of you ever tried "body shots" ?.. lol.. for those who dont know what this is... it is when a gurl/guy lies on a table u or sum1 else or she/he pours alcohol shots (speaking vodka) on her/him with salt and lemon on her/him.. and u drink... lick it off her body...(well as u can tell its mostly more common on gurls rather than on guys) well..? have any one ever?.. lol it use to be fun.. .. i stoped because i meet someone special and dont wanna um.. get to her... and promise to quiet drinkin lol... um..yea.. lol... im so tired... lol and someone is here .. i dun wanna write any more... so peace...
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
so anyways... school... hm... erm.. school.. what can i say about school.... school.. was actually fine today.... went by quicker than usual.... got to see my god sis.. so that was kool...^_^... all subjects went by fast ... well besides math?.... if i had my usual teacher it could'v went by faster as well but i got some slow guy.....lol... um... i was supprise that history wasnt as long... and i dont think we did any work in history lol... which was kool..... um...man.. today was kinda hot wasnt it? i brought my jumper and didnt wanna take it off so it was heatin up for me.. lol.. um,... i had a topic on mind that i wanted to share but then .. i forgot lol... how silly of me..well im listenign to an RnB station at the moment... its kinda kool but the hosts aint that good hahaa... well good enough i suppose...
well as usual i miss that special person... i saw her today... but far away so.. not that satisfied... and u know that song.... "My Boo" - by Usher feat. Alicia Keys..? well that song.. made me really miss her... ='(.....well this whole station reminds me of her... because its an HipHop/RnB and Soul station... and she like the kind of music so yea.
soooOOo sleepy dudes..... but got too much homework... lol.. i could always skip it... but then again.. i cant... i wanna take a holiday man. lol.. its only week 3 of term and im saying this oready... ..
u know what...? i didnt say this on yesterdays one but... yesterday.. this 3? gurls came up to me... and its like.. " hey... whats ur name... could i have ur number"... then i went... " nah.. sorry im kinda like still on sumone" and they like" oh ok... anyways my name is... (dun wanna say it ).. and heres my number if u change ur mind"... then the three walked away with a smile? i think it was a smile lol.. then like... an hour? later... i was just sitting there and this guy came up n go " hey .. u know johnny right? " i go " yerrrr?" he:" oh kool.. how are you.. " me:" um.. ok?" he: hahaha ok im sorry to bother you i'll see ya at the party" me: "what party... i wasnt invited to anyones party" he:"oh.. didt u? well i invite you.. its at my house" me:" oh.. ok? seeya there?" then he said bye n went lol.. i guess i have to go now lol... i just hope they dun make me drink anymore.. im getting off it.. havnt been drinking for a while now... lol..imma clean!!!!^_^... no drugs... no alcohol... no smoking.. omg.. that reminds me... hahahaha *flashback*... parties use to be wild bro... have any of you ever tried "body shots" ?.. lol.. for those who dont know what this is... it is when a gurl/guy lies on a table u or sum1 else or she/he pours alcohol shots (speaking vodka) on her/him with salt and lemon on her/him.. and u drink... lick it off her body...(well as u can tell its mostly more common on gurls rather than on guys) well..? have any one ever?.. lol it use to be fun.. .. i stoped because i meet someone special and dont wanna um.. get to her... and promise to quiet drinkin lol... um..yea.. lol... im so tired... lol and someone is here .. i dun wanna write any more... so peace...
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Just woke up...
