hello blog buddies (mocking daveywavey... guy on youtube... i think hes cute, and "hello blog buddies" is what he says... and that's cute too.... and i think he is hot...very clean- great looking... - i have a crush on a gay guy on youtube. *sighs* - feels like i need a life.. i enjoy his posts.)
i honestly don't know what to talk about.... I'll just sit here with this open for a while.. (like i usually do anyways.. but today.. I'm so blank)..
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oh!!.... was discussing about my financial status and my plan to buy a house and such...
and i told my cousin that i just want to give up seeking property for now.. and take my money and go on a great and long holiday and maybe travel the world or stay at one or a few places for a really long time... anyways...
then i had a business idea that i wanted to open a cafe, because my cousin was saying that she wants to open a take-away shop.
opening a cafe has been my long time dream... well not that long ago... but somewhere there, and it was kicked in the arse when i learnt a few people i know opened cafes of their own...
but it's back, it's back.
i want to open a cafe, but i have no clue how to... or have any clue on how to maintain it..
clueless on a dream i feel so passionate about... funny that.
I'll find a way...... i heard there's a class for it..... I'll look into that.
let the hopes,dream,faith begin.
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i realised that i have a new fear...............................................................
yea... a new fear.
i have the fear of my skull/head exploding,
or collapsing or visually cracking.
and when i have headaches and such... i start freaking out, becoming really paranoid.
(well i don't dramatically freak out... just talking inside my head... like.. omg omg it hurts so much... i hope it doesn't explode... it feels like its cracking... ouch ouch ouch.)
speaking of fears... i think i have quite a lot....
um,
-i have fears of birds....or feathers, or things with feathers
-i have fears of things mysteriously appearing in water (lakes,beaches,pool, big barrows of water..etc)(yea.. probably too many horror movies).
-i have slight fear of manikins- suddenly moving or jump and scare the living day lights out of you.
-i have the fear of driving around by myself really late at night and getting car jacked, and probably stabbed or killed in the process...
-i have a fear of strange animals or most animals... i am not a animal person... but i do care, just please don't hold anything to me, unless i asked for it...
yea, that's my general fears... i have mental fear issues too but I'll just leave that....
of course i try to play cool.... it's not a good feeling when you freak out around people u fancy, yah know. see, if a date comes to dinner with a feather as part of the clothes... i wouldn't freak out.. I'll just notice it a heck of a lot, and probably loose my focus on my date...
what are your general fears.....
actually... i don't think I'll call them fears.... or are they... i don't know.. because i don't overreact when those situations happen...I'll get shocked and then quickly get over it.. or calmly freak out inside and not let the other person know....
like birds... i come across birds all the time... and especially when walking with a really nice lady friend through a park... FULL of birds, i do not scream my lungs out and run away... i would suck it up and keep walking THROUGH the lot of birds... and depending on who I'm with then i decide to tell calmly that i have a slight fear of birds...and prepare for a laugh/crack up/giggle.
(but i wouldn't know what I'll do if one decides to attack me... !!!! ARGGHHH)
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went out for a coffee with one of my older lady friend this morning... it was nice...
elegant.
i think i have the fancies for older women.... i just find most of them attractive either in one way or another...
i think i like my cousin's sister in-law.... is that wrong?
she is about 40-something.... is that wrong?
I'm 20....
... don't get me wrong... girls my age, i still notice... but i seem to notice the elders more....
elder makes them sound reallly realllllly old..... i don't know what you consider old... but about 50 or 60 up.. is what i call old...
the ones i take interest in are really just individuals... smart, sexy, funny,strong, sophisticated, witty, wicked... in order but seeks to be bad.....
hm... sorry, a bit too carried away with myself there... but i hope you got the point.
ahaha... i feel like once i post this... it will put a strain on between me and my friends... paranoid on if I'm checking out their mum....
(your mum rates me)
ok fun time,over...
sorry guys... maybe I'm just a twisted little weirdo... but hey.. I'm blogging.. and you are reading...
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ok... i should stop.... ^_^.v
cheers.
-[Pd]-
