last night.... i went to Helen's birthday dinner....
was good. wasn't how i expected, but good.

i went to Helen's dinner with Nicky....
and of course, she drove... and it was a great feeling that someone else was driving.... i feel sick of driving.... though i have my moments and days where i put on my sunnies and pump the music up... and I'm allll good.
um, we didn't stay for long because we didn't feel so comfortable being there, with the people- most of them i simply do not get along with ( high school reasons... or just because i don't like how they ... are?), though i talk to them anyways(because it's called being polite)... never more than 5 minutes though...not intending of course..
great to see Helen, Sara and Carolyn there though...
so me and Nicky just sat at the bar for a while... to let the time pass and settle a bit before entering again.. and but we also wanted some time to ourselves...with each other?.... (ahha... i don't know how that works there so I'll point that out.), ended up drinking heaps of liquid (fucken cost so much, spent about $30.00 on drinks...and it wasn't many either. but then our meal didn't cost as much as i expected so that was ok.. and we shared our food...).
we left after a while... because it was feeling kind of awkward being there and actually not being in there, and Nicky had to work early the next morning.... so we went for a nice walk around the habourside (it was so nice and pretty... we were on the bridge and looking down.. the lights and the water... so pretty.. and the breeze .. it was kinda romantic? i sort of lost myself =S ) and drove home...
got to my place and she came in to see the kids for about half an hour then went home...

even though not many things happened,much... it was a great night for me... i felt it was a great night... got to get out with Nicky... and see all my good people at the same time... and that nice walk... and talk.... hm... this should happen more often... i don't know why it doesn't, its a good feeling, so it should.... i don't know how people feel about Nicky... or me bringing Nicky... but yea..
who cares.... (yea.. looks like i care.. because i brought it up, but yea.. i care more on what my friends think..... yea.. the people i hang out with.... not the others..).

.... i have a hype. its not going away... and I'm not so sure i want it to go away... it feel nice just the way it is. i wanted to post when i came home last night but i thought i should let myself calm down a bit more before speaking... i was trippin all over the place....

hm.

hm......

makes me think.....

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nothing much happened today.
was babysitting for most of today... just stopped actually... its about 11pm now....

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for the first time i didn't think too much into things.... i feel happy...
not trying to ruin and figure out why things happen.. wondering when the bad will happen to take affect... hm...

just enjoy the moment....

hm.. my moment is lasting pretty long... i hope that's a good thing.

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well goodnight then =)

-[Pd]-