i love love love heart tiny teddy.....i must have had... about 8 of those packets in the last 2 or 3 hours...

ever since i was little, i love tiny teddys... though i wasn't exposed to them til about , say 12 years old?... because my parents weren't into these snacks and such... my parents found them unnecessary and a waste of money, but when i got to try it... i have never looked back, tiny teddy has become my favourite....

childish, i know.. but they make me smile...

and they are all so cute.

look at them... just sitting there with their silly cute faces... i just want to eat them... but saving those for my brother... he denies it, but i know he loves them too.

omg, did i tell you that my hot water system broke?... like two days ago?....

the water cooker?... had some sort of leakage.. and so my dad turns it off for the majority of the day and night... and he made everyone shower at a certain time...

and i couldn't stand it... i shower like... 2 to 3 times a day... i am a personal hygiene freak, and this just turned me insane... i washed my hands like literally every 5 minutes because the thought of restricted hot water usage(showers) just drives me crazy(yea.. i kinda didn't wanna touch anyone because i was stressing out and doubting my and their hygiene).

and i could not... shower until like about 4pm today, because my dad was replacing the hot water tank and had to wait for it to be installed and for it to settle then boil the damn water.. and i just went nuts... i lost my mind.

be glad that you weren't around me today...

he made me shower like an hour ago... as my last shower for today... then he turned off the system again... *sigh*... i have a feeling i won't be sleeping tonight, just be awake washing my hands every 5 minutes but i will try to sleep.

hmph.

i love watching the lakers and the magic ..... (NBA - basketball)

such great teams... i can never choose sides.. so i just get excited about their extremely incredible techniques and confuse the crap out of the person watching with me whenever they vs.

by the way.... thanks too allll my American friends that watched it before me... thanks for not telling me the outcome, scores. but then again, it won't make much of a difference if you did tell me because i'd still enjoy the game just as much, because i love watching all their techniques/tricks.

my nephew Jeremy drew this.. because he was bored one time... and he calls it " strings or lazers"... honestly, i love it... i just love it. i can't exactly explain why or how... i just love it.

i open it really big.. max my screen and just stare at it... i love to just stare blankly into it...

i notice, depending on my mood, i see different colours and or different patterns...

my mind loves complication &contrast...but simple.

if i haven't already told you or if you haven't already know.. i love the mind. i fond thoughts.

don't get me wrong... i don't try to get inside your head by asking you a bunch of random piercing questions...and i don't try to just get inside your head so i can mess it up....

the usual, i just try to figure out your comfort zone...

though i do like to push the mind, and i do get attracted to things like what Jeremy drew... it is totally random but it was from a mood, a expression, he was expressing himself. - the choice of colour, which he used first , which he even used at all... and the direction of the lines... the patterns...

i like to analyse people's behaviour.

do you know anyone else like me? do these things?...

i admit i do these things because i do like to study people, but i do it on my own.. i don't take classes... i don't attend school, heaps of people i know are studying psychology.. i wonder how they deal with that... because everyone has a different way of analysing something or someone, and i know expressions and etc are common, like when your happy you'd smile.. i know that..

i just wonder how they pick at the deeper... inside emotion, personality.

if you study psychology, tell me about it... tell me what you get out of it...

my first reasons for learning psychological things are because i find people lie too much.. and i was young, and you know when sometimes wish that you have superpowers and that you could read people's minds and etc... well that was my reason.. and note again.. i was a kid when i wish this...

so i grew up with that reason...

and then a few years down, i used it as an advantage to get to people... pick ups, hook ups... i could always adapt faster to people when i figure out some sort of mood/thought (intentions) of the other person and adapt myself to their comfort level.

but then i started getting dark... i tried to study the minds of serial killers....i find them fascinating, and then i got to a point where i realised there's are heaps more the mind can do... and there are many ways of pushing the mind, opening new dimensions of thoughts.

i know i sound crazy.... i guess i have too much time on my hands.

i speak of these things a lot.. and a few people say to me " oh, why don't you just study psychology and become a psychologist or become a neurologist"

neurology is the physical, i'm not into that...

psychologist?.. i'm not interested in the helping to get better as a job, i'm ok with it as a friends thing but not for a job.... i reckon that if i do become a psychologist, i'd be a really crap service because i wouldn't try to help you.. i'll probably be trying to pick your brains out... for my own kicks.

i am just simply curious about the mind, what controls who we are... i have no point on why i am so drawn to this... i just like it.

the thoughts, the emotions, the effects, the affects, the influence, etc etc etc....just how we be.

and no, i don't mind wash. that's just silly... because i wouldn't be interested anymore.

-[Pd]-