went to lunch&coffee and sat at a lake with a friend today...

i like visiting the lake...
today was so still and calming... letting the time sneak pass without realisation...
thoughts filled my head... and emotions filled my heart...
but i tired to keep it in... foolishly, i tried to keep it in.

i wanted to say so much, because there is so much on my mind..
but i like listening...

i has been a while since i visited the lake, simply because of the weather...
but today was some how perfect...
i miss the lake...
the lake allows me to feel free, with the open air, the still/calm water, the birds flying by, the grass, the trees......

i felt free, collected, content....
wished that could have stayed a bit longer, but i don't think there is enough time in the world to make me want to leave.

i like to keep the scenery in my mind to help me relax.


also met a nice lady and her little shy grandson... Jonathan?...
she seems so nice and open minded... positive, understanding....
i wonder if I'll be understanding, positive and open minded and still love kids when I'm a tad older...
its so sweet that just the thought of the lady taking her grandson to the swings everyday, and he gets tired within a few swings and she carries him home...
her heart is big..

maybe the lake helped her be so content...because she lives right at the lake side, just across the road(109 she keeps repeating... who knows maybe i will knock on her door some day- *knockknock* hello, I'm that weird little girl you thought that was 16 and still in school and thought maybe skipped school just to hang out at the lake but discovered that I'm a 20 year old that is just hanging out with her friend and then you came over and started talking to us.. how have you been?) maybe i should buy a home there so maybe I'll calm down a tad more...

-[Pd]-