a girl wrote her number on the back of this card and gave it to me...

i think this is scaring me.

but scary is hot, i feel intrigued, the curiosity about her.. the fear, the control, the power. its hot.

ok serious now.

i have to admit that i am feeling very bummed that cooper is leaving for a while.

i know i have said it before.. she knows it, i know it... everyone around me knows it.

but i can't stop it...

i am a sook, i know.

but its so hard to not think about it.

i am a sook, i know.

it's becoming so bad that she is forced to make me take her in small doses.

she is like my cigarettes... and i am a heavy chain smoker.

i am dramatic, i know.

I'm serious, we have talked everyday since we met, and it would be hard to not talk to her, or make a silly/dramatic/serious/frustrated/funny/random/cute/sexy comment... to her.. about things.. or about her..

it's just not the same with any one else.

hm...

my phone is attached to my hand.... and she is on the other side...

who will i call now... who will i text now.. hm...

no one else can take all my bullshit.. or play my way or um just respond every time.

i can be obsessive, i know.

i can adapt to a routine/ habit really quickly...

i do a lot of things obsessively and addictively... for a good and big example, girls...but i do seek them because i do happen to enjoy girls and their company... but then again i am obsessively and addicted to them.

and having cooper around 24/7... making comments, turning to her, talking to her,joking with her, seeing her.. is obsessive and additive too. its a habit... and the fact that i have someone to say things to instead of saying it to myself and making myself look silly in public... just laugh at my own comment that was made IN MY HEAD(people pointing and say , omfg look at that crazy girl, wtf is she laughing at??!!).

..yea..

...... speaking of missing....

i miss my friends....

no one seems to be around....

i know i know... work and uni... work and uni.....

hm..

i miss nicky...

i miss bridgette... in a few ways... i just can't help missing her.. because she was and is such a big a dramatic part of my life.

had a nice talk/chat with her today... and apologised for snapping at her a few times... she does frustrate me.. but still its no good to snap at people and be mean and harsh.

um,

i miss my puppy pep...

i miss cramming my day with watching the L word... i am in the middle of the last season and i don't want to continue because it will end. i don't want the L word to end, its heart breaking.

i miss playing my guitar.. and singing..

i spent the whole day with my guitar.. now my fingers and my throat is hurty. =(

i was also looking at a phone catalogue, and a new nokia phone is coming out called the n97... and i want it. i want to have it when it comes out in australia. it satisfies what i want .... well i am mainly attracted to it because it has a full touch screen and a qwerty keypad.

awesome.

i'm hungry now.....

-[Pd]-