I just woke up from a huge hangover .... nah im just kiddin.... but then again i did just wake up.. ohmygod.. that was the worse night ever.... i dont know why its bad... maybe because i dont feel so well when i woke up... i have a backache right now.. i fell of my bed hahaha.... from a pretty weird dream... it was nice at first../ but then it turned around into some sort of horror thing... lol.. i was being chased by some crazy scary guy.. i dont know..now that that come up.. it kinda reminded me of the movie "Freddy 'vs' Jason" lol.. it was kinda like that in my dream.. but then i woke up saying "kool...i mean wt?" lol... ok enough about that.... lets move on.
tonight.. im hoping to go clubbin... just get out for the night.. and maybe if i do go.. i'll write about that tonight too.. lol.. or tomorrow..
neways... im doing some jammin at the moment so yea... my fingers hurt.. =(
havnt played in a long while, very long while.. lol i think i just made up my own song... its pretty catchy too... ...
you know what...? have you ever tried to challage urself so that u could take ur mind of some things and set it on something else?... lol.. i'm trying it at the moment and i dont think its working for me... because i challaged myself to read a book..( and i dont usually read... well besides for english!) and its a huge ass book for me.. its about 610 pages.. and guess whats its about... a CAT!!!! A CAT!!! the book is called "Matthew Flinders Cat" i just had to choose it... out of all the books in the library... -_-`....well cats have a relation to what im trying to put my mind out off..... but then.. it only makes me think more...i mean i dont mind thinking about her... my ex... OHMYGOD shes so unbelieveably unforgetable... period that is... i dont wanna forget her... i still got her picture on my wall... the song i use to sing to her still in my head.. on mind... i mean... " Love is an emotion, not a choice. " right?.. because you dont just go up to some one and go.. hey im going to love you now.. lol.. u'll get slaped? or laugh at... and that aint feel good... lol..ok.. im out for now.. i'll end here...
my quote for this one is....
*Better to have loved and lost,than to have never loved at all*
so rock out peeps...stay kool!!! \m/d[>.<]b\m/ hahaha
-\m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ - [P][E][A][N][U][T][D][E][V][I][L] - \m/d[õ.Õ]b\m/ -
tonight.. im hoping to go clubbin... just get out for the night.. and maybe if i do go.. i'll write about that tonight too.. lol.. or tomorrow..
neways... im doing some jammin at the moment so yea... my fingers hurt.. =(
havnt played in a long while, very long while.. lol i think i just made up my own song... its pretty catchy too... ...
you know what...? have you ever tried to challage urself so that u could take ur mind of some things and set it on something else?... lol.. i'm trying it at the moment and i dont think its working for me... because i challaged myself to read a book..( and i dont usually read... well besides for english!) and its a huge ass book for me.. its about 610 pages.. and guess whats its about... a CAT!!!! A CAT!!! the book is called "Matthew Flinders Cat" i just had to choose it... out of all the books in the library... -_-`....well cats have a relation to what im trying to put my mind out off..... but then.. it only makes me think more...i mean i dont mind thinking about her... my ex... OHMYGOD shes so unbelieveably unforgetable... period that is... i dont wanna forget her... i still got her picture on my wall... the song i use to sing to her still in my head.. on mind... i mean... " Love is an emotion, not a choice. " right?.. because you dont just go up to some one and go.. hey im going to love you now.. lol.. u'll get slaped? or laugh at... and that aint feel good... lol..ok.. im out for now.. i'll end here...
my quote for this one is....
*Better to have loved and lost,than to have never loved at all*
so rock out peeps...stay kool!!! \m/d[>.<]b\m/ hahaha
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well i am bored at the moment so i ask a couple of people to give me a topic.. any topic.. and it goes like this... school, Life, Naruto, and.. cow? lol.. yes cow was from my brother... so..
SCHOOL. well school... um.. what can i really tell u about school from my point of view... well to me school is a pain in the ass!! well school is fine.... the subjects.. the classes.. but what really bugs me is.. the people in them... teenagers... some of them.. just cant take a changed point... i understand.. i am to a teenager... and we need sometimes need something to talk about.. right? so why dont we talk about music or movies or fashion? or somthing like that and rather than picking on other students in the school because their different..??!!! "everyone has their own mind" as i said in my other article... but then i cant say that about everyone... i just stand up for all those who actually gets picked on... like me... or even worser.... some people are actually nice in school... others? maybe they should find something else to do... they are just people that a bored outta their brains and think they are to better than everyone else... im sorry i have to end "school" here... because im going a little nutty....
ok,.. LIFE.. whos life... my life? hm... not much excitment happen in my life... besides finding someone i like..... love in that matter of fact.. well i dont live a nice decent life... and the reason? well the main reason is that the fact im bisexual.. and that kinda relates to what i wrote in "school".... and i live in a fairly... unstabble family... well i cant say that mind is the worse because i knwo out there somewhere someone elses family is in worser condition.... but i get along day by day.. maybe with abit of anger through the day but yea... ok.. next subject.
