does that look alarming to you?

turns out its water and they were cleaning the krispy kreme doughnut machine...

probably chocolate...

but,

my thought when i saw that ways.. " omg.. indoor plumbing gone wrong... "

or.. that guy just fell asleep and didn't care that the machine was overflowing with chocolate...

just came back not too long ago from going to krispy kremes with Helen... where i took that picture..

had a nice talk with her, haven't hung out with her in a while.. and it feels great to see her again...

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i realised today that i haven't been in a stabled relationship since i was in year 9-10.. so that was about 5 years ago....

the past 5 years.. i have been hopping, swinging, swaying, jumping, playing around with much girls... and I'm thinking.. maybe that's how i am... that's who i have become...

maybe i am unable to have a serious relationship... for the last 5 years... i don't think i have dated anyone for more than a month, i think i go through girls like i go through a song... as much as i love music... i can not listen to a song continuously for a month and more...

maybe i have a short interest attention span...

maybe i like to chase and once i have them, i get bored after a very short while....- that's not nice Tori...

maybe i do it to feel good about myself... knowing that i can still whoo a girl...

maybe I'm insecure and become too needy and needs someone to "care" heaps and if they don't then I'll leave and find someone else that will...

maybe it's a game... a sport.

a habit...

a lifestyle......

not good Tori.

i feel like anybody else though... to be truly honest.

when I'm single.. i would go out and find people....

and when I'm with someone.. then I'll just be with them...

but i guess it all starts with how we meet...

maybe i set too much on your mind...

do i set too much on your mind?...

some called me a womaniser... i don't know if i want to call myself that...

because i do have that thought of settling down and eventually marry one day... and even have kids... i would definitely want kids when I'm a bit older from now...

am i on a phase?.... does any phase.. lasts so freaking long?

am i just doing it to pass time?

i don't know...

i love girls...

and i don't plan on stopping.

I'm craving...

anywho...

-[Pd]-