I'm feeling kind of bored and lonely right about now...
it's cold and raining outside... so i feel like staying in.

people say I'm moping, because I'm at home, and not out there...

maybe i am moping, maybe I'm not.

what am i moping about...?

i feel somewhat empty, Bridgette has been on my mind...
i miss her, i do.

Bridgette came back to Sydney last night to gather some of her things to bring back to Brisbane, and i went over to see her this morning and drove her to the airport...
we talked, though i don't feel like we said enough...
there was heavy amounts of emotional eye contact, instead of words - which means more than words can ever be.

we spoke and left it as probably a good thing if we don't get together anymore.
there is too many corruptions to make it work again...


even though, we didn't last long or have what we wanted...
i can't help but be really sad about losing her .. heart breaking that we missed out on each other of something incredible.

i miss her,

maybe i should have tried a bit harder...

.."should have"...
..."what if"...

...blah.

i miss her smile... i miss her voice... i miss her smell... i miss looking into her eyes, in any mood she's in... i miss her lips that kisses me so sweetly... i miss her hands in mine... i miss her fingers running across my lips... i miss her hugs... i miss her snuggles and cuddles... i miss the way she cares what i eat&drink - keeping me healthy... i miss how she sings with me when i play my guitar... i miss how we use to joke around and make fun of things&situations... i miss how she would call me in the morning to say good morning, at 3am to check if i have gone to sleep, and calls before she goes to sleep to say goodnight... i miss the tone of her voice for when she says that she misses me and wish i was right there with her at that moment... i miss sitting at a cafe enjoying a cup of coffee, sulking up the sun, and just random talk with her...
i miss how she would tease me and leave my heart sinking to the ground then picks it up again,
i miss her sexy body - so soft&smooth, perfectly attractive from top to toe...
i miss how her heart is so big...
i miss how she understands what i say or not say...

i miss her.... but we both know it won't work...

she is permanently staying in Brisbane now.

it's a heart break to see her go.

-[Pd]-