NARUTO...... naruto? sorry i dont watch that... im too lazy to read the subtittles... lol.. my bro watches it.. my friends watches it.. but i dont.. lol.. i'll watch it when they actually translate it... in english... so yea.. not much to say here.. sorry.
COW,....cow? i like cows? they provide milk... lol.. and meat... i like the cows that is white with black spots... lol... they are cute... cows... um... people use cows in movies? in music videos? lol yea.. and in story books.. kiddy ones mostly.. and they make cow toys lol.. some are cute n cuddly others not so much lol... they can be scary... and hey,... why dont they make a cow bank too... coz that would be really cute.. coz u know the piggy banks? where u save ya money... yea.. think of a cow one... wouldnt that be cute.. lol... (i sound lame).
so.. that is all .. lol.. i wanna write more but then... this looks long... so yea.. i'll stop now,,, and might write again later?... i dunno why im writting so much but i am and i hope u enjoyed? lol.. yea.. peace out...
Keep Chillin' peepsa
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SCHOOL. well school... um.. what can i really tell u about school from my point of view... well to me school is a pain in the ass!! well school is fine.... the subjects.. the classes.. but what really bugs me is.. the people in them... teenagers... some of them.. just cant take a changed point... i understand.. i am to a teenager... and we need sometimes need something to talk about.. right? so why dont we talk about music or movies or fashion? or somthing like that and rather than picking on other students in the school because their different..??!!! "everyone has their own mind" as i said in my other article... but then i cant say that about everyone... i just stand up for all those who actually gets picked on... like me... or even worser.... some people are actually nice in school... others? maybe they should find something else to do... they are just people that a bored outta their brains and think they are to better than everyone else... im sorry i have to end "school" here... because im going a little nutty....
ok,.. LIFE.. whos life... my life? hm... not much excitment happen in my life... besides finding someone i like..... love in that matter of fact.. well i dont live a nice decent life... and the reason? well the main reason is that the fact im bisexual.. and that kinda relates to what i wrote in "school".... and i live in a fairly... unstabble family... well i cant say that mind is the worse because i knwo out there somewhere someone elses family is in worser condition.... but i get along day by day.. maybe with abit of anger through the day but yea... ok.. next subject.
NARUTO...... naruto? sorry i dont watch that... im too lazy to read the subtittles... lol.. my bro watches it.. my friends watches it.. but i dont.. lol.. i'll watch it when they actually translate it... in english... so yea.. not much to say here.. sorry.
COW,....cow? i like cows? they provide milk... lol.. and meat... i like the cows that is white with black spots... lol... they are cute... cows... um... people use cows in movies? in music videos? lol yea.. and in story books.. kiddy ones mostly.. and they make cow toys lol.. some are cute n cuddly others not so much lol... they can be scary... and hey,... why dont they make a cow bank too... coz that would be really cute.. coz u know the piggy banks? where u save ya money... yea.. think of a cow one... wouldnt that be cute.. lol... (i sound lame).
so.. that is all .. lol.. i wanna write more but then... this looks long... so yea.. i'll stop now,,, and might write again later?... i dunno why im writting so much but i am and i hope u enjoyed? lol.. yea.. peace out...
Keep Chillin' peepsa
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Saturday, October 23, 2004
Missing those perfect eyes...
I think this is a flashback moment....... i miss some one that....yea
the first day i met her... that day... i couldnt believe my eyes.... she is so beautiful just stunning...i wanted her just that minute.. but.. i had to take time.. cause it takes to make sure right?lol... i dont know if i should be saying stuffs like this on here.. um... yea.. i love her... i miss her... i miss her ways she gets around me?.. dude.. its hot...... um...*ahem* she just puts a smile on my face... do u know that feeling? its like whaow....isnt it....when im with her.. its like.. whaow... i wanna be with this gurl forever... hm.. have you ever felt that way? its a wonderful feeling u know... i think its love but... not sure.. cause.. how do u know if it is or not... do u even know wat it is? and does love have a reason to be?.... to me i dont think it does... all i got is.. i miss her... im crazy over her... her body(its like ouch look at that body move!!~_^).... touch.?...her mind....just her... just her name kinda explains her oready...
BUT THEN..... things have changed... i mean not the fact that i Love her.. that'll never ever change!!!!!!..... but what has change is that... she hates me now... she thinks i did something wrong... and i lost her trust bcause of that. well everyone has a mind of their own right...?.. i gotto get her back somehow.. but i know that isnt easy... nothing is easy... i follow my heart... its like " Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't. " now isnt that true... to tell u the truth.. the eye is pretty slow lol... i cant get rid of the feeling that i like her.... lover .. but then again i dont ever want to..damn. i sound creepy for a minute there.. lol... ok...
" Sometimes, love makes a big scar in your heart. Be happy for that scar because the bigger the scar, the bigger you've loved. "
chill out
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the first day i met her... that day... i couldnt believe my eyes.... she is so beautiful just stunning...i wanted her just that minute.. but.. i had to take time.. cause it takes to make sure right?lol... i dont know if i should be saying stuffs like this on here.. um... yea.. i love her... i miss her... i miss her ways she gets around me?.. dude.. its hot...... um...*ahem* she just puts a smile on my face... do u know that feeling? its like whaow....isnt it....when im with her.. its like.. whaow... i wanna be with this gurl forever... hm.. have you ever felt that way? its a wonderful feeling u know... i think its love but... not sure.. cause.. how do u know if it is or not... do u even know wat it is? and does love have a reason to be?.... to me i dont think it does... all i got is.. i miss her... im crazy over her... her body(its like ouch look at that body move!!~_^).... touch.?...her mind....just her... just her name kinda explains her oready...
BUT THEN..... things have changed... i mean not the fact that i Love her.. that'll never ever change!!!!!!..... but what has change is that... she hates me now... she thinks i did something wrong... and i lost her trust bcause of that. well everyone has a mind of their own right...?.. i gotto get her back somehow.. but i know that isnt easy... nothing is easy... i follow my heart... its like " Sometimes the heart sees what the eyes can't. " now isnt that true... to tell u the truth.. the eye is pretty slow lol... i cant get rid of the feeling that i like her.... lover .. but then again i dont ever want to..damn. i sound creepy for a minute there.. lol... ok...
" Sometimes, love makes a big scar in your heart. Be happy for that scar because the bigger the scar, the bigger you've loved. "
chill out
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intro.. intro of me... lol....
well... this is like my first post ever of actual writing lol. so yea.. if i've done wrong... give me a break lol um.... im basically a gurl..... im 16 yrs of age...... n i live in the Canley Vale area.. lol.. im in love.. with some one i cant be with so thats a pain...Shes a wonderful gurl.... and yes.. im gay.... actually wouldnt call it gay im bi... yes shes a wonderful gurl... i dont know what i did wrong to lose her but i did... and theres no turning back!!!!.... =/... um...
Today... is a pissy day today... far out.... i think i join this so i could.. say things out... cause at the moment no one wants to listen to me... um.... yea.. im sorry but it all i got to say today...
chill out peeps!~!!!
Today... is a pissy day today... far out.... i think i join this so i could.. say things out... cause at the moment no one wants to listen to me... um.... yea.. im sorry but it all i got to say today...
chill out peeps!~!!!
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